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Hello. The banner function is back up and working again (finally) and it is time for our own dedicated banners. When I inherited this board, the current banners appear to be very similar if not the same to wizardchan ones, and since this board differs from that site, I think it is important that we secure our board 'identity' with our own custom banners.

Keep submitting banners, as this is an ongoing thing until I feel we have enough.

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Another banner for the best board in the world

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Discuss, or complain about anything related to the board, moderation, or any decisions made here. Post your suggestions or concerns here or email me them, I do read them.

Email me at: v9koperate@gmail.com

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Everything is finally working again in the mod panel and board settings, we are essentially back to where we were features wise before the hack, and with some nice additions which are minor.

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Have any of you older robots ever been in the rare situation where a girl expresses interest, but you're so inexperienced in all things relationships that you still can't do anything about it? I don't even know when/how to do things that normal people take for granted, like when to make a move or go for a kiss, and I certainly don't know HOW to kiss or anything like that.

It's like picking up a video game with online multiplayer that's already been out for years. You hop into a match and everyone is already an expert from years of experience, and you get killed so quickly that you don't even get an opportunity to learn, so you end up shelving the game, realizing that you missed the window of opportunity to learn how to play and have to accept that you'll never be able to now.

>Be 27 year old kv

>Girl at work starts showing interest

>I'm fucking trash at telling when a girl is interested, and even I can tell she's interested

>Keeps inviting me to hang out

>We hang out, but I never make any moves even though I assume she's expecting me to, because I have no clue what I'm doing and will make a fool of myself

>Invites me to her place for dinner

>Makes lasagna because I once mentioned I like it

>It's good

>After dinner, have no idea what to do next. She isn't suggesting any activities. Seems to be waiting for me to say something

>Think, "she invited me to her place and made me dinner. Is she expecting sex? But we haven't even kissed. I can't even do that. I sure as hell don't know how to initiate sex, and even if I did, it'd last 3 seconds and she'd realize I was a virgin. Shit, shit, shit."

>"Well, I should be going. Thanks for the dinner."


>That was 2 days ago

>Get text from her today trying to set up another dinner

>Fuck, fuck, fuck, why won't she just realize what a loser she picked and lPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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well I hoped for better news but this is not that bad either.

>There was no opening to make a move, so nothing happened on that front.

you are the man, your duty is to take the initiative and create that opening if there is none. As this anon suggested, you should have told her that you really like her never use the word love before you are sure she feels the same and before you are holding hands together and that your relationship to her is very important for you. Tell her also that you are inexperienced in the field of love and you sometimes struggle to show your true emotions or interpret situations correctly. She should not have the impression that you are keeping a secret from her or that something is bothering you or that you are intentionally doing things wrong. If she really likes you how you are, she will understand.

>I guess the good news is I didn't fuck up the way I did last time, but the bad news is I didn't make any progress, which frankly is a fuck up anyway.

No problem. You can do it the next time. Make sure to give her a text. Text her that the past evening together was beautiful and that you are looking forward to spending time together again. You might invite her into your house to dinner for once. Just make sure your place does look decently and remove any anime/video games that might be lying around. You might cook her favorite dish (you have a week time now to learn how to cook it).

Good luck for next time brudder



>you know that's just your mind tricking you. It hurts

I know. This is what always happens. I understand going in that I need to do it, then when I'm actually in the situation I convince myself not to.


>you are the man, your duty is to take the initiative and create that opening if there is none.

I know. This'll go nowhere if I don't make it, but I thought I understood that. This whole past week I've been posting about how I'd do that, and then I got into the situation itself and couldn't do it. At this rate I worry about giving her the impression that I'm not interested, leading to a friendzoning.


Ok OP, let's switch the battle plan. If you can't tell her your intentions, why not show her your intentions?

Something like casually grabbing her hand, smoothly with your fingers, your thumb on her palm. As you talk move it around, always gently. See? Stuff like that. Gaze battles are pretty fun and good too.


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>Something like casually grabbing her hand, smoothly with your fingers, your thumb on her palm

>As you talk move it around, always gently.

What in the fuk


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>>13474 here, was out of town for a convention

What did you talk about? Are you still talking to her? Any red flags?

Also the fact that you didn't get kicked out until late is a promising sign. You just need to pick a good time to make a move. You don't have to do anything crazy if it seems out of place, though. And stray away from using intense terms like >>13554 said in the spoiler.

