I thought we might have an introductions thread to get the ball rolling. Without providing too much identifying information, of course.
I finally started being honest with myself about my *phile tendencies (non-exclusive, I like them all the way down to about 5, though below 8 or so it's more "unf, she's so cute" rather than anything too lewd) a couple of years ago, right around the time I started deciding to go my own way.
I had my first Φ feelings when I was around 12. Before that, the girls were around my age, so it didn't strike me as strange. When I was 12, there was a 6 year old girl I thought was so hot. That was around the time I started masturbating, and I fapped to the thought of her frequently, which confused me at the time. I probably didn't even know the word Φphile at the time, but I knew that I was supposed to find only girls my own age or older attractive.
I suppressed and kinda forgot about that for a lot of years as I dated girls my own age, lost my virginity at a pretty normal time, I guess (16), and basically went on with life. Always found girls below 13-14 really attractive, but knew that people tended to think that was fucked up and kept it to myself as a result. I got married and had a couple of kids (both boys, no worries). and while I'd been reasonably suave for a guy with my natural gifts (not many) when I was on the market/dating, I went total beta bux mode in my marriage. It didn't help that my wife was a whore, though.
Rehashing that whole episode would be unpleasant and time-consuming, so let it suffice to say that I emerged from my failed marriage determined to not let that kind of thing happen again. I'm grateful that I had enough maturity and experience at that point to not hop on the first pussy that oozed by and to take some time to get centered, get used to being alone, and figure out what I wanted out of life. That's not an experience my ex-wife took to heart. She got into a serious relationship very quickly with the first deadbeat who looked her way, and now they're in the midst of a dysfunctional relationship that she has, unfortunately, dragged my boys into. That'sPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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