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>This is like the stupidest claim one could make
First, it isn't a "claim", for I do not typically make theories about what I think and feel: I have direct knowledge of those things.
Secondly, it isn't stupid for the reason stated above. That's just how things are for me. Respect that. I'm not telling you it's "correct" and "objective", I'm telling you how things are for me.
>but feelings tend to be stupid anyway
Perhaps, but there is no faith without feelings. All the rational reasons to believe in God do not make up for an absence of faith. I've seen God proven to me using logic, and no faith was added, quite amazingly.
>I'll just say that if it was true it was more your fault than anyone else's
If it was true? Are you still assuming I'm lying about my impressions, for some reason? As to whose fault it is, that's not how I see the problem. Whether I am the culprit or anyone else makes little difference. But I'll get back to that shortly.
>So others are at fault for this?
If I thought others were at fault for this, I wouldn't have said so here. Again, I'm not seeing the problem in terms of whose fault it is. It's not like someone did something they shouldn't have.
For Catholicism, it made me aware of the list of dogmas and mortal sins, for instance, and this has made me see this faith in a new light; as to the Catholics I've talked with on 8chan, they have severely weakened my interest in the faith too, and I don't blame them for it, I'm merely glad to have learned what Catholic faith truly is to the majority of people here, and I don't assume they are a fair representation of Catholics worldwide.
>How often do you face Christians REAL Christians irl?
Generally, about 5 days out of 7, since I work with plenty of Christians. More recently, I've had religious conversations with some, including a very educated Catholic man who knows his theology inside out and helps priests for mass. We have talked at length about plenty of things and he is nothing like the Catholics of 8chan. We talked about the "hardening" of Catholicism, the /pol/ sort, and how it was very efficient but didn't last very long, while other Catholics were mostly silenced or unheard.
It was great to speak with actual Christians, but who knows if they don't think the same things that the 8channers post? It's more difficult to speak frankly IRL, so I'll never quite know.
>Lotta wrong things feel damn right
Really? Not to me. Most wrong things feel wrong to me, and good things feel good. I guess it depends on what we start with in terms of personality, values, habits, etc.
>most worthy things mean enduring hardship and suffering.
I don't regard faith as boot camp, so the more something hurts doesn't mean the more right it is. There's more hardship and suffering in sin than there is in faith, but perhaps you think otherwise.
>Feelings are no goo compass.
If it weren't for "feelings", I'd have no faith left and no reason to look for God
I think you still have a hard time grasping my personal situation with regards to faith. When I say I have very little faith, I literally mean that I'm not far away from simply closing the door on my Christian attempt at spirituality. I don't think you understand that and keep talking to me as if my calling myself a Christian was to be taken for granted. It's not. I hold on, but countless things make this more and more difficult.
As to "sinking in a dream world", it's what every other atheist tells me Christianity is. I talk to both sides.