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>have internet friends that also browse imageboards

>can't shake off the lingering fear that one of them will click the damned v9k on the top bar and stumble upon me pouring my heart out and saying stuff I shouldn't

>no place feels safe anymore

I just wanted to be a depressive fuck with you guys ;-;

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*bigger fuck-up than the average poster


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>bullying doesnt real

>if you say it is you're a thin-skinned faggot

Ok Norman, time to go





Fug m9, right in the feels.



He's not saying that. What he's saying is that there must be a reason for why he's being bullied everywhere, or if he's being histrionic or something.

He put it in a very poor way though, that definitely makes him appear as a foreigner.



>He put it in a very poor way though, that definitely makes him appear as a foreigner.

Yes wouldn't be a surprise given the past several weeks

>that there must be a reason for why he's being bullied everywhere

Not really. Some people get bullied in their childhood, then they get low self-esteem, add in depression and maybe even a dose of actual autism and they start getting bullied everywhere.

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Every time I watch anime, I am reminded, every minute, that my waifu is not real, and that she will not be either, and nor will I meet a real girl with a similar personality.

As such, seeing a picture of my waifu makes me sad, very, very sad.

Does this happen to anyone else? Share your waifu feels.

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>that ending


Post more if there are any.


Not really waifu related, but I can't listen to love songs since it hurts too much knowing that I can't relate with anything beingg said.


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The 2 I posted and the 2 I am posting now are all I have.


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The saga ends. Sad.


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>tfw your waifu wouldnt like you if she was real

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>tfw get a good sleep every night

It is a comfy feel. I used to have Insomnia, and now I don't and am loving every minute of it.

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>Be 12 years old

>It's 2005

>Come home from school

>Parents at work, home is empty, peaceful, and quiet except the faint sound of the air conditioner

>Make ramen noodle

>Start up World Of Warcraft

>Adventure through elwynn forest with my friends from school

>Eventually log out, and experience the golden age of 4chan

>Get bored, and decide to watch X-Play, or Bleach

Where the fuck did those comfu childhood feels go, that was the only time in my life I was happy…



The difference is that now you're subconsciously thinking about the inevitable future. So much so that it dampens your day to day life.



Morrowind was the best elder scrolls


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I like make this type of images

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If this place was born from the burst pus bubble of /r9k/'s ass, which was born from the burst pus bubble of SJWchan /r9k/'s ass, then I guess I'll be the one to begin this necessary containment thread.

I'm not doing this for you fucking spergshits or nothing. Fuck you all.'

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I've thought a great deal about these questions - as I'm in a similar situation - and I too was (Probably still am, on a subconscious level) at the point where taking myself out behind the barn was THE only option.

My conclusion? I think my mind broke and now all I want is the world described by The Principles of Communism and The Conquest of Bread. I used to have hardcore Fascist beliefs (Probably still do) but that wasn't working for me - it didn't so much as address this horrible work-cycle, much less offer a solution to it. At least Anarcho-Communism does, so I looked into it.

All I can say is that I wish you the best of luck, and maybe we humble virgin wizards will see a better future.



You're so shit at shilling, you sound like a bot.




How common is this?

I thought it was just me


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>waiting for "X" bus

>equipped with earbuds

>some guy asks for money

>shake head for "no"

>few seconds later a woman holding a crêpe appears and talks

>"is this the queue for "X" bus?" while pointing that food at me

>brain interpretation: "do you want a piece of this crêpe?"

>shake head for "no"

>"well, that's odd"

>she asks for the person behind me

>"what? that guy told me it wasn't here [mumble mumble]"

At first i felt bad for ignoring the woman, then i felt angry because there was over 50 people and i was the only one with headphones and she went straight to me. Now it's just funny.


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Long update, I scored. Big. I slayed the dragon and sorted myself out. I still have mixed feels, but you need the order and chaos to balance your inner and outer being. Pussy will not garuntee yoru happiness faggots.

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normalfag Hate Thread ITT we discuss what we hate about normalfags/normalfags the most.

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Why would it anger you? It's really funny.

>one's a boy, one's a woman, yeah

Thanks for sharing :)


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God damn it anon, I was enjoying my day


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>lol this is so fuknee guis amirite sex lmao xD

Why would you talk to… Why would you even put this on the Internet? I swear, shit like this is why I don't mind if ISIS keeps killing whores and their beta orbiters. If these 'people' are willing to sink to this sybaritic extent, they honestly deserve it.


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Why did you post this man?


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Why are they so open about it?

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http://cytu.be/r/8chtvmovienights is a 8ch based cytube channel that streams exploitation movies, B movies and anything low budget and "so bad it's good". We host a movie night 3 nights a week where about 10 people (most from the /*9k/ community) hang out and laugh at bad movies and perky titties.

