27 You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ 28 But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart. Matthew 5:27-28
19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 1 Corinthians 6:19
8 Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Galatians 6:8
Post your NoFap successes/woes/prayer requests/ etc.
Some Infograpics and stuff I saved.
What also helped me a lot was this guy.
Check out his playlist from all the things I tried I think he helped me the most. Seeing his videos on youtube everytime he uploaded something new also really helped me because I feel like when I haven't really thought about nofap for some time it usually gets worse and being reminded every couple of days helps keep my mind on track.
If you don't like him get something else to remind you once a day.
Who else is ready for /nofapjune/
I'll give my best for Him and Her.
And maybe for the Portuguese qt3.14 I want to ask out.
You triggered him.
just realized that I will probably complete no fap may (on day 40 atm). Feels good man. /nofapjune/ here we go!
Do it brah. Portguese women are top tier (half-portuguese brah here).
benefits of not jerking off/not watching porn:
1. you will finally be able to grow facial hair
2. it'll be easier to make gains and be a Big Guy 4 Jesus
3. women can sense the pheromones created by semen retention, making you more confident (just don't get too prideful)
4. you can finally cure your ED/fucked up fetishes/eye strain/brain fog/exhaustion
5. you will have Huge Cums for your wife
Are pheromones real?
I feel very sad i cant exude them because I ammonly repairing dopamine receptors and not building in top of them
If /christian/ promises pheromones are both unfailing and accumulative ill only ever used Seed for procreation w/ a wife.
Also I will start doing workouts more seriously every day.
I don't want a harem but just a wife. And if I can get attraction I just can choose a good christian wife.
until the 19th century marriages were arranged, i dont feel it's cheating.
lmao this post im wiping my tears
its so trutho, esp 2 and 4 for me rite now.
start of day 2 reporting in, i'm with you thru june
can we make this a banner pls
i think they are pal, avoid antiperspirants too, lest you end up with a wife who you're not meant to be with biologically (they are to do with selecting mate's whose immune systems are different so we cover all the bases in our offspring - get your gf to smell your pits, if she likes it shes golden if she doesn't i would be concerned
I need more stuff, more for a glorious NoFap giant infograph or sip.
I just lost again. Time to pick myself up and dust myself off.
I noticed some things in particular. I give in maybe about once a week on average, but it feels like the gap in between each fall is lengthening, even if just a bit. I'll go almost that entire length of time feeling little to no temptation at all, and porn just doesn't catch my attention that much. But then I hit that wall after that first four or five days, where desire begins creeping up on me again, and I'll give into it all too quickly.
Clearly I need a lot of work on my willpower, but if I can build that and stop the porn, I'd be in fairly reasonable shape. June seems like it'll be a good time to really put myself to the test.
Pray for me, it almost feels as if I have no control over myself. What an awful feeling.
My acne has improved big league. I haven't had a big pimple on the face since I started 40 days ago. I seriously am on the point of no longer really having acne (I'm 24 so it's been a long time coming).
Granted I am keeping to a good twice a day washing/toner/benzoyl peroxide regimen with occasional scrubbing, lots of sun to get dat der tan and lots of running (sweating out my pores).
But I think no fap has helped.
>would rather not fap
>do it anyways because sometimes I have trouble falling asleep and stay awake in bed for several hours
Any tips for falling asleep that don't involve meds or hypnosis?
>do it anyway
>have monstergirl pictures saved
I wonder why
I don't fap to them
If I do fap to stuff, it's almost always to stuff that makes me miserable and monster girls are too cute for that
melotonin pills, blue light blocking glasses/flux (computer program), do push ups till you pass out
>eat at least for 2 hours before going to sleep
>if you do exercise, 3 hours before going to sleep at least
>go to sleep at the same time, wake up at the same time
>have a good circadian rhythm (up during the day, sleep during the night)
>when your up during the day take at least 10 mins of sun (vitamin d) if you're a NEET
>establish a ritual before you go to sleep to relax and wind down (read a light book for 1 or 2 hours before sleeping)
>drink sleepytime tea
>take Valerian root
>put the alarm clock facing the wall so that it doesn't make you anxious
If anybody had this problem this is what I did. I made sure I set the alarm as soon as I woke up and put the clock away. Before I went to sleep I took with me a timer and put it for an hour or so. When the timer rang I went to sleep not knowing what time it was. If I went to the bathroom, I couldn't look at the clock so I got used to it.
fyi: optimum time to for the body to sleep is around 11pm
I'm using a freetard flux clone called Redshift that does the same thing on Linux.
I'll keep these in mind and maybe try going to bed near 11. Usually it's closer to 12 or 1 but my sleep has improved a bit lately and going to bed earlier makes getting up early and having comfy Bible readings as the sun rises much easier.
Day 11. I think I'm entering some sort of pseudo flatline. I have alot of energy all day (so much that i dont need coffee anymore to wake up) but my sex drive is gone. I no longer have vivid dreams like earlier on. Temptation to watch porn is still there so i think my brains trying to wait it out so i let my guard down.
NOFAP has become easy for me but I depress everytime a wyman doesnt turn her back to notice me,my animal stenct is child'tier and I feel like biological waste.
I hope it gets better with the months.
I'm on day 2 or 3. I can't remember. This morning I struggled but overcame praying to the Lord. The day before I was better about it and when I woke up after lying in bed for a bit I got up and started reading through a study guide I have for James and did a chapter in that.
It helps to keep my bible nearby
thanks for the nofap reminder fridge
Enjoy the silence (and solitude) until it lasts, man…
Stay on the look for a woman, ask a few out to train yourself, but never obsess yourself over them: not worth the pain ("Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own." Mt 6:34)
Sigh, back to day 1. I just succumbed to it again. My entire orgasm I was berating myself internally . Can someone point me to verses on why fleshly pleasures are so evil,I need his word
Please pray for me that I get back on course
I've strayed so far
>urge to fap
>take up phone
>halfway into it I start to pray "Satan, begone, Jesus help me" over and over again
>it actually works
>put phone away
>spend two hours looking at porn and end up ruining my underwear
>realize I'd go to Hell if Jesus came back right now
I really want to die.
Today seems to be an odd day when a lot of people are backsliding. I was in the shower this morning, and I didn't even get the urge, but I almost just let an old habit sink back in. It was the first time it'd almost happened in a while.
Friends, under what circumstances does one fall into mortal sin when looking at a woman?
There was a woman at my workplace today, and I took a couple of extra glances at her backside. Did i commit a mortal sin?
Made it to 5 days, was feeling reasonably confident even though I did get lustful thoughts now and then, but then after finding out I'd stuffed something important up, and knowing that I'm going to have to rectify this mistake and look like an idiot, I got depressed and fell into the might as well fap mentality. Funnily enough I feel worse now. I think self-hatred really doesn't help me much, so long as I feel like an incompetent loser there's no way I can do what needs to be done, both in serving God and also dealing with practical problems.
Intentionally sexually exciting yourself is a mortal sin IMO. I don't think the first look is problematic. Usually you don't even notice that you're looking. But when you look back that's problematic and I would say venial. You have to keep a lock on those 'looks' on the road to sanctity. It's a good habit to put on Christ in that way. Too see women like he does, as daughters of the King (i.e. princesses).
>Intentionally sexually exciting yourself is a mortal sin IMO
Wait, looking at women is now akin to fapping?
I think he's saying if you look at them for the purpose of exciting yourself you're lusting and committing mortal sin that way.
Matthew 5 28 brah.
Catholic Moral theologians usually classify "lust" as desiring sexual pleasure outside of its proper context (the marital embrace). So if you're oggling chicks for a sexual thrill, yeah that's mortal.
I do like to look at women, but it's either >tfwnogf or for the meme with my friends.
Do these count?
Day 43. Got a good weekend of socializing lined up again, about to go out for the first shindig. My goals now are to get a part-time job and line up some good volunteering things this summer.
Even though I don't really need the cash, a job keeps me grounded. (I'm still in school, in the process of becoming a teacher).
I'm plan to start going to SA meetings once i get settled, but that might not be for a few weeks. Maybe in september when I start classes again.
It doesn't seem like a sin what you describe, at least not of lust.
With the friends I understand the problem. You don't want to seem like a prude. I even run into this with the friends I meet at church. The fact of the matter is that oggling girls does not lead to happiness. Personally I don't comment when they start talking.
