The girl I love informed me yesterday that I was the one to take her virginity, which is a pretty great feeling.
I get intrusive thoughts/images every now and then of her being intimate with someone other than me (mostly just her ex, who is a skinny beta brit). They don't happen nearly as much, and have been declining over time, but the most recurring one was of her having sex with her ex - and now that I know that never happened, it doesn't happen anymore, which feels good and is relieving.
She had some weird conception in her mind that in order for us to be equal, we needed to have had equivalent sexual histories, and though she never lied and said she slept with anyone, I just assumed she had with her ex. She never loved him, and felt their relationship was more a friendship though he pushed it because she's gorgeous and he wanted her; she was always emotionally cucking him with me, and never felt emotional or sexual desire for him. Regarding physical intimacy, her psychological lack of feelings manifested physically to the point where her physical responses to his sexual advances resisted him, and her vagina clenched such that the very few times they tried to have sex it hurt her too much and so they never went through with the act. It actually sounds a lot like what happened with my ex-gf; every time I tried to penetrate her she was inexplicably super clenched up and she claimed it was painful to the point where we couldn't have sex; this didn't happen for the first year of the relationship and seemed to come on around when the initial spark and attraction was definitely dead, and she couldn't ever explain or physically attribute it to anything so it was probably the same psychological thing that happened between my present love and her ex.
Her ex is a skinny beta, and knew she was absolutely way out of his league, so he just put up with a dry relationship, and basically was a placeholder for her undergraduate years in Britain.
The first time we had sex was a day after her period supposedly ended, and when I found blood on the sheets I assumed it was just remnant period blood - also, after around 10-20 minutes of love making the first two times we did it she told me that it was hurting her too much to go on, which is no longer a problem that arises.
>inb4 she's lying and all women are cheats and sluts
She's insanely in love and obsessed with me, and I with her, and she's felt this way albeit not quite as strongly as she does now ever since we met in 2010.