I don't really know what's going on here (this board or this realm), but on drugs I've often felt like I died and accepted it.
I too feel like I've taken, or that in giving I receive, or that it's a trade of allowing certain vibes, mingling them.
Also I've felt there's a rhythm going, but I've had a hard time figuring out the right tempo/learning to trust entirely that I won't be getting in someone's way/hit by a car or whatever.
I felt that looking when crossing a street is giving respect to Shakti, the possibility that something could occur, even if I didn't feel it. I dunno.