I need drugs for adhd-pi / negative schizophrenia symptoms / procrastination / fatigue
Can be nootropics, prescription stuff, research chemicals, illegal drugs. whatever. I am willing to take anything, even mercury.
I have following problems:
adhd-pi (working memory, executive functions, daydreaming)
negative & cognitive schizophrenia symptoms (I don't mind most of them)
fatigue (mental & physical). I often don't start tasks because I'm scared off effort.
procrastination
I can only do instant gratification. I have RESISITING willpower - I can NOT eat unhealthy tasty food, I can NOT buy stuff I don't need. But I don't have ACTING willpower - I can't force myself to do needed, important task.
What I tried before:
caffeine. is a scam, doesn't work. gives anxiety at high doses and hypertension.
2-fa. another scam, destroys your body, gives hypertension, tachycardia, anxiety.
eph. somewhat scam, just makes you forced to do a task, even if it's stupid task like playing games or masturbation. Doesn't let you choose task you want to do.
St john worth - dangerous, long half-life, almost killed me. More evil than amphetamine.
Recently I was out of money, unable to buy food, almost homeless. But now has some money, so can buy some evil illegal nootropics. Just gimme names of them, and explain how will they help me.
What I consider after some reading:
sulbutiamine - but isn't that placebo/scam?
iph - I'm afraid it's a scam. And I already did ethylphenidate.
caffeine + l-theanine. - probably placebo?
dextroamphetamine - is any difference with fluoroamphetamines?
tianeptine - but it also raises mood, I don't want that.
CDP-choline - possibly scam. Also I'm scared it will change me irreversibly.
SEMAX
mementine - Huge half-life. Gives dissociation, I think I already have a lot of it…
Acetylcholinesterase inhibitor - that could work, but it's side effects could result in disaster
aniracetam - placebo/scam?
modafinil - isn't it just stronger coffee?
methylphenidate - I already tried eph, mph could be worse (norarenaline activity)
nicotine - it destroys heart and body. also scam and placebo
Any other suggestions? And comments for my considerations?