Hello, /adv/. I've got my self-esteem defenses so weak I think I may die from deppression someday.
>be me
>mom thinks i'm an useless maggot that swallows all of her money
>mom consciously says i'm an asshole and i will be transferred to another school if i fail any subject
>i've got 7 low grades over 14 subjects
>most of them just by one point
>mom told me i'd be sent to work
>i only want to get ready to read hobbes, plato, aristotle, nietzsche, machiavello and many more interesting /pol/alike enlightened masters of the philosophy literature
>classmates acknowledge about my epic memetic ability
>classmates acknowledge about my third way ideoogy
>classmates recognize me as a terrible asshole just because i'm sarcastic most of the time
>classmates don't recognize i've got feelings, they wouldn't even care if i was there
>there's only three persons that raise my morale in my social sphere, one of them is not even in my college
>because of my sarcasm and irony, classmates are prone to ignore me whereas i don't
>even those who said i'm a good person
>by ignoring me i mean they don't care at all for me
>i'm one of the only ones that would die for them
>there's only a friend i've got left in real life
>he's gay and two girls that are best friends and fight eachother every week are their friends
>just because he's gay and mostly ash blonde haired, green eyed pale white, he's furry and mostly a nice person that suffered bullying
>the two of these girls hate me because i sometimes talk to one of them's ex girlfriend, who's cheated over that girl
>the girl in question isn't even that special, she's a bitchy weeaboo /jp/ wanna-be that catches everyone's attention
>when my two classmates knew i talked to the girl started to rant on me
>they stopped when i told them nothing but 'uhh, i don't talk to her', basically lying
>i lied because i knew i would have lost nothing
>it was partly true because the friend girls were watching over me just in case if i'd tell anything to the girl's ex about my classmate
>be in facebook
>share the ex's profile picture
>the girl comments 'it seems you want someone to get mad at you'
>i told her how sly is this classroom girl towards me and how much i feel isolated because of this, even after she manipulated me to remove this girl from my life because according to her i was his friend
>the girl's best friend sees this
>triggerptsd.png
>she starts to say i'm a son of a bitch and her friend suffered because of that relationship that i'm not interested to get into and bullcrap like that
>i reply that she can't complain when she ignored me every single time alongside her friends, whose a lot left her with the clear exception of her best friend and my gay friend, who doesn't ignore me
>she insults me and tells me she accordingly appreciated me but now she doesn't
>howsad.png
>she blocks me
>the other classmate, the one that had the drama over her ex with me, ever since ignores me after she told my gay friend he doesn't have but to give her support or some kind of shit, whilst admitting i'm not even valuable nor she's ever appreciated me
>after and before this drama all of the people surrounding me that isn't a conscious adult doesn't take me seriously
>i'm not really an innocent person, i indeed wank a lot and try to watch as little porn as i can
>i still have this cute childish innocence that forbids me to confront someone ignoring me
>i indeed can get deppressed a fucking lot because of this rejection towards me
>i only want to be a middle-aged father of 7, middle-to-high class scientist or diplomat and marry my girlfriend
>some of my e-friends are happening through this, some of them have become weeaboos
>i'm scared because i may end starting to neet as no one has ever seen
Image currently trying to illustrate how much childish and unmanly I feel.