I can't stop worrying all the time, it's becoming very hard to enjoy myself. From the second I wake up I start to get a very uneasy feeling that something bad is going to happen or I'm going to deal with some unnecessary bullshit. I've taken stuff like adderall and percocet before and honestly I wish I could be like that all the time - social, friendly, beaming sense of well-being, focused, but not feeling drugged out or sluggish. It's kind of funny, like a - when I have that inner feeling of "everything's fine" things start going well, but getting that feeling and keeping it going are hard without some form of chemical assistance. I'll wake up from a good dream sometimes and feel really good about myself, then as I go about the day, I feel myself getting worn and broken down.