Having a real hard time the last few months. Ended up failing out of the program I was doing for college, physical therapy. Just wasnt for me I guess. And ive always been a heavy lifter it was my activity/hobby i really enjoyed, then I found out I tore my rotator cuff and just had surgery on it a few weeks ago. I'm doing better but still no lifting, was pretty sure id be almost good as new by january when school started again. Was gonna move to another state and start over at a new school to meet people and stuff. I'm only 21. And I just found out that my meniscus in my knee is torn now too, I have bad knee pain and itll have to be surgically worked on aswell. Like fuck man can i not catch a break? I am gonna be old as fuck and miss all my life because of all these surgeries, my body is gonna break down on me. All I wana do is meet friends at a new school, maybe a girlfriend or to have sex again would be great. It is almost hard to keep faith in god once he keeps stomping you into the dirt. And ugh the bills im already paying, especially with a 50,000 dollar knee surgery too. I dont know what to do anymore. I cant go to the gym, losing all my muscles and I wont be able to walk without crutches for 4-5 months, and itll take another 4 months for the pain to go away