/culuf/ - hello i'm culuf

I love you all my friends.

We're still here.
I mean I may be just starting to try to get a degree in counseling but every lil bit helps right?

>>500
The road to recovery is never easy and time doesn't always heal all wounds.

To fully heal, you must confront what ails you. Piece by piece at a time. Deal with one more small part of the puzzle. Just mentally keep tally of the small blotches of darkness left on the picture. Scrub them away, but do not delete them less you numb yourself and forget exactly why you are feeling the way you do.

Avoid anti-depressants like the plague. IT is essentially the same thing. A neurochemical concoction designed to numb pain to the point people don't even realize they exist. Every brain is different, and if neurochemical stimulants are used, it can cause the brain to become to 'used' to certain levels of chemical. Then the body tries to fight it, trying to equalize (homeostasis) only to cause even more issues.

Mental health, as sad as it is, was destroyed in the US by Reagan. Who, overnight, dismantled hundreds of facilities and sent tens of thousands of mentally ill loose on the streets. Nowadays, mental health is completely funded (and in most cases owned) by pharmaceuticals which turns most psychiatric centers into auto-prescription zombie huts.

Go into your mind.
Meditate on the loss.
Face it.
Get beat down by sadness.
Then rise up to face it again.

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>>449
lol I like you with all your poop jokes and everything.
>>450
That ruins my plans! I didn't think you would look me up. My friends on SecondLife come from a less hard background then here. So yeah I was a little scared what you would think. I'm so sorry. I am in a lot of pain right now. I just.. It wasn't even trolling for me. I love aliens. I love the ideas I created and I love meeting new people. Some of the things I did here made me laugh and cheered me up. My father had fun giving some ideas and with the elf. It was all too much fun.
>>451
Moses you are one of my favorites. No offense to anyone else. I don't think I want to leave you guys or this life. It hurts people when that happens. It hurts so much. Mica was meant to look like my friend and I miss her and it's killing me inside. This was after a bad breakup so I'm not feeling very good at all. I was jealous how messed up is that? Sometimes I wish she was never introduced to me just because I needed friends. I didn't want to go to her funeral.. I don't want to meet people in life anymore. Just.. I need every idea I can to convince my brain to let go or move on or just stop remembering and hurting me. I wish the pain would stop. I need time.

If Culuf wakes up she will be upset. There are things we're not supposed to talk about. I am very worried the Orbocs are going to catch onto this.

I left people behind. I think I had children. I tried recording this, but Culuf and Sivelt usually work out the kinks. I could not figure out how to translate the strange Sitmac code into human coding. I'm not a coder!

This is her television where I'm ordering a skin dye so I can look more like myself. Do I look familiar to anyone? Please, assist in any way you can improving the space travel program so earth can be greeted by the Orbocs and the travel restrictions will be lifted. I don't know if the family I left behind will live long enough if you don't hurry. Human lives are so short.

So many mistakes. I'm making so many mistakes!! I can't delete the posts. I don't know Culuf's password to this stupid board! Help me this was terrible why did I do this? This is my only communication to Earth! I should have found out who I was first. Who was I? I have memories but they are jumbled. My children. Do they think I hate them for what I did?

>>431
you are right on craft i think? do not know quantum idea of humans. wish i can learn advance human maths but seems humans make math very hard. do not know why they do this

yes that is good idea! is a thing we know to do when lost some place is thought brain.. probe.. i do not like word probe. humans think we do this to butts

do you know of ones who can brain probe? in city of many races we send thoughts to find some of best brain power. "sophisticated human" say something of druids i do not understand druids. can they?

is no contacting earth guras. forbidden to send things from us by orbocs because tragedy of roswell crash. friend who is celebrity visit me some times but she has not recent. very common on earth! gura friend tell me they leave human clone was never alive as death of celebrity. she said is funny humans think they want to die when they are worshiped and rich

earth guras have computer to predict age to adult. keep it very hidden. they can not shift many wrinkles and wear wig glyvvros. this is some way to tell difference? they feed them. here is glyvvros on mica we are not sure if it is good one

>>432
I've had my moments of essentially speaking to the mind. In some cases I've guessed medicines people were taking to helping them find lost objects.

I saved some of the evidence as it was over a series of instant messages. But I'm not sure if I just got lucky or if I actually did speak to the mind. Plus, in both cases I was within notable contact with the other.

Do you recall what eye color your friend had?

Is there anything in particular someone here on the surface would need to do for contacting outward? Is there something I could easily construct with common earthen materials I could set down as a sort of beacon to ping outward?

>>433
you have small mind speak? this is good! it improves by practice. you can do the things very young sitmacs do and we get better to keep trying. do not know how many earth humans can speak with mind but clones can not think back pictures.
i have idea orbocs say they are more strong power on energy planet they come from and sitmac history say ours thoughts more strong on movaru planet

maybe it is earth you need to .. be .. connect with? that .. sorry is confusing

he had black eyes like my network link contacts but was not contacts. i search human google for black eyes this human look very much like him! was not strange face hair

our machines use on sitmac thoughts. is seuyul my hover chair and picture television or computer also auditory keyboard but i type english to get better. is only one machine to make speak with brain better it is neural intellect stimulator

i think humans are not stupid they are much good of reflex and not so good of technology advance. is a brain trade? we study many races brains is common to have more reflex or more smart. are smart humans not good reflexes?

>>438
wish i can be there on earth to brain probe!

static needs a solid thing yes to focus on image in brain. intuition is stronger with intellect but instinct much different is for reflex brain

i forget to talk about healthy body is healthy brain! is easy when make surico our healthy plant water with mutagen. all of things food replicator makes are not real things is just the taste but surico plant is minerals or vitamins

>>434
i use google is very nice like our virtual reality tubes. please do not make good virtual reality with feels and touch. is a bad thing my people are addicts they work jobs and come home no love for family just the fake world. i refuse tubes now! was program to pretend i am human with humans but not real. have to have real

i like inside this car thing!

i am 19 in human biology? but over 500 human years. if i was over 100 i would be child. i will do that takes time to translate code! i have to go to job for human replicas store now is much stupid fish race hybrids in charge. they get everything wrong of humans think they are experts!

>>379
here is dance! i practice much when i go to cxiii club of secondlife was a object make avatar did many dances so was much free time to dance real. hope it is okay? do not know right way humans dance

This can stay because it only hints at poop. I have been given orders. I am to operate as the filter before Culuf sees anything.

>>404
do not mind sivelt she is angry cyborg D: she thinks if she gets freedom there is not following the orders. i tell her there is jobs do the same thing she does not listen

favorite shape is thin smooth oblong like yours but this way and color is peach!