So i met a girl a couple of months ago, we just clicked. She was funny, cute and appereantly liked me. Altough I was to shy do do anything about it.
Last months we went on a citytrip together, and ended up making out on the third day. Every thing we do together just feels right, and i really feel like i want this to last a long time.
Now, last saturday we where telling eachother secrets and general truths about ourselves. Ended up talking about her fucked up youth, and my situation, which isn't that good. I was totally on board with everything she said and i could understand most of the things she went through.
At the end of the night, she told me quite casually that she used to have sex for money right up untill we went on the citytrip. At first i brushed it off, but it really went through me like a knife. I lay awake all night, thinking about it. I could not imagine her doing things… I mean, it's even hard for me to write it. But in the morning i concluded that she did those things in the past, and we all did some stupid things in out past.
I sat down with her and told her that i didn't like her ding it, but i'm ok with it as long as it is in the past. Which is true, I do feel that way. We both got very emotional and she told me that she at first didn't want to tell me. She was afraid of losing me, but she wanted to be honest. When she said goodbye and went home for the week, i kept on thinking about it, and i can't seem to get it out of my head. As I am a bit of a geek, i looked her up on a website today and saw that she was last online 5 hours ago.
I don't know what to feel anymore. At the one hand, she told me that she will always tell me the truth, on the other she lives quite far away and we only get to see eachother once every 2 weeks give or take.
What is your take on this?
And how can i make peace with this, because i'm still very upset.