As for the tfwnogf I suggest really working on your relationship with God and understanding how He loves you and finding your real satisfaction in that and not in some creature. You don't need to feel inadequate because you don't have a gf. There's a good prayer on the laudate app that talks about this that I pray when I get the tfwnogf feels. I will post it later.
This meme is that when a girl with an A$$ comes around (not a regular one, a real moneymaker) we check.
I like myself some child-bearing hips.
I don't feel anything sexual though…is that weird?
month 7 complete!!
I need to get a blue collar job to dispose of my extra energies.
>tfw nofap becomes a paid job
No I totally know this feel.
Sigh. 3 times today. 2 times yesterday, once the day before. I had a good streak of 4 days going and then this. Idle hands are the hands of the devil indeed. the other day I only did it because I woke up earlier than usual and my usual routine of reading my bible didn't take up the full time between my waking and when I need to get ready for work. I could have continued reading, but instead,I called it good having finished the section I had planned, and then had nothing much to do. So. I masturbated. I really need a gym membership or something, some new routine I can use
I'm pretty sure that if these things had been going on inside your head you wouldn't have relapsed.
This is my first time trying to no-fap doe
>tfw as you master NOFAP you can tell who faps and who doesn't according to their mood,energy,face and body-type
it's quite disturbing how everyone pollutes themselves this days
I…is this really true anon?
Yes, sunken eyes, darkened iris and a "mr burns" hunchback posture are signs of a fapper.
Also no nofapper can be unfit since not working out to purge sexual urges results in unbeareable chest pain.
Having a foot fetish and being deep into nofap, is a really bad combination during spring/summer. Women walking around in flip flops are driving me mad with temptation. Imagine woman walking around with their breast/buttocks exposed all around town and you can understand what it is like.
I literally spent 15 minutes perving on some chinese woman's feet at a bus stop before I could pull myself out of a lustful trance.
Lord, give me strength!
Guess you must now.STEP up your game brother!
but seriously just try to look ahead and not down.
Use needle of needed. chink soldiers do it in parades
> tempted by porn on /b/
> my balls are on fire
> dipping my sack in a cup of cold water
> can't give in now
MAKE IT STOP
>dipping my sack in a cup of cold water
That really can't be good for you… Maybe try just not visiting /b/
Hindsight and blue balls are 20/20
I made it through the night fam. Yesterday was rough.
Day 12 coming up. No peeps at porn and I'll be ok…
I've been off this train for too long. I don't even remember.
Pray for me. GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH TO ABANDON THIS EARTHLY PLEASURE
Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city. We will spend a year there. We will buy and sell and make money." You don't event know what happen tomorrow. What is your life? It is a mist that appears for a little while. Then it disappears. Instead, you should say, "if it pleases the Lord, we will live and do this or that."
Give your sin up to the Father brothers and sisters. Do not say I shall overcome this! Tomorrow I will not fail! Rather, pray to him and say: "If it pleases the Lord, I will cease this tomorrow. If it pleases the Lord, next time this compulsion comes to me he will help me turn away from sin and toward his glory"
According to Medieval Christian manuscripts succubus DO exist and stral sperm trough wet dreams. Then they take the sperm inside a womans belly.
If this is true I may have fathered a gang of beings. Should I feel happy? I mean im not a total failure , i passed on my genes
On the ability of demons to reproduce, St. Thomas Aquinas explains that the offspring are not directly descended from demons, but are produced when a succubus first carnally unites with a man, gathers his seed, then delivers that seed to a woman by transforming into an incubus and carnally uniting with her.
The conception must be kept secret and the birth must also be sealed up so that the child can eventually be introduced into a family.
if this is really true, how can I stop it? I involuntarily had a perverted dream a few nights ago. I didn't ejaculate, but it could be worse next time.
>tfw you father a dozen kiddos but dont have to pay child supporr
>you carry on your genes and remain a virgin
TBQH it doesnt seem SO bad
You need to go back to facebook
Laughing at jokes isnt bad, you need to chill and relax a bit.
bro put an ice pack on your dick n nuts it really helps
>tfw you have a lustful dream with a total babe but you had ED in the dream too
fucking kill me!!!!
Be sure to use a bag because ice harms the skin if applied directly
Day 15. Was in some sort of pseudo-flatline where I had no morning wood and didn't even really think about porn or women. Noticed the past few days my eyes have been lingering on women in public for too long. Was about to go to bed and out of nowhere a huge flood of memories of porn hit me. Urges through the roof and I don't even feel human. This is unreal. Hope I make it through the night.
I did it again, and just to feel miserable…why do I hate myself so much I'll never understand.
Noporn is the way. I remeber an authour of No more Mr Nice Guy wrote that masturbation without fantasies is the best option. Even if you are married or not. That you don't use imagination of other women or other filthy stuff. Also you keep the penis conditioned, not that you flatline and can't use it with your women when that time arrives.
I haven't done it for I don't know how long, and I don't feel the need to anyway. I have bigger sin to fry. But once in a while I do miss the feelings it gave… I just take a nap to compensate, but I hope it doesn't ultimately lead me to masturbating again.
I'm on day 10. The Lord gave me strenght and confidence. I'm not going to stop. It's the best I ever did. Also he gave me the opportunity of talking with a qt3.14 christian so the urge of doing it vanish when she messages me.
Eating disorder is really the worse thing.
Just got back from a beach vacation where I sinned in a horrifically depraved manner. It's been 3 days, but I don't want to count anymore. I just want to be rid of this sin against my own flesh for good.
Jesus freed you of that sin the moment he died on the cross for that sin.
What you need to do is receive forgiveness, receive the healing and accept that God has given you his strength and his grace in dealing with such things.
There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit
>Jesus freed you of that sin the moment he died on the cross for that sin.
Does that mean I can sin as much as I want and then just ask for forgiveness and get into Heaven?
That's the danger of expressing the sacrifice of Christ like this.
Forgive my blog post please guys but I would like somewhere to vent.
Today I reached 6 months of no fap. Over the last 5 days or so the temptation to fap has increased to levels I've never had before. Not to fap and break the 6 months streak, but to fap afterwards. Every day my thoughts are constantly getting distracted by such thoughts, I cast them out. And pray for the Lord to remove them. Tell myself Satan's fucking with me. etc.
Over the last three days I'm pretty sure I'm almost determined to sin after today. I hate this, I don't want this, I pray to the Lord that He may help may break my mindset. And I know that if it comes down to it, if I just mustered the strength to drop down and pray or grab a rosary I could overcome it. But every time I've beat a milestone in the past I've been to weak to do this.
I just broke down now into tears after morning mass over this whole ordeal. I believe I'm suffering from a lot of despair and self-loathing at the moment for not being able to do this out of love for the Lord. And I know that despair and self-loathing is exactly what Satan wants me to do. To forget the love and mercy of the Lord, but even knowing this I can't fix myself. So its like a repeating circle, lust=planning to sin against lord=despair/self-loathing=more sin=more despair/self loathing.
I don't know what to do. I've been praying out for help, I don't want to do this, I don't want to think this. But at the same time I do want to fap. But I don't won't to fall from God's grace and I don't want to hurt him through sinning.
I've been giving myself headaches from yelling mentally at myself, and from the self-loathing/despair. I don't know what to do. But typing this out does seem to have calmed me down none the less.
Sorry again for the blog post. Please pray for me.
You're a model to follow. Don't let your effort become wind, don't worry about blog posting, that's the purpose of the thread basically.
I will pray for you, Anon.
Appreciate it mate. I feel that having a bit of a vent has helped me out a bit.
I believe I can pray properly again now.
Day 3->Day 1
Pray for me, please.
I'm where you are. I fell yesterday and started anew today. I'm made it through 13 hours, and I know both you and I can make it another 13! Then another! Our God is with us anon
I would like to say to everybody in this thread, or request of them something. Please stop noting down the day that you begin no fap. Its not healthy, it will lead to more sin. I've just reached month 6 of no fap, and was very close to falling again due to reaching a 'milestone' and becoming weak in the face of temptation. I had fallen in the past shortly after mile stones. The 1 week, the 2 week, the 1 month, the 2 month and the 3 month. All because the temptations would go into overdrive when I get close to these milestones. Remember we are doing this for God, we're doing this until we find out spouse. The days, weeks and months don't matter. They will only harm you by making you fall into temptation, or make you fall into despair and self-loathing if you fail. Those are tools Satan will use to keep you from God. Don't fall into thinking that God no longer loves you, or that you'll never serve God as you should. He loves you regardless. Just keep on trying to serve the Lord. Begin no fap, and don't worry about the day/week/month. Just keep bloody going anon.
