>>2146Very long text, but I belive it you helo you A LOT op.
It's all psychological OP. You got way higher than you were expecting and you couldn't handle it. Try going slow from now, smoke with friends who are experienced smokers and just give a few hits, increase the amount you smoke with time, as long you are still controlling your high.
When I start developing some bad trips, with any drug, I usually switch my mind process to something like: "dude, i'm so high, look at all that shit that's happening to me, lol, look at those crazy demons and shit, wow that stuff is really good.". There, now everething is under control, the bad aspect of the vibe starts fading away and the same part of my mind that created those horrible images and toughts and sensations now create only wonderful feelings and the good stuff I want. The key here is knowing what you paid for. If you are doing any drug, you want to get high, right? So, try to enjoy your high, even if it's the darkest shit you've seen in your life, because that's what you paid for, and if you start acting like this is not what you wanted, things are gonna look bad.
Bad trips are usually our minds trying to send a message to our consciousness that something is not ideal. It can be ralated to your life in general or with your highness. Study the things that happen to you when, and if, they happen again, don't try to run or hide from it, face your demons, your fears and your trouble, and maybe, you will end up having an epiphany or some deep insight about life. Bad trips always comes for a purpose, they are something that must be solved, defeated, it's like the big boss of a game, each time you defeat a bad trip, you come out stronger, your life gets better, as I said before, they are a coded message, it's the direct contact of our sub-consciousness with our conscient consciousness(wut lol), and it's known that our sib-consciousness wotks in weird ways, like dreams or nightmares.
I've had times that I was experienceing bad trips consistently, I wasn't panicking or anything but it was annoying me a lot, makeing me not enjoy doing drugs anymore (mostly weed, sometimes LSD), after some time, I could relate the aspects of my trip with some bad stuff that was happening in my life, family issues, that shit is tough to deal with. I stopped smoking and focused all the time and energy I could on resolving the issues in life. After the problem was solved, I smoked again and had one last sort off bad trip, where I started imagining people breaking in to my house, heard noises, thinking someone with a knife or a gun would enter my room and kill me, just like the others, but this time, I felt stronger, because I had already deatl with the real trouble, I stood up, said to my self: "wtf am I thinking there is no way someone is breaking in, my house is ultra-secure and would take some army equipment to enter.". It may sound stupid, but the energy I felt while this tought passed trough my mind was insane, I felt powerful, capable of anything, and after that, all my bad feelings were gone. The message here in this last part is: make sure some external thing is not disburbing your high, in my case, the family issues were related to my smoking of weed, since I was making my familly suffer, but not realising it at first, unconsciousness my brain was trying to tell me that I was hurting people who love me.