Okay /adv/, this is probably some retarded autist Shit, and I shouldn't even worry about it, but it's been annoying me. Typing this up on my phone, so sorry if it sucks.
>had been interested in a girl for a while (maybe since February or so).
>we study together and had for a year previously. I'm 21, she's 19.
>Stuff happens as the year goes on, we flirt, eventually find out that she has a boyfriend. Still don't stop flirting.
>a couple of weeks ago we're eating together, and she admits that the person she's in a relationship with is a mutual friend we study with. I tell her I'm interested, and she reciprocates.
>a few days later she dumps her boyfriend, we get together ~officially~ last Saturday (the awkwardness that is being experienced is a separate issue to this thread)
>we're really into each other, can barely wait to see each other when we set up a time to meet or go on a date. Whole thing is actually moving a little quickly, but that doesn't bother me too much.
>talking on the phone last night about sex and shit, and she reveals that she'd had sex in her previous relationship, although she didn't really enjoy it that much, and didn't really like the way she was treated as just kind of a hole to fuck.
That's sort of where the story ends. We also had phone sex last night, which was awkward and nerve wracking but also fun. She makes cute noises. Anyway, the point is, I'm really hung up on her having had sex with, and lost her virginity to, this previous boyfriend (who had also been my friend for a year, and I was never told) and I don't really know how to get over it. I know it's a lame autistic, virgin thing to get hung up on. After all, they'd been together for a year, and I wasn't even properly interested until they'd been together for months, so it's not like I was too late to being her first or something, but that's kind of how it feels. I'm not angry with her, and I've googled some stuff that I agreed with basically 100% on the subject. Still, it bothers me. Is this just the sort of dumb thing that will pass when I've lost my own virginity, or what? I understand the obvious advantages to her having some experience, because dear God we'd both be totally fucking useless if she didn't have some experience, and looking at it rationally, I know there's no reason to be upset. Anyone had a similar experience? I think the part that bothers me most is that I know the guy, so there's a face to visualise fucking her. At least she admitted to thinking about me the last time they fugged :-DDD D