>>14487
>>14502
Sure. It's not very interesting though.
>Christian all my life
>Decide I'm open to being wrong and constantly say this
>Go to seminary and start realising I don't love god as much as these people who cry when they hear the name Jesus
>Starting to worry so I look into my faith and study HARDCORE about belief, varying religions, Gnosticism, 'What if Lucifer was right?', 'What if…' etc etc
>Go on mission, realise most people there aren't there to just help the kids but earn 'god points'
>Keep going on mission trips to build houses etc, same shit. All the same. They just want god points. They don't actually care.
>Studying…Studying…
>Watch a lot of atheist videos and find they don't change my view
>Realize though a lot of the writers are write I just don't want them to be write
>Realize life is better when it doesn't matter
>Happiest I've ever been
I still go on mission quite a lot (currently in papas)