/blzb/ - Beelzebub

In high states i see so much

But I am not strong enough

Yet

So I fall

Only to rise again

There was a young man who said "Damn!

I perceive with regret that I am

But a creature that moves

In predestinate grooves

I'm not even a bus, I'm a tram!"

The uniball rolls and rolls

Writing whatever may be told

It will eventually run out of ink

Be thrown away and forgotten

The only thing remaining will be it's ink remaining on pages

What it once was will never be remembered

All that stays is what it once accomplished

Whenever you go

Wherever you go

Watch your step

or you might miss the Point

of This little show.

The trick is to dance,

now see your own chance,

not to be blinded by rhymes

that are contained in my lines.

Don't be inconsiderate

you might be illiterate

but to belittle the dance

is to miss your own chance

to climb through the gate

which might change your whole fate.

Now if you won't dance atleast

make way for the music

or be set into silence which will

be your souls last ultimate violence.

To be empty inside and to hide behind pride

Decide for yourself, do, can't, whatever it'd be

If you hesitate, if you shake and stutter

You will swallow the words that you have missed to utter.

When feelings are not felt

When thoughts are not dealt

It feels like you aren't here at all

The world doesn't give any meaning

You need air but it aches

Where does others find their strength, why can't I understand?

My worries become great, what should I do?

I become restless, angry, sad… I wake up at night.

WHAT IS IT!?

I kick the blanket that is tucked over me as I sleep.

My hearts starts racing unbelievably fast.

I look around for somewhere to go.

I hesitate to do anything at all, I feel like I'm going to pass out.

As I was on the brink, something to me happens.

Something so fast and so magnificent came over me.

NO! I am the captain of this ship!

I sit down in a meditative pose.

I let the heart race, the thoughts go, my body become stiff

Accepting it.

There was something in me unmoved. I should not worry.

My impossible feelings were made possible.

It understood me.

It feels good.

It loves me.

It was me.

I start to regain my strength.

The worries becomes less of a worry.

I look around, with the me and the outside, I get comforted.

What is around me becomes less my enemies, but as me.

More than what you think.