And if you are close to falling to temptation, drop a knee, pray, grab a rosary, text your priest, keep your door open, etc. God bless you all and stay strong.
Pic kinda related; if you can kneel and pray before God. You can stand up to Satan and his fucking temptations.
God bless you anon, you may not feel like you did much. But you saying "You're a model to follow. Don't let your effort become wind" seemed to have had a great effect on me. My prayers started feeling proper again and I felt less self-loathing. Improved my mood a lot. And from there at the gym while thinking about what you said I had a bit of religious fervor over the fact that I belong to God not Satan. Went right ahead and though I didn't want to at the time, texted my Priest to see if he would see me.
After doing that I felt like I had overcame that resolve I had to wanking tomorrow. Went to my Priest and talked to him about all of this. He reminded me never to feel that way, thats Satan's way of preying on us. To make us despair.
Anyway long story short, I'm feeling happy, clean, free again. I haven't fapped, and I don't believe I will be caving into that sin any time soon either. I would just like to say thank you again anon, that little snippet kinda seemed to help me recover from despair.
Why am I more prone to masturbation when I don't shower?
the more miserable you are/feel, the easier is to fall victim of deplorable sins.
Day 16. Urges are unreal. Honestly they're stronger than when I started this. My brain is desperately trying to conjure pornographic scenes to temp me, although theyre alot blurrier (brain healing?). To any anons that have gone a very long time without watching porn, does it ever get easier?
Gets easier after about a month anon. Hang in there.
>I really really really hate this and don't want to do this
>Nothing is forcing me to do it
>I'm gonna do it anyway
Dude, how much do you pray/fast?
Pray the Jesus Prayer constantly all day long if you truly think you cannot deal with it. And/or follow that advice I gave earlier >>433279
And get off the Internet so you don't encounter erotic images and such, if you're so weak to them.
Three weeks today. This is the furthest I have ever gotten.
I stopped counting
Im on a train without brakes
Today is Day 1 of nofap. I finally decided that I'm going to let go of this horrible passion forever. I have been doing it basically daily for the past 5 years.
But my balls are already hurting despite the fact that it's just day 1. Is satan playing tricks on me?
They should only be doing this if you're lusting.
Day 17, I think I had a wet dream last night but i don't remember. I've read that urges surge after a wet dream and that was true for me. Today something weird happened, I was in town and could not keep my eyes off this woman because thicc and her leggings were see thru and I got that body encompassing surge of dopamine that happens right before a relapse, that high that takes over your mind and makes you feel like someone else. I can't tell if this is lust or my natural sex drive, since ive been using porn daily the past 3 years. Anyone else experience this?
> natural sex drive or lust
I've never had this happen when going on NoFap. I've only ever experienced physical pain when not reaching climax. The problem you're experiencing may be worse than simple NoFap. You might want to wait a couple days and, if it persists, see a doctor.
I had the most found, l degenerate wet dream I ever had last night. How is something that I find so disgusting arousing in my dreams?
Just stumbled again. Oh well, I feel like I might have done a better job at keeping it under control than the last time, but I really have no way of knowing.
If I can remember, maybe I'll try fidget spinners if the urge hits again to see if it'll help keep me focused.
Fun fact: the soldier who shot John Wilkes Booth took this verse very literally and castrated himself before a prayer meeting after a prostitute approached him and he realized that he had been tempted. The other people at the prayer meeting freaked out and made him go to the hospital once they realized why he was bleeding.
Also no you should not cut off your hand. Temptation is not a sin, but giving into temptation is. Have you exhausted every means besides throwing away your computer?
>but I honestly don't think I'd stop even if I threw my computer away
This is the conclusion that I've come to. Sure my environments and habits can have an influence on my life, but that basic lustful urge will follow me wherever I go. The problem isn't with the object, it's with me. I found this out when I tried the "break from your computer" method and still found myself settling onto lustful thoughts before long. The computer itself isn't the cause of the lustful thoughts, it just simply makes it easier to indulge in them.
Throw away your computer, and you'll be begging for it back before long. Break your hand, and you'll be finding other ways of releasing yourself. Abstinence can play a big part in controlling yourself, but it ultimately means nothing if you never deal with the root of the problem, which is strengthening your resolve and your willpower through steady prayer and training so that you never allow that temptation to infiltrate your heart. You want full control over your own body, what you are cutting off is not a physical object but your sexuality.
Just ended my longest streak of 17 days. Let's hope i dont binge these next few days. Pray for me.
Just think of the progress you've made. Stay strong!
I'm at 12 days. I'm not even tempted in everyday life, but I dream about masturbating, it's weird but nice thinking that it was only a dream and not a real thing.
Would trying for no porn be better for someone who constantly fails at no fap or should I just keep trying with the whole deal?
Best to avoid both, but also if you do decide to give in to masturbation try not to add porn to the mix. PMOing is more addictive then regular MOing. Also objectively it's more sinful to masturbate to people fornicating then to masturbate to nothing at all. So I suppose aim for complete abstinence, while at the same time prioritising no porn higher than no fap. Fapping doesn't nessecarily lead to porn but porn always leads to fapping.
I've asked the exact same question in this thread about a month ago. Now I haven't fapped in 28 days but I've still looked at porn sometimes even though I haven't done it in quite a while.
So I don't really know an answer to your question. I have tried noporn a few times in the past where I just made it a habit to regularly release myself so it really wasn't hard to avoid porn…
I know this feel.
Will I be able to quit this addiction if I become a monk?
Not fapping is easy to do if you stay away from the Internet.
I just finished school and no one wants to hire me so I sit by the computer a lot, like 8 hours a day lol. I can only pray I find work soon.
What helps me when I have unbearable urges to peek at porn are
>drink a glass of water
>pray and try to refocus
There's something about this process for me that always works and breaks the thought process before PMO
Back at day 0. I think i should just get rid of my internet sometimes.
Does anyone else struggle way more with IRL temptations than with internet ones?
I can avoid internet porn and erotic images rather easily. But if I see an attractive woman IRL two weeks into nofap the temptations start creeping in.
Eh, not if you still are burning with lust from within. Like others suggested, stay away from the internet for a while.
I'd say that's kind of a good sign: you're slowly getting healthy again as you're attracted to normal everyday women.
Just don't give up!
Ah, damn it. I hadn't masturbated since November, but I did it yesterday. I am the worst of men.
My priest is too busy to have me confess before the Liturgy just for one thing, so I'm not going to confess until I have more things to confess and can get an appointment with him. Until then, you better bet I won't take of the Eucharist. Plus I'm going to stay with my girlfriend for two months this Summer (she lives overseas and I don't have the money to stay at a hotel), so while we will not have sex (at least I hope not), I will definitely not be allowed to commune because of cohabitation. So, I'm probably not communing until September…
We are all in the same boat, man…
Regarding your gf: just bring a mat and a sleeping back and sleep in a different room…as for sexual intercourse, just say no.
The problem isn't sleeping in different rooms, but spending time together during the day without getting passionate. But even then, I don't worry too much - when I masturbate, I sin against myself, but if we have premarital sex, I will sin against her.
But it does bother me that I will probably not be able to commune until later this year. My girlfriend is still a catechumen and so we can't get married until she gets baptized, which will not happen this year (and if we get married by the Church, we must also get married by the state, and that's not happening anytime soon either).
Maybe I can go and bother my priest to ask him if I can confess even if I just have one thing to confess, considering I really, really need to commune. Or maybe the priest I'll see in America will be nice enough to let me commune even if I cohabitate… I doubt it though, there's only so much that oikonomia can do.
I wish we could get married in a church but outside the State.
Hang in there, anon. I was basically at 3 times a day for 15 years.
What's stopping from you getting married then and there?
Marriage is between you her and God.
All you really need is just a witness (so you can't just say you never got married) and then you're set.
after 200 days I started to strip a lot during dreams.
I have very creative and disturbing dreams every night.
where in america? if u visit OH stop by st. nicholas in columbus, it's the real thing if u know what i mean
don't worry bro. hang in there. it took me a decade before i made any real progress. God have mercy
I was on the biggest streak of my life and in a beautiful state of grace when I binged fapping like a madman.
There was a moment during the initial temptation I knew I was picking God instead and I know now I was being so selfish and wicked.
