No.19295
I've read and seen pro pedophile articles and videos. One thing they often say is that pedophiles often feel depressed and sad when they first realize they are attracted to children, because they know they will never be able to act on their feelings.
This is probably true for a lot of pedophiles, but not for me. I was 11 when I first realized I was a pedophile, which is around the age most people realize their sexual attraction. I remember being sexually attracted to a 6 year old at my school. I didn't even know what a pedophile was back then, I had never heard the term, nor did I know that my attraction was considered wrong and that a lot of people would hate me for this attraction. Despite that, I still kept it hidden from everyone. I would secretly brows the internet for images of naked boys. I would get my younger cousin to take his clothes off and would take pictures. It wasn't until I was like 16 that I discovered that there were many people in the world with my attraction and that everyone hated them. This didn't really affect me, I didn't really care. As long as no one finds out, I'm OK.
When did you first realize you were attracted to young kids?
No.19296
>>19295
>When did you first realize you were attracted to young kids?There are already 673,923 threads asking this. Use the catalog next time.
No.19301
>>19296Really? Wow, alright, I'll look for them.
No.25711
It was nothing I realized it was a slow conclusion. I remember as a kid I kissed and touched little girls and it felt good. I also licked an older woman and it was good for her and exiting for me. It was new to me and I thought that it was more interesting than what I leanred in school. Which was hell.
In the teens I expermented with most anyhting going on in my head. An awakeing of imagination.
As I grew into the twenties and my discovering of everyhting I slowly cam down to being a pedophile. And have been, ever since.
No.25715
When I was 11 during PE I sat down with two 8/10 loli class mates and one rested her foot on my groin and I thought "wow girls are the greatest thing ever"
I only thought "holyshit Im a paedophile moment" when I was 14. My secondary school was right next to a smaller christian primary school (where girls wear those cute little straw sun hats) and during science class my seat was right next to the window so I watched them play during their break and I noticed I felt pretty much nothing sexually for my classmates but could get an instant boner from looking at a 7 year old there. I felt somewhat scared when I realized it. But It didnt depress me at all, not until I got into CP then I became very self-hating.
No.25725
I was originally attracted to short girls my own age in high school and it just escalated to actual children as I got older. If I got a date in high school I would probably be normal now instead of a degenerate.
No.25759
>>19295
>>25725
The best girls in high school were always the freshmen who could have passed for 6th graders. There was a couple of them in my after school D&D group, if I wasn't such a pussy I probs could have banged one of them.
No.25761
I remember I sat with my mother and watched the news some years ago. There was something about the internet and a so called pedophile ring that had been exposed.
My mother looked at me and said that I would stay away from the sorts. It was dangerous. And I thought, what? And said oh, ok, and that was it.
I released my mother knew that I am a pedophile. It has made me wonder if other people can "smell" it too. If I am as pedo as Freddie Mercury was gay. But it is not good manners to call people pedophiles. Some people have asked me if I'm gay, Since I am the eternal bachelor.
No.25888
When I was 9 or 10 I still remember having a thought on the playground that I'd probably never stop being attracted to kids. It probably had to do with the fact I still felt attracted to some kindergartners while teens and adults weren't attractive at all to me.
I didn't even know what a pedophile was at the time, but I wasn't wrong. Even when I was 16 I somehow still wasn't aware about pedophilia (or it's possible I was, but I just hadn't linked it to myself yet). I had a relationship with a pre-pubescent 12 year old and didn't realize at all people would think of it as weird.
No.25970
>>25960
Not if he is exclusive.