Since everyone seems to be make a new thread for their case, I will too.
There is a special person whom I speak to everyday and I have been fine with
it until now. There isn't much time for me to speak to her, I'm finishing sixthform
and it's her last year of Secondary… she is 16 and I'm 19.
I'm lost on what to do… Recently she has started taking things from me and hitting
(in a playful way) but I'm not sure if it's a go ahead and ask her or just a good
friendship.
It started before our last year started, we were placed in the same form due to the
school changing it's structure and Instantly we started speaking. From the start it
was easier to speak to her than anyone else and we have a lot of things in common
(situation at home, literature, tv shows, ect…). This was before a 6 week break…
When I returned, we both started speaking again but it gradually became harder to
speak (to the point where I could be called mute) to her. We share the same humour
and even the rejection of authority (no one is above or below), but even with all this
I struggled. After a while she introduced me to a series she was following and after it
became slightly easier.
With all this there was a point where someone brought up the topic and she said
"I would never go out with you" but after a while she started saying things like
"I wish form wouldn't end", "I'm bad with relationships", "I'm a cold person" and
other things along those lines.
I have picked up drawing again because of her, uni-cycling (my attempt of being funny
and ended up becoming another hobby), ect… and I am at a point now where I don't
know what to do at all. Everyone around me keeps on saying I should just ask her but
I just don't know what to do (or what I'll do after if I ask her) and it is currently on my mind
24/7.
I'm not good with others emotions (understanding them to be exact) and often fail to see
what someone feels about me or persons around me (If someone is crying I will only comfort
them if it's something out of their control). She is the light that motivates me to continue
working towards my dreams and now also a becoming a part of it.
Another reason why I don't know if it's her interested in the same way as I am is due to being
the perfect listener (everyone speaks to me about their problems, even if they should be kept
between the persons involved) as I will never tell anyone else unless it could harm them.
Some come to me and speak about their sex life and others speak about what problems
they have at home, in school or in their relationships.
So I don't know if she is really interested or it's just me going off to my own world everyday.
It might be over thinking this but I am just generally bad with people and there is a whole
story behind that (too long for here).
That's it /adv/… I'm lost and I don't know what to do.
Side note: I'm meeting her today (it's 02:33 am as of writing) at an event she wants to
go to.