I cheated a bit yesterday by taking Xanax .5 mg. in my entire life that's the only drug i've ever felt an addiction for (apart from fapping of course), and i've done a fair amount. even cigarettes don't ever make me crave them even if i'm smoking them regularly all the time. xanax though… yeah, i like xanax.
anyway i took one pill yesterday just to make my brain shut the fuck up and chill the fuck out. that thing turns me into a goddamn brick and i ended up passing out in starfish formation on my bed watching pic related. you should check it out it's fun. i'll take xanax very rarely to make sure i dont succumb to it and its effect thus remains very potent whenever i'm on it.
had a sex dream last night, too. i never get these without nofap and i'm always grateful for them. didn't spooge irl (or in dream) though, never do. dick is also almost always out of the equation in these dreams. either i dont think about or use it in the dream, or when i do its flaccid or sometimes i have a weak boner and a girl is blowing me or i'm having shitty intercourse with it (but I don't cum). one of the most vivid dreams i ever had was where i was on this beach with yellow sands and sun so bright and water so blue i could barely keep my eyes open i was squinting so much. i was lying back on one of those beach chairs and this crazy hot eastern oriental nympho was sucking me off religiously as the sounds of the sea water splashing against the shoes filled my ears. great dream.
last night's dream was alright. it wasn't only sex, but the sex part involved some naturally huge titted, pale skinned dominatrix type sitting on my face with her tits melted against the palms of my hands. pussy tasted alkaline salty, not particularly great, but i was enjoying it.
hmmmm. not horny today, effects of xanax still in system. should be p chill. guess i should try doing something productive.