Why can't I ever chill out /adv/? I can't ever seem to relax. I'm never at peace. I wouldn't say that I have anxiety, but I would say that I have a very restless personality. I realize the aspect of being at a relaxed state is there, but I can't seem to get there. I have trouble sleeping at night and it's often at 2 in the morning that I finally fall asleep. I wouldn't say that I have any sort of insomnia, just that my mind is at a constant pace that never seems to change. I'm told to use this to my advantage and it's true that I'm able to use this to relentlessly focus on a task, but I'm almost never calm. It's not really a state of discomfort which is why I don't pass it off as anxiety, but rather annoyance as it's something that's always there and I want a break from it somehow.
I so wish I could use my freetime to sit back in a state of "zen" listen to some tunes and chill the fuck out, to the point that I'm seriously considering starting to smoke marijuana.