pretty sure my (ex?) boyfriend hates me, and i don't know what to do. he last told me to "fuck off" and that i'm "a cunt". he won't respond to my questions about us being broken up or not. he's been ignoring me on and off quite a bit recently, so i can't tell if this is just a more severe version, or if he is sick of me completely.
he doesn't believe i care about him, he doesn't care when i cry or am anxious/depressed, and has started giving me the silent treatment whenever i cry because i miss him/am sad about our relationship failing.
i've been having a lot of health problems (mainly a gastric ulcer that will not heal) lately and the stress from his nonresponsive behavior is making my condition so much worse, and i'm especially afraid the stress is going to put me in the hospital. i've told him this, but he doesn't pay me any mind.
he used to spend 24 hours a day with me, and was always clingy and very affectionate, always talking about how we're going to get married when we're together again… now he can't stand to be around me.
i genuinely thought i'd be with him forever. he's being so unlike his usual self… i don't know what to do. i've not been great in the past (abusive family and general depression/anxiety have made me skeptical and afraid of him/trusting him, and it's made me act out), but it was never because i took him for granted… i was just insecure, and now he appears to hate me.