>>5536117
I respectfully disagree with your notion that sex is all about power. While, it is empowering, it is also about sharing. I get off better if my partner gets off. If you are only in it for pure self as a quasi-antisocial, you will probably enjoy masturbation more. On the other hand, not to sound la-la, but if you are in any kind of sexual relationship, you will find more love than just the sex based on a respectful (non dominating role).
Regarding my attraction. I've heard all the theories, researched on this for years. I wasn't abused as a child, though I did play around completely of my own volition with both boys and girls – not at all rapey.
I'm not stupid, emotionally damaged or weak. I'm not a criminal nor a sociopath. I'm not a monster at all. I'm simply attracted to kids in the same way most faggots are attracted to men, or normies are attracted to women. Some men like big boobs, some men like red heads, some men like asian women. I like kids.
And just like a regular normie might be attracted to giant boobs, that doesn't mean if he sees them, his first action isn't to whip out his dick and either rape the woman with the tits or spew sperm on her. In exactly the same way that a gay man who likes the Hugh Jackman sort of man, doesn't drop drawers and go ape shit over a man that's his type. And so clearly and in an obvious way, seeing any old child or group of children doesn't make me get hard instantly, and rip off her clothes and kiddy-fiddling.
So in conclusion, I cannot tell you what makes me like children, in exactly the same way a gay man can't tell you what makes him like men. Or in the same way that a normie can't tell you exactly why he likes women. If the person your asking is being honest, they will say, "I don't know, I just do." Somethings are simply below our ability to perceive in ourselves.