I spiraled into a depression and only now thinking about it all and typing it out I have wept. Oh Lord help me
Do not worry about dreams; they are not in your control, hence you cannot be accused for them.
I was raped, am I guilty of committing sexual intercourse because of that? of course not! Same goes for those dreams and nocturnal emissions.
Houston. There are a quite a few Orthodox churches around there, which will be refreshing considering I need to travel for 4 hours to get to my parish here.
I relapsed yesterday (Thursday).
It is now Friday. I will try again. Please, pray for me, brothers and sisters. I can feel the devil in these walls and he is laughing.
Theyre not evil just weird.
I dream im a spinning room and then im a gardener for a faceless man,such things
I've had wet dreams where I masturbated inside them…
Do you guys know that even one instance of pre-marital sex would have you excommunicated for life in the early Church? And masturbation, or just watching deviant porn is much worse…
>says the weeb
Might want to remove the log from your eye first, m8
Which Apostles/Fathers/Saints/etc., which Counsels, which Canons prohibit the watching of wholesome cartoons?
>You must be like children to inherit the kingdom of heaven
Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure, m80. Just a quick lookup of the character you posted and I totally don't see anything wrong :^)
forgot to spoiler
What's wrong with the female chest? It's not nudity by Biblical standards, not even immodesty in the context of a shower. Try again, homo.
Would you watch that stuff with your priest? If not, then you shouldn't be watching it, because God is ALWAYS watching.
>not even immodesty in the context of a shower
Sure, but there's a difference between a woman taking a shower, and a grown man such as you watching her doing it. Doesn't make a difference if it's in cartoon form.
>Try again, homo
Before speaking, you should ask yourself if it comes from the Holy Spirit or from a demon.
>masturbation is worse than sex
Also does excommunicated mean you cant confess?
LORD JESUS CHRIST SON OF GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME A SINNER I DID NOT NEED TO SEE THAT
Sorry m8, I deleted the files so it doesn't mess with anyone's nofap. Sorry again.
if demons can posses people maybe the possesed you to post that.
he's still right about anime.
Well, I honestly didn't think about it given that I'm not attracted to cartoon grills. I stopped watching anime altogether a while ago. Just wanted to expose the degeneracy… Sorry again.
What is Satanic about anime? What does Satanic even mean in this context? Animes are innocent cartoons that by and large promote Christian morality, family values, etc.
> Christian morality
You can't promote Christian morality without being Christian. Also a large number of anime have fanservice in them. Of course there are some without it, which overall are reasonably wholesome.
>You can't promote Christian morality without being Christian.
Why not? Japanese animators/producers/etc. are virtuous pagans.
You've already been proven wrong on two accounts, don't press your luck. And yet, you use the same exact anime reaction pics in every thread.
>What is Satanic about anime?
The fact that most of them promote homosexuality (see above), contain "fan service" (see above), or even incest (the most popular anime TV series of all time does this)!
>What does Satanic even mean in this context?
Promoting the will of the devil, and especially, in your case, instead of outright admitting the obvious truth we all know (that most of anime is not Christian) you do the opposite, which brings me to my next point:
>Animes are innocent cartoons
Is that why most of the stuff published by, just to give one example, FUNimation is actually rated TV-14 or TV-MA on their website for sexual themes and violence?
>that by and large promote Christian morality
How can a non-Christian nation like Japan do this when there are only 1% Christians in Japan? Would that sell good on the market? Stop kidding yourself. CP was legal in Japan until 2014. When the BBC interviewed a random Japanese woman and asked her why, she said "it's our culture". Japan is not a Christian place.
>family values, etc.
An unsubstantiated claim that makes no sense. The animes you've posted in this thread earlier surely don't. Especially the "My Little Sister Can't Be This Cute" anime that you posted earlier.
Christian morality is a whole package. You can't reject Christ and simultaneously promote Christian morality. I'd image most people behind anime are perfectly ordinary pagans, mostly interested in producing entertainment.
That has nothing to do with anime…
>You can't reject Christ and simultaneously promote Christian morality.
Sure you can - anime is a great example =3
>The fact that most of them promote homosexuality (see above), contain "fan service" (see above), or even incest
So an entire medium is stained by these trends in some? I guess I can't use a camera ever again since film has now been stained by pornography.
>(the most popular anime TV series of all time does this)!
What are you referring to? I doubt you actually know what this show is… odds are your going by weebs, who I will not deny are degenerate, but aren't representative of the medium on the whole.
>Promoting the will of the devil, and especially, in your case, instead of outright admitting the obvious truth we all know (that most of anime is not Christian) you do the opposite
Most but not all. Not all movies are christian either. Does that mean none can be?
>Is that why most of the stuff published by, just to give one example, FUNimation is actually rated TV-14 or TV-MA on their website for sexual themes and violence?
That's an English localization company, whose library is hardly over a few hundred titles. There have been thousands of shows over the past century of the medium existing.
>How can a non-Christian nation like Japan do this when there are only 1% Christians in Japan?
Several religions have values similar to Christianity in some respects. Family values are hardly exclusive to Christianity.
>Would that sell good on the market? Stop kidding yourself.
Sales isn't always the concern of an artist dude. That's a depressing outlook on Art to have.
>CP was legal in Japan until 2014.
And clearly there was some force fighting for it to be illegal if it isn't any more. Stop generalizing all of them.
>An unsubstantiated claim that makes no sense. The animes you've posted in this thread earlier surely don't.
I don't disagree with you on this, but I think he's just trying to piss you off… that's how trolling works bro note: I'm being serious though
>So an entire medium is stained by these trends in some? I guess I can't use a camera ever again since film has now been stained by pornography.
That's a strawman argument that has little to do with what I actually said.
1. We are talking about normal animes. I would say "non-pornographic" but most of them contain degeneracies anyway (see earlier in this thread)
2. There may be a small minority of animes that, although they are not specifically Christian, may be acceptable. This is not what I am talking about.
3. What you said does not change the fact that many animes promote homosexuality, etc. as said above.
>What are you referring to? I doubt you actually know what this show is… odds are your going by weebs, who I will not deny are degenerate, but aren't representative of the medium on the whole.
The Monogatari series, which is the most sold anime TV series.
>Most but not all. Not all movies are christian either. Does that mean none can be?
>That's an English localization company, whose library is hardly over a few hundred titles. There have been thousands of shows over the past century of the medium existing.
And yet, those few titles are not only the most popular but the most sold in America. What does that say about the marketplace?
>Sales isn't always the concern of an artist dude. That's a depressing outlook on Art to have.
And yet, even if the artists weren't concerned about sales, what, then compels them to put fan service, nudity, homosexuality, etc. into anime? Clearly, it is satan.
>And clearly there was some force fighting for it to be illegal if it isn't any more. Stop generalizing all of them.
That force would be international pressure, even the BBC says that.
>I don't disagree with you on this, but I think he's just trying to piss you off…
I didn't mention anime in this thread until after the OrthoWeeb posted anime pictures and the other guy clearly and plainly showed how the source materials were degenerate.
Again, Christianity is a whole package. You can't promote this or that aspect of morality which Christians agree is important, ignore the rest and then be characterised as promoting Chistian morality. Even pagans and atheists have some inkling of what is right and wrong according to God. Doesn't make them Christians or promoters of Christianity. Now I'm not trying to come after your chinese cartoons as if they were somehow so much worse then western entertainment. I'm not even going to go there. But you have to at least admit that a lot of current anime is sexualised, and that even the good, inoffensive and acceptable anime is hardly promoting Christian morality.
Good Lord, you're autistic. Do all women avoid you by any chance (except your mother, who won't even let you watch a cartoon)?
>There may be a small minority of animes that, although they are not specifically Christian, may be acceptable. This is not what I am talking about.
But you and many others call the entire medium of Anime degenerate so…
>What you said does not change the fact that many animes promote homosexuality, etc. as said above.
and this doesn't change the fact that many don't. This is what consistent logic looks like.
>The Monogatari series, which is the most sold anime TV series.
Google Sazae-san, Crayon Shin-chan, Doraemon, and One-Piece… The actual most popular shows in japan.
>And yet, those few titles are not only the most popular but the most sold in America. What does that say about the marketplace?
That's America. Weebs are degenerates as stated before.
>And yet, even if the artists weren't concerned about sales, what, then compels them to put fan service, nudity, homosexuality, etc. into anime?