Stream starts at 11:00 pm GMT (http://www.timeanddate.com/time/zones/gmt) Monday, Wednesday, Saturday and shows 1 or 2 movies at a time. If you want a later/earlier show then we're happy to do those if enough people ask.

Movie suggestions are welcome but must be a full movie on Youtube and can't be mainstream B movies. We're not looking for The Room, Troll 2 or anything featured by RLM. We've looking to find the gems people missed and to watch new movies together not rehash old ones.

The /v9k/ BO has been very welcoming to us and I would ask people not to only bump the thread for the sake of bumping it.

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Are we doing this tonight?



We'd better be.




Hope that some more show up this week (dont know if I can stay this long) but are we still doing "this is England" as warmup at 11 GMT?



I'd be all right with starting earlier.



I will be there tonight. I lost track of the day last week.

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>Girls your age now already have children, have millions of dollars, have served in the military, and now are pop-icons.

Is it just unhealthy to compare my life to a jew?

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Last night I had a dream I was back in high school and was sitting at a table with the "loser girl" from my class. I know this girl is married now. I know she has kids. I realized this in my dream, and combined with the scene of both of us being at school, having the same social status, well, it was awful. I know life is completely unequal and unfair, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.


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I've hated imageboards for some time now. Very few boards are tolerable anymore.



I'm starting to get more and more annoyed by a kind of poster, the one that flies off the handle as soon as he sees something he doesn't like being discussed, no matter the context. It's like the autistic screeching meme come to life. I'm starting to suspect this is all either underage people or shitposting on purpose.




This failed normalfag meme needs to die already. It's one of the most grating things I've seen in a long while.


4chan used to be my refuge from the world, until it was taken over. Then, it was 8chan, but I can barely stand this place anymore. Some boards are decent, but even then, there's too much seepage from the shit ones. It's a horrible and alienating kind of feeling.



>It's a horrible and alienating kind of feeling.

I know. It's the "my suicide is long overdue" kind of feeling.

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>acne-ridden manlet khv

>depression & anxiety

>failing grades

>no job

>no car

>no hobbies

>fall in love with shy innocent qt oneitis

>she rejects me a few months ago

>still in love

>she'll go to England I'll never see her again

>I never felt this way for a woman

>she jokes with Chad McAlpha about losing virginity

>Chad McAlpha then proceeds to make her laugh by showing her his knowledge of cuckchan


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YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.


Than just give up.


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That's my only option I guess.


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>OP is avatarfagging



This board just get worse than /r9k/, I'm leaving until you behave yourselves and ban normalfags.



Anon is newfagging

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Today my mother asked me to go see a theater play she directs. My heart started racing and even right now my chest still hurts just by thinking about it

It's always been like this, if I have to go outside for whatever reason I might be able to calm myself, go outside to do whatever, spend the whole time really uncomfortable, and rush back home. But the initial thought always makes me freak out. I've missed classes, doctor appointments and important meetings in general because human interaction frightens me, to put it simple

My entire life has been like this but I always thought it was just me being a retarded autistic children. Today's talk with my mother made my chest genuinely, physically hurt. She just said she wanted me to go watch her play, I mumbled a 'oh um ok' and left the room, with all the symptoms I described. This made me reconsider a few things

>as described, just the thought of going outside makes me uncomfortable, ranging from nervous to physically ill

>only feel comfortable on my house

>even in my house, I only feel completely at ease in my bedroom when I lock my door and window

>if I have to meet with my family or some old 'friend' I prefer to do it on my house or someone else's

>if I am forced to eat outside I look for a small bar/food place or whatever and sit on a corner

>spent the entirety of my school years sitting against a wall, on a corner, on the last row or all of those simultaneously

>when I'm outside (back in school, waiting to be attended on a clinic, restaurants…) I need to go to the bathroom several times, lock the door and take deep breaths before going out

>while on public spaces, I had several incidents of people asking me if I was nervous/uncomfortable/in a hurry. I assume I do things unconsciously people can read clear as day

I thought I just didnt like it outside, but it's only getting worse with age. I ask you, since I know there are people with more experience and knowledge on mental disorders in here, is this norPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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If you or anyone else have any experiences about any kind of social anxiety, please post them. This brand of autism I have is fucking weird and I could use anything



Tell her your problem.


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bullshit, kys



I used to have social anxiety but that was a long time ago (several years).

I don't remember much except a)

>I threw up once in a bathroom due to anxiety overload

and b)

>I ran out (literally speedwalked out) of a public place once due to anxiety and fear


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No idea how to help you, friend.

