>what specific things made you think you would make a bad father?
Mostly just being impatient in general.
He's not really a baby anymore. He's 2 now. So the kicking and screaming and throwing stuff get on my nerves so much, I've been wanting to do the same.
I slapped him once, lightly, for biting me on the back of my thigh. He lost his balance, fell down, but didn't cry. He just picked himself up and went on with his day as if it never happened. Kinda wish I'd hit him harder, but at the same time, I don't see it as my place to hit him since I'm not his parents and all. So I usually just let him do as he wants, mostly just holding/restraining him when he's about to throw stuff or do something stupid/dangerous.
You'd think he's cute, until you have to deal with his shit, figuratively and literally. So when it's time to change his diaper, I'd NOPE the fuck out of there and let his parents/grandparents handle it. Makes me appreciate my parents more – I'm sure I was a shitmonster/spawn of satan to them too, growing up – but I sure as hell won't be getting any kid of my own.
Also, there's the issue of what to do if your kid ever gets bullied, or how you should raise your daughter so she doesn't grow up to be a whore, or what if your kid ends up having (real) autism or some kind of serious disease/condition (and whether you could deal with it for the rest of your/his/her life) and stuff like that.