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diapered, yet skeptical Anonymous 03/15/16 (Tue) 01:00:05 No.17655

Alright, I've been thinking a lot, and I'm very curious what others have been thinking.

I've been into abdl stuff before I was into vanilla sex. I like both, my preferences seem to go back and forth, or exist side by side. I'm not sure.

Most of what I've read on the internet about fetishes says something along the lines of, "you'll only fuck yourself over by resisting your fetishes. Your better off diving right in and living in them." I've tried this. The result has really scared me. I got to the point where I could only get off by watching evilIreland1's hypnosis videos on youtube. This doesn't seem right to me. I feel like evilireland has brainwashed me into becoming subservient to him/her. I used to be able to come up with my own fantasies, but my imagination got turned to shit by this hypnosis. It actually started ruining my life, I stopped being able to take care of myself, lost my job, lost my friends, dropping out of school, addicted to substances, and now receive money from my parents. The question is, did evilIreland1 do this to me or is it some other deeper problem?

In my opinion life is beautiful, sex is beautiful, humans are wonderful. I want to live life to the fullest. I want to travel, I want to write books, I want to be a scholar, I want to be a metal musician. I don't actually want to be a baby in real life. I feel like I would be missing out on so much.

There's also the question of living life for others as well. I was born into an upper-middle class family in America, and the more I learn about what poor people have to put up with in life, the more self-serving and selfish I feel, letting my life revolve around wearing diapers.

What I propose is some sort of compromise. I value my adult mind. I think that if I can keep it functioning, it could be used to do a lot of good in the world. This evilireland seems like a real threat to that.

Has anyone else had problems with this hypnosis? Is it really dangerous? Or is that just my fears of my own fetishes? Like I feel like its actually making me as dumb as a child in real life. Sort of like a perma-high. I don't want to be stupid. But is this just my imagination fear? How could one even tell? Its so mind-fucking.

My opinion is that everyone should be allowed to do whatever they want. If you want to be a 24/7 baby and can find a way to live that lifestyle, good for you, who am I to judge? But I don't want to do that. I prefer the nightly casual roleplay.

Is there anyone else who feels like their ability to own their own mind has been threatened by hypnosis and have any tips for overcoming this? I have no desire to end my fetish. Instead I'd like to be able to own it for myself. Life would sure be easier if I didn't have this, but there's people who have real problems like finding food or jobs, so I don't feel like there is any room for me to bitch.

I hope I provoke some response from these sentiments.

Thanks

Anonymous 03/15/16 (Tue) 01:09:20 No.17656

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I feel you are not asking yourself the right questions.

What do you want from your sexuality on how much of you do you want to dedicate to it? What purpose does your fetish fullfill in your life? Stuff like that.

Anonymous 03/15/16 (Tue) 02:32:53 No.17657

It's important to make a distinction between fantasy and reality and decide where you want your boundaries to be.

The hypnosis stuff might contribute to fantasy scenarios that really turn you on. That's fine, people are turned on by any number of things, nothing wrong with that. The thing is that it's a fantasy though. As a fantasy, it might really work to think of yourself as perma-hypno'd and 24/7.

You say you don't actually want that all the time though. You just want to jack off to it.

That's fine. Just fantasize about it / engage in hypno-fapping when you want.

And then when you don't want to do it, do other things that humans do.

Sometimes it makes the fantasy less thrilling if you admit it's a fantasy – and your entire life might not end up actually turning into a perma-hypno'd 24/7 babytime. Danger/risk/transgression is a turn on, so I'm guessing that for you the DANGER that it might be PERMANENT omg is extra turning you on.

It's just a silly fantasy that you like jacking to.

Anonymous 03/15/16 (Tue) 03:42:20 No.17661

hypnosis is only as effective as you believe it is. i've never had it work on me even when i kinda wanted it to because i just don't believe anything that's said. you might just be really suggestible.

as for the rest, something i've concluded is that everything you see online is fucking fake. people put up walls of glamour and affectations, only showing the best part of themselves or whatever they're trying to sell to you (product or philosophy). if you believe it (at) all you'll end up angry, frustrated, lonely, and sad.

you need to step away from this whole scene if you feel it's taking too much from you. it's really bad to yearn for something that not only is out of your reach but likely doesn't even exist outside your and others' fantasies.

Anonymous 03/15/16 (Tue) 05:05:40 No.17663

Thanks. Really helpful feedback. I appreciate it.