I was basically forced into hyper competency, with socialization. And got damn fucking good at it.

When I worked the counter, like 99% of the customers loved me. People I've met on campus have always gravitated towards me and enjoyed my company. And I've had throughout all of my life try to spend time with me or hang out, and if you're not more of a low IQ narcissistic cunt than most normalfags, I can get along with you just fine.

And I hate it.

I fucking hate not being crippled by my anxieties and mental deficiencies. Every single time someone I'm not interested in tries to strike up a conversation, I have to slip into this persona I've spent all my life cultivating, because the alternative is being "rude" by brushing them off and not talking.

If you want my advice OP, learn how to socialize because it's a mandatory skill in our day and age, but don't lie to yourself. If an event sounds like a pain in the ass, or a waste of your time, and you'd rather spend it at home playing vidya, shitposting on 8ch, watching anime, or whatever the hell you do, then fucking do it.

Just fucking do it.

And never fucking forget that most humans are fucking garbage, who'll gladly steal your time to fill their own vapid self fellating desires.



So chameleons do really exist.

This is what crushes me internally. You have to invent a persona and become an actor just to get by in this world.

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Why do normalfags complain about life when they have everything they could possibly want? If I had a gf and friends I'd have all the positive reinforcement to tackle any challenge life threw at me. I would never have a reason to whine.

I would have absolute knowledge that I am lovable and accepted. Why would I ever be sad under those conditions unless I was in physical turmoil?

You may as well say you won life.

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It comes from within, but only after you've received enough love to know you're worth it in the first place. If I had a f I could be a virgin the rest of my life, but i'd still be motivated long after she let me




He's a fucking normalfag, ie incapable of independent thought.

You're not going to get a good response if you buck the groupthink, no matter how well you present it.

If you do want to try and hammer it into his head, than just be a fucking dick. He doesn't deserve a rational discussion if he can't hold one, so just treat him like shit and maybe he'll think your assholeness is somehow alphaness, and will take what you're saying to heart.



Funny enough, all his gfs were le fat nerdy gril and they all turned out to be horrible cunts



Because it's obnoxious and I have to live with him

There's no way to make him realize he has more in life than he needs, but I had to try



>all his gfs were le fat nerdy gril

I would rather stay a virgin for 200 more years than sticking my dick in these things.

OP your brother is a loser, of course he's depressed, he can only manage to fuck dumb landwhale who inevitably ditch him.

Just let him be, he seem so pitiable and immature, why are you allowing yourself to be concerned by such behavior?



They're empty.

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What have you been thinking about no matter how small or unnecessary.

I've been thinking about the differences between Rome and Persia mainly on how the greatest virtue in Roman society was justice while Persian society respected the the truth. You can say that truth and justice are similar but in actuality they aren't the same because justice can be achieved with dishonorable means and something similar said by Plato or some shit said that a lie for the greater good is a lie worth telling. Truth doesn't always mean justice and is smaller-minded which reflects the inferiority of the Persians, their values, and why they were ultimately defeated; truth is truth but does it inherently go somewhere or get something done, the truth will lock up wrong-doing men but what of nobility and et cetera.

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Has there every been somebody who acted out of "true evilness"? Every school shooter, dictator, serial killer or tough guy on the street justifies his actions by things like the following and thereby keeps his conscious clean:

-My parents abused me when I was child

-I was bullied, they deserved it

-This random demographic is degenerate and keeping them down serves the greater good

-Survival of the fittest, it's their own fault they are too weak to resist, rule of nature, god told me to, etc.

Will there ever be somebody who kills people or does other horrific shit knowing he does fucked up, wrong things AND he feels bad for it? Super emotinal stress and sexual shit doesn't count.


I've been observing myself judging females for their attractiveness for some time now and I found out that every one of the girls I found appealing to look at shared some minor attribute with a 2D girl I think is cute. Watching animu like Ranma 1/2 as a child fucked me up forever and I guess at this point I can't be repaired anymore.


The fact that my life is going nowhere and how I cannot cope with it anymore.

There is no greater goal, nothing to achieve, nothing to fight for or look forward too. Nothing gives me real pleasure anymore and all the people I grew up with have their real life projects going on while I am still the same even 10 years after HS.



Nothing much, It's better that way. Dont we have this kind of thread already? >>560


>Has there every been somebody who acted out of "true evilness"?

No, that is why capeshit tier evil characters are so bad and forgettable



That's for feelings this thread is for thoughts and venting them which shouldn't have feels but I see the problem.


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Where to take my story next, what vidya to play next, and how to handle my personal issues.

