This summer has been very different from any other summer break, and not in a positive way. During previous summers I've worked weekends or a couple of days per week jobs which provided me with the little money I needed for entertainment and spending on nights out. During those summers I was partying, spending a lot of time with people I considered friends, going on vacations, and most importantly, having fun. This time around however, things have changed for the worse and I can't figure out why.
The friends I had in the past seemingly aren't interested in spending time with me anymore, and I've been spending all my time at home wondering what went wrong. What upsets me the most about the situation is the fact that I'm not doing anything productive, not meeting new people, and not enjoying myself. Personally, I thrive on social interaction and need to be having new experiences to feel fulfilled. It seems to me though that this type of behavior is only human and likely applies to the majority of us. So there must be something else affecting my situation.
I'm the kind of person who feels like I'm always putting more effort into a relationship (friendships) than the other party and always find myself wanting more from the other person. And now I'm constantly trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong and questioning why I just don't seem to fit in with these people who used to be my best friends anymore.
I'm looking for suggestions on a couple things; the first being how can I move on and find a new group of friends who like and respect me for who I am.
(It's been difficult because I don't really have any hobbies except working out, and am really more into a bunch of different things instead of focused on one important hobby/activity/sport) eg. I like pretty much every recreational activity but don't do one specific activity every day.
I'm also looking for advice on what to do to make my summer more productive instead of just sitting at home and going to the gym day in day out.
I very much NEED to change my lifestyle and am up for anything.