/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

>>9247

A perfect song for a person who the laws of physics prohibit it's existence.

Yes. I am talking about Misaki.

[youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_jR7RKF3W5g[/youtube]

When I feel like shit and am driving somewhere I sing. Lately it's been this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2xmRWj7gJEU

>>10978

I dont really have anyone I trust anymore. I lost my family and friends to transitioning. If I tried to be like "Im a guy again? we cool?" it would only make them justified in telling me it was a phase and that Im wrong.

No, theres no one to talk to about it, which is why I am reaching out online to find successful detransitioners.

>>10982

being wrong isn't THIS bad, but it hurts the ego. Yet i think ego is a bad thing. If they reply to you the way you think they are shit. Friends and family should be understandful instead of assholes.

Well that's what i was told about…

to wake up from this nightmare

Borderline personality disorder and GAD, naturally I smoke cannabis every day, and heavily use benzodiazepines. I used to (and occasionally) do adderall, and I've tried cocaine and heroin once each. Opiates are always fun. I had a semi-recent stint with Tramadol, which had SNRI properties. That, with the occasional toke and a klonipin, was absolutely perfect for socializing and functioning. Oh yeah, and a bunch of DXM when I was 14. And I drink pretty normally.

Borderline, with prior diagnoses of Asperger syndrome, major depressive disorder, and ADHD.

I'm dependent on caffeine, and rarely go a day without at least two cups of coffee, don't know if it counts but ibuprofen pairs well with caffeine. I smoke weed almost every day, and drink real liquor whenever given the chance, and hand sanitizer occasionally.

I miss nicotine every day.

Chronic depression.

Everything I can get my hands on, up to and including heroin when I can afford it. I like shooting up, for a while I'm just warm and comfy and nothing really matters.

I hope one day I fuck up the dosage and unintentionally OD.

Don't touch me.

>>4110

This actually cheered me up.

Thanks for the kind words but you really wouldn't want to hug me, OP. I haven't bathed in 2 or 3 days.

>>4101

>>4100

makes me think of this

http://www.galactanet.com/oneoff/theegg_mod.html

>>3824

Thank you OP

ok

ayy lmao

nice trips though

>>10777

OP's pic related : My mom has the same. Has it a name in english? Can't remember it.

>reasons you were bullied

Don't really know (maybe good grades, staying alone during playtime…), at school it was just until twelve years old. After this I think I became too odd so people were afraid and just left me in peace.

Now am almost in peace on this point, except some mockeries on my lack of social skills at work.

I was bullied because I was friendly and tried to act silly. I also wore weird clothes.

People thought I was gay. Someone once threw a cinder block out of a car window at me. I didn't even know them.

>>10905

This.

Not even close. It's literally just a dream, don't worry.

It probably didn't mean much, if it persisted after waking then it might be something more.

>>10999

This is probably why my family acts like assholes occasionally. There hasn't been a good parent in two generations.

tinfoil and earplugs ;d

seriously try it, expect amazing results!

> mother won't bring me to free clinic

Your diagnosis is clear, you're a hobosexual. More precisely, you're narcissistic and regressive, childlish. You think everyone should take care of your needs -and they probably do, yet you're a real piece of shit and come here to talk bull about your parents.

Don't worry, you're not really depressed, you're just facing the fact that you suck.

>>10945

Bear skeleton looks like skeleton of an oversized friendly dog.

>>10944

I don't know in long term. I guess I will eventually end up being homeless with my dog. It's nigh impossible to get help for mental issues. I've been trying to get a time for a psychiatric for 5 or 6 months without success.

Doesn't really help that I'm ashamed to talk about my mental health issues to the doc.

>>11008

>>11008

T-thanks. I've actually been thinking of paying her a bit to bring me to these places. Money's just a bit hard to come by, especially when most jobs in walking distance require a driver's license/ private transportation.

>>11009

I thought of this before. Dog and everything, but he's dead now.

some sources say there is really a lot going on inside head, others say the opossite

>>10996

Interesting,

Could you post those sources? I wanna read more about that.

>>10995

In most cases it isn't that extreme.

Typically for me I don't even really notice it till it's already done. Imagine you're walking down the hall and you just realized that you were unable to move your upper body from a weird posture until just now.

That's how it happens to me at least.

>>10995

not much

Similar situation as you, few months ago I was tripping on something I'm still waiting to figure out if it was lsd or not, and mixed with cannabis after taking a long break from it due to it exacerbating delusions and causing panic attacks. My minds been really fucked up since then (horrible trip and the ER) and other than any type of downers and dmt is all I can really do. Mescaline tends to have a lot of side effects for a few weeks after if you have a bad reaction or burn out so I can't really say.

That's like asking for recommendations on fireworks while your whole body is made from straw.

Ketamine/PCP seem pretty safe

Nothing that makes you flip out like psychedelics or stims. Unless you want to chance losing it completely.

Alcohol and opiates won't make you psychotic. But they might ruin your life.

More details, the lack of friends and not going outside started this year. Haven't contacted my best friends for months. I mainly message people I've met in hospitals now, if at all.

Motivation varies day to day, but usually it's pretty low.

School performance dropped from 80s and 90s to 70s and one 60, before I dropped out.

A distant relative or two had schizophrenia.

Emotionally I sometimes feel empty, other times depressed, other times normal.

I don't find enjoyment in much anymore, everything seems pointless. Still into football (soccer) for example, but now it seems more bland.

try tinfoil and earplugs, expect amazing results

the brain is your 3rd eye :)

>>10885

samefag

>be a few days ago

>mom decides to bring me to hospital

>I believe it is useless, I didn't feel depressed, even a bit happy

>she says "halp my son is depressed"

>two hospital shrinks come and see me

>they ask me questions (such as "please describe how you want to an hero")

>I cry like a baby

>they propose to keep me in the hospital

>I don't want

>they say they could force me, but they won't if my mom gives me antidepressants

>ok

Well, now I have to take paroxetine everyday for a few months.

>>9604

This could be a legitimate sign that the quiz is shit

>83

why do i even bother with these things?

81

Up in the highschool bitches

>>10917

74 again. Hey, that's neat.

>>10931

Dr. fuckbaby island diagnoses all who wish to be speshil.

cut contact with her

>>10971

How do I ask her out, I need a script. I just want to get rejected and get this over with, maybe that will fix things.

op are you the male version of me?

>>10974

Just tell her that you want to Fuck her so bad that that after you are done she can pretend to be a slug and leave a trail of cum on the floor.

I don't see how anyone would not reject you after saying that.

>>10974

>I need a script.

'I'm going to bury my dick so deep in your ass that the next person to pull it out would be crowned King Of England.'

How about this?

forget about him OP. It won't work out.