Sometimes they are just degenerate. Other times it's for humor. Either way you still haven't told me why if a show isn't this way a should swear it off because it's anime.
>I didn't mention anime in this thread until after the OrthoWeeb posted anime pictures and
The anti-anime people are everywhere on this board though.
>the other guy clearly and plainly showed how the source materials were degenerate.
One is not the source material for all though dude.
This isn't the anime is evil thread. This is the nofap thread. If you're not helping brothers and sisters to stop masturbating then you're not really helping this thread. I'd prefer if people could take their whining about anime to another thread so we can focus on praying for one another
>You can't promote this or that aspect of morality which Christians agree is important, ignore the rest and then be characterised as promoting Chistian morality. Even pagans and atheists have some inkling of what is right and wrong according to God. Doesn't make them Christians or promoters of Christianity.
But a christian can appreciate that aspect can they not?
>Now I'm not trying to come after your chinese cartoons as if they were somehow so much worse then western entertainment. I'm not even going to go there. But you have to at least admit that a lot of current anime is sexualised, and that even the good, inoffensive and acceptable anime is hardly promoting Christian morality.
We don't deny this, we just deny painting the whole medium with such a broad brush. Most are bad but some are good.
It's that same Catholic troll, he started autistically screeching about anime after I added something useful and posted an anime girl along with it.
ummm, no sweetie. Even orthobros are complaining about you at this point.
>Most are bad but some are good.
Not what that orthodox guy somehow has convinced himself.
First of all, I'm the one who made this damn thread so that anons could talk about their struggles with purity. I didn't make it to discuss anime, but when you have people like >>450113 trying to shame others by acting smug concerning other's struggles, I can't help but point out the irony in that they themselves indulge in soft-core pornography in cartoon form.
If anyone in this thread needs help, it's people like him.
I was trying to help by making people realize how grave their sins are. If you masturbated once in the first century, you'd go directly to hell with no opportunity to rejoin the Church. The church became more and more lax over time, however. Now you can wank as much as you want :(
And those who call anime "softcore porn", let them be anathema.
>If you masturbated once in the first century, you'd go directly to hell with no opportunity to rejoin the Church.
That's not even true.
Day 2. Peeked again. I hate this.
> But a christian can appreciate that aspect can they not?
Indeed they can.
> We don't deny this, we just deny painting the whole medium with such a broad brush. Most are bad but some are good.
I don't nessecarily disagree. Definitely not all anime is bad, plenty is acceptable to watch as secular entertainment. Ortho-anon however appears to think most anime promotes Christian morality, which is simply absurd.
Love live is shit, i only liked it beacuse of the admitedly gorgerous idol girls
Of course it is. Even having "too much" sex with your very wife would be considered a sin. Masturbation/self-abuse would certainly be instant anathema, see Tertulian for example:
>But all the other frenzies of passions—impious both toward the bodies and toward the sexes—beyond the laws of nature, we banish not only from the threshold, but from all shelter of the Church, because they are not sins, but monstrosities.
>posting quotes from a Montanist heretic who purity spiraled out the One True Church because they were too sinful, then purity spiraled again out of Montanism because they were too sinful
You should cite an actual canon that says if you fap you're excommunicated for life, or at least an example of it, but you can't, because that never happened.
Yes, this was written after he became a Montanist. But the fact that Tertulian did not know of any Bishop other than the one he is criticizing (in "On Modesty") who allowed the sexually immoral to remain in the Church is telling, that's the point.
Other than that, the earliest Church Fathers were all extremely conservative in regard to sex, some saw it as being for procreation only - St Augustine, Justine Martyr, etc.
>Do you imagine that we approve of any sexual intercourse except for the procreation of children? He who is too ardent a lover of his own wife is an adulterer.
Then there's St Paul's excommunications in the Bible for other unnatural sexual acts.
I tried to take a different stance on nofap, instead of not fapping at all I decided to try to limit my fapping. At first every two days then every three then every fourth and so on until I stop completely. What do you guys think about that idea?
I was good for four days…I guess I'll try again tomorrow.
Absolutely awful. First, you're willfully committing a grievous sin without even the presence of temptation at that, second what if you die before you quit?
I have failed again. But, this has been my longest streak without being away in a public place (like a work trip or similar) in a very very long time. Even if it was just since Monday, that I made it through the whole work week without once touching myself until now fills me with hope.
I know that I would not have done it without him, and that the reason I failed was because of my own arrogance. Until this evening when I felt the desires I gave it up to him and surrendered to God as James 4:13-15 told me to. And each time I did this he took it from me and filled my heart with peace. But this morning, I stroked a little but then resisted the urge to continue and finish and got up to go to work. I was happy with myself that I had resisted it, but throughout the day I found myself horny and lost in those thoughts too often. Until finally I came home and spent 4 hours edging and holding it back, until finally, I couldn't hold it back anymore and came harder than I have in a long time.
After my euphoria I apologized to God, and when I got up to go clean off and get something to drink I had the urge to get on my knees and pray. I thought to myself, I'll do it after I get some more juice. But then I felt him tug at my heart, telling me, no. I need to do it now.
So I did, I got down on my knees and prayed to him and felt his grace fall on me as I apologized and he showed me why I had failed. I failed because I thought that I was in control, that it was me doing the resisting, I was proud. And in my pride I lost sight that it was only with the strength of the Lord that I had made it this far. I know I might fail again, but I know that if I keep him in mind, if I surrender my cares to him, he will take them from me and give me the peace I seek and the peace that he wants for me and for all of you.
Sorry for the rambling, but I felt called to share this with you all, and I hope it helps all of us who are stumbling.
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
Oh, I forgot one thing before I hit post. After I had prayed and got more juice I felt the need to praise him for the grace and peace he had given me despite my failure. So I sung this song and played my guitar in hopes of bringing sweet music to his ears. I hope that perhaps this song might help someone else in their pain if they're beating themselves up over failing and have need of a reminder of how much grace our Lord is full of
Well I don't see a problem with the idea that sex is for the primary, or maybe even the sole point of procreation, but the idea that the early Church would never forgive these things is ridiculous, and you still haven't substantiated your claim that masturbators were excommunicated for life. The Bible says that the only unforgivable sin is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.
Besides, you've come here to shove this sanctimonious "early Church" stuff in our faces, while at the same time posting pictures from egregiously degenerate tv shows, this is the definition of phariseeism.
Thanks for the reply familias, I think these were responses to my posts. I think you guys might have been the only ones who shred their thoughts on this (if there were others that I missed Im sorry).
>>432919 this is also me, so I'm going to look into setting up a filter I think.
Good to be reminded of this, thanks. Last week I was half asleep falling into an extremely sensual and pleasurable fantasy, all the chemicals were ramping up in my body in anticipation, ready to be carried away on an intoxicating white water rapids ride, but suddenly at somepoint I realised where I was and what was happening and had no choice but to call on Jesus name, and it was incredible how he literally carried the temptation away and lifted it from me with seemingly 0 effort. I was saved only by him.
The thing is while it MIGHT work, it's still a grave sin you're intentionally committing thus putting your soul in danger.
I'd do the same if I knew for certain that I'd still be alive in the next 5 years or so.
Others have given good Christian advice, based on Christianity. I'll give you some utilitarian advice (which is in no way nearly as important as what others have said). Ain't no turkey like cold turkey, honestly. Quitting cold turkey gives you the best chance of staying quit.
aye yeah the boys aussie aussie aussaaayye
met a yank the other week who'd moved here to get trained by this mob no joke
pretty sure 90% of their popularity is american evangelicals garn crazy for em but aye
>tfw hearing female aussie accent
>speakin on the LORDS work
maaate…don't post this shit in a bloody nofap aye; ^)
16 days! Never did that before and I still don't feel tempted.
I'm at about 4-5 days now, desires are getting stronger but I also feel a lot more focused and determined than I have before. Fapping is not about pleasure, it's about feeding an addiction and about delaying true repentance. The sooner I give up fapping and porn for good, the sooner I will be able to be content with celibacy (which is either going to be for life or a long time). I think being stuck in the fap and repent cycle is a massive trap. It's so easy to give in while having the fake justification that THIS time is really going to be the last. But I know that's complete bullshit. If I don't feel comfortable abandoning God forever, why should I feel comfortable abandoning him "temporarily"?
Praying for all the anons ITT - our struggle is a good one.