There's other stuff I could list, but I honestly think about a lot of shit in any given day. Like, a lot.

I could write a fucking short essay on the things I think Metroid Fusion does right (just beat it again today), or the intricacies of using solid black shadows for art.

If anything, I wish I could stop thinking so much.

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Sometimes I envy anons with no mother/father

>stuck with my parents (sad story but unrelated)

>have to listen to my father's rants which are getting more repetitive with age

>he's desperate to see me get a gf and most of what he says is related to that

>At your age I had a different girlfriend every week and I went out every night I met so many people back in the day, sometimes I meet them on the street and I dont even know who they are

>Why do you spend so much time on the computer? Do you have a internet girlfriend anon?back when radio hamming was the cool thing I had a radio girlfriend. Well, she was everyone's friend if you know what I mean

>my father was an alpha male and knows perfectly well women have always been disgusting attention whores

>tfw I wont even procreate

>tfw I know on the long term I'd be less of a emotional burden for my parents if I killed myself today

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>going to /fit/

>the designated homosexual board

>actually thinking that getting muscular and slim will solve all life problems

reee normalfags get out



>I wonder how our alpha dads raised such betas

normalfags believe if you plant a seed, you need to nurture it, keep it in your eyes and give it water and fertillizer and shelter from hail.

Interestinly, with their children, they believe you can just let them alone and they will automatically grow up to become productive members of society from alone. Also, alphas don't raise children, they fuck stacies and leave the parenting to beta cucks.

My normalfag friend from over a decade ago is likely the same in this regard. A few days ago we met again after years. He was fat but he started doing fitness in his teenage years and he became a chad. We still stayed in contact but we never did much together all those years. Somehow he still sees me as his friend. He has his own appartement now, his own car, a well paid job and a gf. He openly told me that he was ready to leave everything behind if he won the lottery I wanted to vomit when he told me this..



>I have yet to hear from any single-father anons

I grew up with a single dad. It was horrible, personally, but I don't doubt for a minute the single-roastie anons had it worse. He was kind of an outcast, like me. He devoted alot of his early years to martial arts and stuff of that nature, he taught me alot, and he atleast nudged me in the direction of how to be someone. I say this because he was an extremely unstable man, no control on his anger, and would often collapse in over percieved pressures that weren't actually there. He screamed and yelled at me almost everyday for the first 15 years. While I never thought it had much of an impact on me, I soon realized around highschool, everybody else had friends, girlfriends, jobs, and most importantly, charisma. Suddenly it hit me like a brick that throughout life my peers were experienceing all these things, while I just got yelled at and sat at home in poverty and missoury. My less-than-normal upbringing really narrowed my path in life you could say, to this day I still have this burning psychological sensation everytime I converse with normalfags, not to mention I have an IQ of 140, which, I'm not on fucking /v9k/ to brag, so I'll just say everyone seems so hollow, I see right through everyone, all the time, and it fucking sucks.

Luckily, my flaws have lead me to find something I believe alot of us outcasts are, "meant", to find, if you believe in that sort of thing, but I'm not here for that. This is a post about my childhood, because someone might find it interesting.



>>all he does nowadays is sit on his radio talking to other people about their lives

>all we do nowadays is sit in front of our screens and talk to random spergs about our lives

Really makes ya think, huh



My dad is a sperg who's dad died while he was young.

He made up for it by partying and shit in college, before having to give it up to come back home and help pay bills his father used to.

He's less Chad, and more immature, though. Like a child.

To be honest, I don't really remember my childhood, or anything in my life before I turned around 19 or 20, and starting acting more independently.

It's there, but it was just this long string of abuse and shitty parenting, that I keep that part of my psyche walled off.

As far as the Chad behavior, though, he thought he was doing the right thing by bullying me over my virginity, and avoidance of women, despite me getting attention from them.

Before you flap your hands and reee at me, the guy and his wife left me incredibly broken and damaged throughout my adolescence.

I wound up just hurting most people who got close to me, and as such eventually decided to avoid forming bonds all together, thinking it'd be better if I could just shoulder any pain involving me alone, rather than burden someone else with it.

I mean, how could I trust anyone? The people in my life who should have been my guiding force, shattered and abused my trust at each and every turn.

It only recently stopped, as in a month ago, they were that bad about it and so narcissistic, that it took me refusing to come home, and trying to start from scratch, with literally no support network (at first) to shock them into some cold hard facts.

Now I'm living on my own, out of the house.

Anyway, I'm not really going anywhere with this. Other than making a contribution. If anyone is interested in my story so far, I'll answer any questions.

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