>>33757
/pol/ share similar qualities, but the main point is that /pol/ almost seems to pride itself on being, would you believe, a minority. Although the response to not agreeing with Hitler can centre around "fuck off JIDF" the secret is that they're happy someone disagrees with them in the first place, it gives validity to the general feeling that it is them vs normies/bluepilled
Here are two more knowledge bombs:
#1
You must try MDMA at least once, it will change your life, and is the main reasons these posts are being made
#2
While under the euphoric (fuck you the word is appropriate in this context) effects I was able to face multiple issues of mine that I had not been able to before as it had always made me uncomfortable and move away from the topic, by forcing my body into a state of happiness no matter what, I could finally force myself to face my own subconscious without cowering back. That being said Mandy will also fuck your cognitive thoughts up so this all happened by accident, like tripping over and landing in a basket of puppers.
So, during this 5 hour period I was able to conclude numerous things, which I imagine I will convey poorly.
I faced extreme neglect and borderline abuse as a child, being the youngest of 7 my parents could no longer pretend to be excited or interested in what was to me major things, this stretched beyond learning to walk and talk (which came at a late age due to what I am convinced was a combination of neglect and (self-diagnosed) assburgers. This general nonchalant attitude towards me as a person continued/s long into a time when memories form, while my older brothers could easily recall their birthdays and could show me photos from when they were children, and their baby diaries, their little mementos of when they were my age, I started to wonder where all this stuff was for me. The only birthdays my parents actively made an effort for beyond a card with some money were my 8th birthday, in which I had a bouncy castle and a BBQ with everyone from my class, this was only doine because the month before my brothers had been telling me about their 8th birthdays, and my 10th birthday, in which they took me for a surprise trip to a local theme park, for the same reasons as before.
This neglect resulted in me being a very inward and alone child, I got my first friend when I was 12 years old, and generally made me very needy and attention-seeking, I am amazed that said friend stuck with me a week, let alone 5 years considering only in the past couple months have I begun to lighten up. To make this giant autistic paragraph relevant and not just Beamish being a faggot (again) I have come to realise that 9/10 of the posts I made were done for attention without me noticing, I had always rationalised it as just "who I was" i.e. an enormous fucking cunt
tl;dr: Beamish had serious mental issues brought on my an incredibly abusive family, whom he still has to live with, took copious amounts of illegal drugs and has found peace, sorry for whenever I was a massive faggot in the year I might have known you.
I may have ruined this thread, sorry.