/adv/ - Advice

Hey /adv/ I am going through a lot at the moment and it have been thinking of hanging myself or taking a bunch of pills. My brother raped me five times which is something I never got over because I had no one to talk to. My best friend hates me now and made up lies about me and told everyone my secrets. The girl I like always flirted with me and we hugged and I would like hold her and shit was making out with someone she barely knows. I am doing horrible in school and I will either have to sell drugs to pay for summer school or get held back because I am a poorfag. My other friend has been acting odd and doesn't respond to me… My other friend is flirting a lot with my ex gf who I still have feelings for ad she is flirting back. To make that worse I bought her a necklace three days before she broke up with me for our four month anniversary… I want to kill myself and I have resorted back to popping a bunch of adderall and skipping school… I don't know what I should do…