You need to stop with the anime-posting all the time. For reals.
spend every moment in communion with God
I have failed again after a week.
Good news is, I discovered that I don't have any non-physical needs to it anymore, and only the rehab kicks in to urge me to fap now.
Please pray for me guys.
I'm praying for you.
Do you ever wonder if God gets a giggle out of prayers like "please help anon 092b5d stop fapping like a fountain"?
I just pray for this board in general.
Day 52. Things are going well. I'm finally starting to live life and it's great. Only two more records to break, my 60 day one and my 120 day one.
This is the prayer I pray when I get the tfw no gf feelz. Happy Trinity Sunday /nofap/!
Be Satisfied with Me
by St. Anthony of Padua
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,
To have a deep soul relationship with another,
To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied,
Fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone,
With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me.
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone.
Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship,
That I have planned for you.
You will never be united to another
Until you are united with Me.
Exclusive of anyone or anything else.
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing, and allow Me to give you
The most thrilling plan existing . . . one you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.
Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you.
Just wait, that's all. Don't be anxious, don't worry
Don't look around at things others have gotten
Or that I have given them
Don't look around at the things you think you want,
Just keep looking off and away up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
Far more wonderful than you could dream of.
You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,
I am working even at this moment
To have both of you ready at the same time.
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me
And the life I prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that exemplified your relationship with Me.
And this is perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me.
And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love that I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly. I AM God.
Believe it and be satisfied
Bad news: I broke
Good news: I went 2 weeks this time.
Please pray that I don't break this time bros.
Oh look I didn't listen to my own advice. No excuses, just didn't fight my urges strongly enough.
Day one again. Its always the urge to peek at porn that gets me. Im going to have to limit my internet use.
>Day one again
Same. Made it to day 28. Feels bad.
I'm on day 3. Feel like crying openly for my sins, fam.
I cried a whole night and asked God for mercy and help. There's no shame in this.
Prayer of St John Chrysostome
According to the hours of day and night
1. O Lord, deprive me not of Thy heavenly blessings;
2. O Lord, deliver me from eternal torment;
3. O Lord, if I have sinned in my mind or thought, in word deed, forgive me.
4. O Lord, deliver me from every ignorance and heedlessness, from pettiness of the soul and stony hardness of heart;
5. O Lord, deliver me from every temptation;
6. O Lord, enlighten my heart darkened by evil desires;
7. O Lord, I, being a human being, have sinned; do Thou, being God, forgive me in Thy lovingkindness, for Thou knowest the weakness of my soul.
8. O Lord, send down Thy grace to help me, that I may glorify Thy holy Name;
9. O Lord Jesus Christ, inscribe me, Thy servant, in the Book of Life, and grant me a blessed end;
10. O Lord my God, even if I have done nothing good in Thy sight, yet grant me, according to Thy grace, that I may make a start in doing good.
11. O Lord, sprinkle on my heart the dew of Thy grace;
12. O Lord of heaven and earth, remember me, Thy sinful servant, cold of heart and impure, in Thy Kingdom.
13. O Lord, receive me in repentance;
14. O Lord, leave me not;
15. O Lord, save me from temptation;
16. O Lord, grant me pure thoughts;
17. O Lord, grant me tears of repentance, remembrance of death, and the sense of peace;
18. O Lord, grant me mindfulness to confess my sins;
19. O Lord, grant me humility, charity, and obedience;
20. O Lord, grant me tolerance, magnanimity, and gentleness;
21. O Lord, implant in me the root of all blessings: the fear of Thee in my heart;
22. O Lord, vouchsafe that I may love Thee with all my heart and soul, and that I may obey in all things Thy will;
23. O Lord, shield me from evil persons and devils and passions and all other lawless matters;
24. O Lord, Who knowest Thy creation and that which Thou hast willed for it; may Thy will also be fulfilled in me, a sinner, for Thou art blessed forevermore. Amen.
Had a relapse not sure how long ago, and haven't counted the days since. Drinking too much but it kills lust at least temporarily in moderation. If I must sin I'd rather be a drunk. God forgive us.
Day one again. Feel like shit.
It's the sleep, I wake up at random times during the night and absent minded I just wank.
I need to be more vigilant against this shit.
Day zero. Honestly think I'm going to just stop using the internet for a few days. I'll check in when my self control isn't so pathetic.
Does anybody know if there is a free web filter that I could use to block certain sites, but only the ones that I want to be filtered?
I had a web filter a long time ago and it left me averse to them because it blocked so much stuff that there was nothing wrong with, but now I'm thinking about doing something to block the porn places I'm most likely to go to
I'm not sure if replacing one sin with another is really the way to heaven anon. You can do it, just give yourself to the Lord and let him be in control.
>It's the sleep, I wake up at random times during the night and absent minded I just wank.
I understand this. I used to wake up in the morning and wake every day. My hand just goes for it automatically, like a reflex. For me, it was figuring out that so long as I don't put my hand/arm back under the covers, it wouldn't happen to the point that I would actually do it. You can do it anon, you'll get past this!
I failed a couple days ago, but I'm looking forward to this week. I feel good about it, the Lords on my back and at my side so we're going to power through this addiction!
Day 8 I think. Last time I broke at two weeks. I find that spending more time with other people helps. I don't think of it as saving myself for marriage, (spoilered for imagery that tempts me and may tempt others, just explaining for the sake of getting it out there) as I then find myself fantasizing about making love on the night of my wedding and how beautiful and intimate (intellectually as well as sexually) marriage is in general
Feeling hopeful! I will pray more than I used to.
If you can set it up, you can tear it down. That may not be the best solution. I remember some anon was talking about getting one of his close friends to set up a similar thing where a password was needed to even open the browser, and only the friend had the password. You may have more success with that or a similar agreement. There's a gajillion sites out there, you'll have no luck trying to block them all.
OpenDNS Personal if set as the primary and secondary DNS in your homes DCHP server configuration (usually in your gateway/router from your ISP) is a good free option. You can block whatever you like, and some narrow lists exist for it too. It takes a good amount of effort to tear it down if you set it up.
Just popping in to share an observation I've made over the past month but had a hard time articulating. Loneliness seems to be a common trigger for relapse. During my last streak a couple people pointed out that I seemed alot more open. I stopped feeling lonely around other people where as before i was "lonely even when i wasn't alone". Porn makes someone focus inward, because of how secretive/shameful the activity is. When i was watching porn daily i was always stressed out about things outside of my control, to the point where it became obsessive and i could never rest. When i managed to go a while without it i finally started to be at peace with situations outside of my control and trust God more. I know resisting lust is hard, but the peace of the soul that comes with trusting Christ is infinitly better.
Well I'm 9 weeks and 4 days in and im feeling good. This is where the flaw of pride tries to make me loosen up. Well its not happening!
I dont think i would have gotten this far if I was still at the university semester (finished up a month ago). The sight and pheromones of young women does effect this to big up to anyone who is doing this and public activity. I now fully support the notion of gender division for high school.
Thing is, it really does feel good to not have done it in a long while. its a genuine energy from self respect. Its worth it lads. I just fear ill mess it up
I really have no way to express this guilt. I feel dead.
Then cry! Scream your guts out. Empty yourself, be extreme in your way to fix the problem. Throw everything that can lead you to sin. Do it, and then ask God for forgiveness.
that's a terrible idea, indulging in your emotions will just make it worse. Be sober instead.
It hits kinda hard when you realize no marriage=no spilling Seed ever again.
Sure,its for the greater good but still, if you are dying at 30 Y.O. you must hold still even in your death-bed.
im planning to lock away internet after I finish my mango. How do I spend time? I wake up at 6:00, sleep at 11:30.
Should I start praying for long hours?
You could read your bible. Or pick up authors and read them. I just finished Orson Scott Card's mithermages series as well as Les Grossman's magicians. Both were good if you like fantasy magic stuff.
Finally managed to stay clean for a few days, but the lust is hittting me hard. Please pray for me, brothers
>all I can think about is my old affiliations with the occult
>started researching Lilith the other night
(Spoiler) you probably have a Cambion son by now (spoiler)
>Trachtenberg’s insight is obviously accurate. According to the Zohar, a man who masturbates in this world will be treated in the next life like one who is worst than a murderer—since he has, in effect, murdered his own seed; in God’s eyes he is considered the most reprehensible kind of human being. In a strange way, the Zohar sees Lilith as the guardian of family purity. Any couple failing to observe the laws governing sexual abstention risks incurring her wrath. Even making love by candle light can result in Lilith causing children to become epileptic and risk being pursued and killed by Lilith. One may deduce from the Zohar’s condemnation that the fate of young men or children dying is a talionic punishment for having spilled seed. The proof text for this was Er and Onan who died rather than give their seed to Tamar (Gen. 38:1-10).
