>contemplating the mysteries
>have felt called to serve Christ and the Church most of my life but disregarded due to hedonistic modern life
>banged simply loads of girls
>done drugs
>sort of regret life decisions
>come to understand the Church on a deeper more spiritual and personal level at the age of 30
>cakeandeatingit.illuminatedmanuscript
>what does priesthood even mean in this age of post-phenomenological technowonders?
>contemplate looking into priesthood
>realistically Rome would send me to Brazil as one of their important regions
>get shot in narco war
>punishment for my sins
idk, to serve is to give of ones life but I'm not really willing to give up my autonomy for something so unstable and shrinking in my own country, which should indicate I shouldn't be considering this path, right?