Eh. Talk to men online, but don't disclose you are a girl. Observe them (us), learn what they like and why, what are their desires and fears. Then move that on to IRL, but make sure you don't get too close and give false hopes if you truly don't want to date them.
Men betrayed you while you were vulnerable. Not all men are so weak as to give in to their basest instincts, nor as controlling and harsh as your father. I really do hope you get over it and find a loving, caring boyfriend who will allow your feminine side to shine.