If you ever find out your dold man wanked before "sowing " you, challenge him to a fisticuffs for potentially wrecking your life pre-birth.
I was legit born under some of the weirdest circumstances.
Father had a vasectomy that just happened to go wrong and my mother had been declared infertile prior.
Maybe you're from an old Seed(prior to those produced after vasectomy?)
people now are looking more monstrous, back then most people had agreeable faces.
wankers produce evil offspring.
>Also, Judaism is based on NOFAP after all. so is Hinduism and Buddhism(celibacy for 12 years gibs you door to nirvana). nofap supercedes and includes all pagan religion
Day 5 came and went. Onto day 6 now and temptation is extremely strong. I forgot to mention that I had an awful dream regarding lust.
Here we go boys, day 1 starts now!
I had 2 wet dreams last night.
Is it sinful if it feels like I had control in the dream?
I feel a lot better about this.
Starting today, please, pray for me
Made it to day 2. Feeling occasional temptations but nothing horrendous. My major issue is getting over masturbation as a form of relieving boredom. Going to start reading more in an attempt to keep myself occupied.
Best of luck anon. Making it to that second day can be the hardest thing when you've been habitually fapping for years. Good job.
just passed day 2, no temptation. I found a new strategy lads.
I would stop for one day, then blast out as many faps as possible the next. Then I'd be able to stop for two days, and then on the third blast out. Then I start counting by week. Right now I'm on one per week. I've kind of weened myself off it. I think I can stop entirely now.
Praying for you all
God reentered my life about a week ago. My lust subsided since then, only tripped up once, that was yesterday.
Day 1 I guess.
I'm temped, very tempted to commit that sin.
I just had a good confession and then all my past mistakes came rushing to my mind and my heart sank deep into despair, again.
I already wached pornography since coming back home.
It's this dark sense of nothingness which wraps all of me which destroys ll my efforts to be a good Christian.
I think I fucked up my prostate. How would I be able to tell?
Day one again. Its hard to resisit in the few hours of freetime before I sleep.
>too tired to exercise
>attention span too short to do anything requiring thought
The attention span thing isnt a problem once im a few days in but its really bad the first few days after a relapse.
I went to swimming today, but in the same health club ,in other room, they had female gymnastic class for teen girls. I looked down and hurried to exit door.
I, who loves to see that stuff like I love to eat curry chicken bare-handed!
i feel very satisfied with myself for such a feat
I know how it feels, I have the same terrible issue…
no ,it is GOOD , not terrible.
overcoming great obstacles gives a feeling of euphoria.
Also it shows i'm healthily heterosexual.
This I agree. It's the issue which is terrible for me. I almost won my battle against my homosexual desires, and now I must face this as well.
I feel like it wouldn't be so hard if I wasn't so lonely :(
You're never alone.
It has officially been 1 week.
>one week now
>praying the rosary helped
>next month, when I get paid, I'm gonna buy a scapular and a spiritual warfare book
I still struggle with pornography, but I'm learning to control my "appetites" more and more. From next week I'll also try to use one of my day of rest from work to fast and plan a "strategy" to better my life on all levels, spiritual, mental and physical. Any suggestion?
Also: thanks to all the good people in here who pray for one another, I'll keep you in my prayers as well.
Sometimes I find myself thinking, whats the point? I'm going to fail eventually, why not fail now?
I sometimes think about how daunting this task is, am I never supposed to have an orgasm again until procreation? And then after that?
I even find myself wondering whether masturbation is a sin or not.
I need help; the temptation is becoming strong.
Thanks for helping us with our no-fap efforts (seriously, how could anyone be turned on by something so vile) but posting porn is still both a sin and against the board tules
I'm going to set up a filter. Before I do can any one reccommend another online community that is similarly bible-believing like /christian/ is, if there are any out there? By that I mean not liberal. I assume they won't have as dank memes as this place will they?
Thanks and thanks for the good times over the past coupoe of years. Learnt a lot here but it is too distracting for me progressing in my faith at the moment (I procrastinate hugely on here when I should be reading more constructive things that build me up) and not having a filter on provides ample opportunity to sin through porn binges. God bless and wil continue to pray for you all.
Started to look up some pretty nasty stuff. Pure guilt made me stop browsing. Feel terrible at the moment. Temptations come and go every couple weeks and I'm not sure how long until I break and revert back to my sick self. If they get any stronger I will probably break.
I pray at the end God will show me mercy.
Day 228. I started using soap and shampoo again to wash off pheromones.
if I get a wife it will be trough pure spiritual magnetism and not crude pheromone attraction.
>Sometimes I find myself thinking, whats the point?
>I even find myself wondering whether masturbation is a sin or not.
I'm with you. I think anytime I'm seriously tempted, I always question whether or not its "really" wrong. It must be doing damage with my relationship with God if I'm doubting Him in this way.
Day one again. I think its safe to say that this week undone all my progress of the past month. Why do i always forget prayer when i have to urge to look at porn.
I was, for lack of a better word, very horny all day yesterday and last night I had a wet dream. I wonder if I did not entertain such thoughts would I have not. I don't count it as a relapse but biologically it feels like one.
ahahah I guess you need to laugh sometimes, waking up in a mess is rather funny!
How do you look at women without lust? Serious question.
Look at an ugly woman and you shall find your answer
I managed to go for one month, and now I keep failing again.
But even from such a disgusting sin God can derive good things: I definitely became prideful and thought I could withstand the temptation on my own. Now I once again realized that man can do nothing from himself and only humbleness before the Lord is bestowed with His loving grace.
>I managed to go for one month, and now I keep failing again.
Same boat. Feels bad.
>been going strong for a while
>have a wet dream last night
>wake up craving if that's the right word crap like boku no pico
>some guy is gay-posting
>knowingly watched some crap on /loli/
I hate it. Why gay though? And why children? Why couldn't it just be normal lust??
May God guide us by His Spirit, work in us to transform our inner beings to be more like Christ day by day.
Might get a bit wordy here.
Started again. Best attempts are consistently at around 19/20 days, never broken three weeks. When I fail I relapse hard and go days, weeks even months before trying again. Been NEET for years with porn use going back at least a decade. Doesn't help I suffer from depression and social anxiety, meaning I find it hard to go out into the world and get employed. I also do not sleep well and now its summer time that will only worsen. So I'm low energy 24/7, no real motivation and confidence, NEET, no friends, no money. It also doesn't help that my no fap attempt a few years ago felt great, I slept better, more confidence, I truly felt it wasn't some bro science rubbish, but then other times felt no different. Weird.
Started dieting again and practically right after the desire to try no fap again came back. I should really try at reading more, learning new things, exercising and maybe even writing, but I'm sure many of you struggle with that concentration deficiency as well. I keep telling myself to get back on the horse whenever I fail, but I never do. I tell myself that if I fail, at least fail to my imagination, not porn, but I never do.
So wish me luck and I wish you yours.
do 100 burpees a day.
Seriously, it will whip you into shape cruelly fast and take away your lustful energies.
>also get a a manual job. Are you from anglophone country? Do some gardening or odd jobs, nobody does those.
2 months tomorrow.
I legit feel like a new man. I'm turning 25 in two months and I hope I'm finally gonna recover this time and start living life like a man. I've been praying so much more, going to mass so much more. I've done more socializing and met more people in the past two months than in the past four years when my porn addiction was at its worst. I've lost 20 pounds since I started running and am at a good weight now. My acne is basically gone.
God is bigger than our sins. He loves us so much. Stop living in shame and despair. There are millions of people like us. You're never alone. Come into the light, ask for His help, for He is right there with you, take the proper precautions to avoid lust and never, ever give up.
That sounds rough, dude. I used to be a NEET and I know the feeling of wanting to do something but just not being able to do so because of lack of motivation. It can be really overwhelming.
If you want you can give me your discord or something and we can talk a little. And I'll definitely pray for you.
I'm just here to remind you that we do this by faith and obedience. Not out of guilt, because Jesus Christ has already saved us, washing our sins with his blood.
I like the idea of a manual job. I spend so much time on PC that a job cutting my usage in half would be very much needed.
Don't have any of that stuff. I don't mind giving out some information on here.
Starting over again. Succame on Saturday, but then was good during Sunday. Probably because I had church and drove the entire day to visit my father. Today should be good. I woke up early, went to the gym as I did last week and am feeling good. It's just those idle days that seem to get me. I even have a book to read and everything, I just need to get better at not tempting myself and saying: "oh I'll just do X, I won't actually fap"
I've made it to a week. Of course I've already made it this long quite a few times, what would be more significant is if I can beat my all time record of 16 days. I feel reasonably confident right now, had a few lustful thoughs earlier in the day, but they didn't end up enticing me to anything. However I have to be wary since they could be much stronger tomorrow or the day after.
Im going to start using the Pheromone Binaurals which automatically make female humans attracted to you.
nofap is not a merit, nofornication is a merit only if you have something to refuse,otherwise the point is moot.
You measure this by times denied,not days. if you deny request to fornicate 8 times you have"8 points" in nofornication.
I thought pheromone's were supposed to attract the right type of female relatove to your genes, therefore "using" pheromones that arnt yours or are artificial defeats the purpose. I thought the idea was is that they signalled to a mate the type or make up of your immune system, which will be picked up by a female with th opposite type/make up of the immune system. Thereby when you produce offspring they will have the best of both worlds for their immune system. When mates are paired by these natural means the female likes the scent of the man, including his body odor. That's why I don't use anti perspirint deoordorent because it masks the peromones. I wouldn't want to discount what God has provided as a natural attractor (and which to make use of you don't have to do anything apart from avoid antiperspirants) and way of sifting for an appropriate mate. Imagine getting with your girl and prepping for marriage and because either you or her have been masking your natural pheromones with deoordorents or artificial pheromones you find out that you don't like their scent, their most natural and base features you don't like or they don't like, I would be pretty gutted. That's why I always advise guys to get your girl to sniff your pits when you start getting serious. But I don't know maybe it's a bunch of baloney I'm just going from what I read from an article. And sure, your girl not liking your natural scent isn't ideal but not the end of the world I guess, but like I say if God has provided it as a natural attractor may as well make use of it I say.
no,pheromones are a Challenge and the game is to resist solicitation from women.
it even (spoiler) works with gay boys( spoiler)
Honestly, the stress and pain from knowing I might not commune is worse than anything I could feel by just not masturbating. So, that helps. But I need to pray more often, otherwise I might very well forget the mission the Lord gave me.
>That's why I don't use anti perspirint deoordorent because it masks the peromones
Pro tip: You need to use deodorant. You might not notice because you're used to the way you smell, but I guarantee you smell. Speaking as someone that's attentive to personal hygiene I notice many people who believe they can get away with not showering regularly, not brushing their teeth, etc. They can't. People are very attentive to the smell of B.O. and will usually pretend not to notice to be nice (while complaining about it the moment the person is out of earshot).
The main purpose of anti-perspirant isn't to make you smell better, it's to kill the bacteria that live in the armpit (which are the actual source of the smell, as they produce waste while they feed on the body oils there, and thrive in the moist environment created by sweat). That's why you can buy scentless deodorant, the smell isn't the main purpose. If you're so worried about your natural pheromones, you should be attempting to block the rank bacterial smell that would be overwhelming them.
>That's why I always advise guys to get your girl to sniff your pits when you start getting serious.
Please tell me you've never actually told anyone this.
>if God has provided it as a natural attractor may as well make use of it I say.
Or, you know, you could just work out, avoid the social stigma associated with not using deodorant, and be generally healthier to boot.
>it even (spoiler) works with gay boys( spoiler)
R E P E N T
WHY should I repent?
Gays have female pheromone receptors, I didnt put them there.
Im just saying it works,so be warned
>Gays have female pheromone receptors
You've been watching too much Bill Nye
>Gays have female pheromone receptors
>WHY should I repent?
>Gays have female pheromone receptors
>good goy pheromones don't exist
this is (((propaganda))) to keep you fapping
>>good goy pheromones don't exist
>this is (((propaganda))) to keep you fapping
lol how? Fapping happens on the internet where even if pheromones did exist it wouldn't matter because pictures can't emit pheromones.
I've been going strong for a month+ now and what I have to say is, and it may sound cliche, surrender yourself to Jesus. Stop what you're doing and pray about anything and everything. I don't even have the slightest desire to return to porn OR EVEN VIDEO GAMES. I'm on my computer and I don't even fear my hands moving on their own to type in some model's name anymore. The desire isn't there anymore, It's not my fight anymore. Ask and ye shall receive, call His name and He'll be there, God is not a liar. I've battled with porn and what comes afterward for at least ~10 years and I've never felt so free and clean.
A word of warning. When God set me free of porn He also set me free of Video Games, you have to be willing to give those up as well. This will be the last time I visit this site, I don't want to give the enemy anymore opportunity to fuck my shit up. Don't play with fire and whatnot.
>This will be the last time I visit this site
Same here. I was away from here for a week, and just by browsing /christian/ and /christ/ I've already encountered pr0ns twice today because of spammers. I've tried blocking images completely, but that makes the site almost unusable. Plus I always give in to turning images back by convincing myself that it's just to see one post… Also, thank you for reminding me about video games, because I've been redownloading a few even though I had deleted all of them not long ago. I guess I'll be cutting that off completely, unless I'm content with being the dog that returns to it's vomit. May God bless you all, brothers.
all i'm saying bro is that those jews also say no fap is a pseudo science…
thank u lad. i need to get off fucking stupid video games they suck
But outside the net your lack of pheros will be noticed
Scientific American was started by a YEC Christian in the 19th century. He would be rolling in his grave know this seeing this crap.
Made it to 10 days today, however have had some very strong temptations and have fallen into lustful fantasy, though I have at least avoided watching/downloading porn. I know I can't give in now, but this sort of nostalgia for my old porn addict ways is growing. For now the best I feel I can do is pray, go to sleep as soon as possible and get active early tomorrow morning.
>>458772 here, to clarify I never said I don't use deodorant, I said I don't use antiperspirant deodorant. The purpose of antiperspirant isn't to kill the bacteria its purpose is to block the pores from which you perspire (hence the name). I just use non-antiperspirant deo because i don't like using stuff that messes with our natural (God given) body functions if I can avoid it. I'm a sweaty guy any way, and blocking certain pores (pits) just means that it increases sweating in other prone areas, namely hands and feet, which are slimy enough as it is.
Re: telling people to get their girls to sniff their pits, I only told my friends tongue in cheek. This was the article (its from 20 years ago though) that lead me to do this: https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/199603/the-smell-love
Interesting that >>459141 debunks it, would be good to have more info. I'm am super tired but wikipedia seems to indicate there is evidence that odour, inc. pheromones, plays a part in how we interact with the opposite sex https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_odour_and_sexual_attraction#Human_pheromones_and_facial_attraction
>>459878 what do you mean, rolling because of the SA discounting it or because pheromone stuff is BS?
And now back on topic, close of day 3 reporting in.
For in that he died, he died unto sin once: but in that he liveth, he liveth unto God.
Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, that ye should obey it in the lusts thereof.
Neither yield ye your members as instruments of unrighteousness unto sin: but yield yourselves unto God, as those that are alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness unto God.
For sin shall not have dominion over you: for ye are not under the law, but under grace.
I failed again after barely 2 weeks.
Please pray for me guys…
It's good to see you're not insane. The way the other post was written made you seem like you were trying to justify BO. Apologies.
I failed 2 days ago now. I feel good today, though. My longest streak was about a month and a half. We will all make it through this sin, /christian/. We must pray for each other.
Are those the meanings of those names?
Checked. I hope to get that far. Pray for me.
we all gonna make it !
No need to apologise! I was on my phone for the first post so typos also probably contributed to the perception of my being insane. And to be clear, I am justifying BO in that I mean the natural scent of us (some of which is dispersed through sweat see article I posted) but I understand lots of people also use BO to mean the stinkyness produced when bacteria feeds of this and breaks it down etc. I'm not justifying that no ain't gonna attract a mate being stinky!
29 days. Speaking with a girl almost everyday about the corruption of the world and God really helps. I'll pray for you anons.
Yeah, I think it's really incredible
you're lucky to have someone to talk to like that.
I have a female friend I go to church with, but I wouldn't dare talk to her about masturbation