Hey /cuteboys/ I am depressed, my bf killed himself today and I am in a dark place right now mentally, I feel sad, angry and feel like I failed somehow. Can any of you help me in any way? I just need to get my mind off of it, I even tried to help him, an

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Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:01:52 No.231699

Hey /cuteboys/ I am depressed, my bf killed himself today and I am in a dark place right now mentally, I feel sad, angry and feel like I failed somehow. Can any of you help me in any way? I just need to get my mind off of it, I even tried to help him, and when he refused I tried getting the police involved but they couldn't do anything.

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:14:19 No.231706

>feel like I failed somehow.

frankly, unless you put the gun in his mouth, no you did not fail him.

if someone wants to be dead, they'll find a way. there isn't really anything you can do about it.

this shit's hard no matter who you are. it's gonna hurt.

the only thing you can do is live

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:15:05 No.231707

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>>231699

>bf committed suicide

>coming to /cb/

SEE A THERAPIST

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:31:06 No.231716

>>231699

that is unfortunate

>>231707

not OP but not everyone is rich and not everyone can afford that kind of thing

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:45:44 No.231723

>>231716

>not everyone is rich and not everyone can afford that kind of thing

Canada is about as socialist as they come (outside of Europe of course).

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:50:33 No.231725

>>231723

Stuff like that may not be covered. it isn't here

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 22:53:03 No.231726

>>231699

I'm sorry to hear that anon. Just sit down and talk with us, we're here to help. Losing someone close to you is never easy, but in the end you have to accept that what is done is done. It isn't your fault, you tried your best, and that's all you can do. Do yourself a favor and don't hold it in. Talk with family, anyone. Get it out of your system.

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 23:15:20 No.231731

>>231726

I just feel really sick man, I have never felt this way about anyone, I have dated around, but he was the first person I ever loved. I know I will get better, but it will take some time.

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 23:27:52 No.231736

>>231731

Why did he do it?

Anonymous 12/16/15 (Wed) 23:35:40 No.231739

>>231736

He was depressed for a while, and his best friend dying put him over the edge

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 00:24:49 No.231760

>>231699

There is a thread for this kind of thing over here: >>116152

Also, I second Cat Anon; why the fuck are you asking /cuteboys/?

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 01:12:36 No.231771

>>231731

I'm truly sorry anon.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 02:48:32 No.231804

>>231731

there isn't a good way to lose someone you care about.

i don't know if i should tell you to try and take your mind off it because ultimately you'll have to think about it for a long time before it stops hurting. it doesn't go away tbh, but it becomes part of you & you learn to understand it. you know him and you know yourself better than any of us possibly can.

the only generality i can offer is that i highly doubt this person wanted to cause you pain, so blaming yourself is of little value.

you'll get through this.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 03:13:35 No.231814

Suicide is nobody's decision except the one who chooses it. Don't beat yourself up over it, OP.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 03:14:43 No.231816

>>231809

Man, this post is retarded as fuck.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 03:29:35 No.231825

Pics or it didn't happen.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 04:14:53 No.231833

>>231809

If this is true, then why has being in love always made me infinitely more depressed than when I'm in happy solitude?

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 04:31:56 No.231838

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>>231833

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 06:54:44 No.231880

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I cant help much but if you want to talk or play vidya or something you can email me.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 07:41:39 No.231891

I'm sorry.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 08:21:08 No.231904

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>>231699

dumping cute pics of cats eating spaghetti to make you feel better

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 12:34:06 No.231911

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>>231814

Bullshit, you are an ignorant self-righteous douche. Nobody knows what led to a certain event except the person that is directly affected by it, sometimes not even them.

I will also dump cute spidery friends to cheer you up :3

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 12:35:16 No.231912

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>>231911

I mean cheer Op up, not the douche I replied to first, fuck that guy.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 14:14:31 No.231917

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Unless he explicatly stated that it was your fault for some reason, it is not.

Even then you'd have to take that with a grain of salt.

Sad thing though. But all you can do now is to carry on and honour his memory by doing so.

Here, have sloth. It might cheer you up.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 16:08:34 No.231940

>>231911

Did you reply to the wrong post?

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 16:27:12 No.231948

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Give yourself time and take it slow OP, go see a therapist if you can.

I wish you all the luck mate, it's gonna be tough, but you can make it.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 16:51:38 No.231953

>>231725

its a weird half-covered thing here in australia, I used to get top notch therapy and i paid like 90 bux an hour after medicare instead of the whopping 400 an hour the dude usually charges

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 17:12:03 No.231959

>>231953

>£200 an hour to sit there and listen to people whine

I don't care if you're an astronaut or whatever the fuck but no one is worth £200 an hour.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 17:35:40 No.231965

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I don't think boys should have long term relationships with each other instead of starting a family with a woman but nonetheless you lost a loved one, and for that I am sorry.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 17:56:15 No.231975

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TITS, PUSSY, ASSHOLE!

EVERYTHING BITCH

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 18:49:34 No.232000

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>>231953

You people are fucking stupid if your paying that much for some asshole to listen to your shit…

>>231959

Agreed.

>>231965

Women are boring, stupid self centered manipulative shit stains on the face of humanity, in that light I strongly disagree!

>tfw no qt monogamous bf to hold hands with and kiss on new years eve ;_;

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 22:41:07 No.232032

>>232000

Hi, you know psychologists actually do help people right?

Anonymous 12/19/15 (Sat) 23:28:09 No.232264

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>>231731

anon your awesome and I love you and your bf too. Im sure he still loves you back. its sad what he did. you wont be able to make any new memories with him but you still have all of the one you and him already made.

Anonymous 12/20/15 (Sun) 18:14:06 No.232445

was he the same who was addicted to cough syrup?

Anonymous 12/20/15 (Sun) 18:32:50 No.232451

>>232445

I don't think so. He was the same one who OP was going to lose his virginity to in >>226288

Anonymous 12/20/15 (Sun) 20:43:04 No.232470

you let him die

how many suicidal people out there wouldnt love to have someone as close to them as a bf/gf that can help them out, make them feel loved, protect them etc

but you didnt do anything

shameful

Anonymous 12/20/15 (Sun) 20:54:27 No.232473

>>232470

Not cool France :c

Anonymous 12/21/15 (Mon) 01:34:37 No.232539

>>232470

I agree with Romania

Anonymous 01/08/16 (Fri) 20:07:15 No.237612

>>232445

>>232470

Screw you france, no one has ever liked you

Anonymous 01/09/16 (Sat) 00:45:16 No.237680

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>>231699

>I feel sad, angry and feel like I failed somehow

stay angry, and focus it on a goal you want. Your bf is gone and nothing you can do is going to change that, so don't worry about how you could have stopped him, because that's a non issue

also, checked

Take up a project or some shit, learn a language or a musical instrument

Anonymous 01/10/16 (Sun) 04:15:49 No.237906

>>231699

As someone who's had two suicidal partners and has been in a suicidal place himself.

Its really not your fault and I know you'll hear it alot but it really isn't

You TRIED and that is all you can ever do.

And if anyone else is reading this who's going through similar or will one day.

Some people have mental illness. Its not derogatory. Its just something people can't really help

They can be amazing functional people one day and the next hate themselves and feel shitty.

They can come up with the craziest mental gymnastics that can make the most perfect person in the world or the worst person seem too good for them or like you secretly dislike them and they're doing you a favor.

Its so easy to fall in love and this sort of thing can happen to anyone.

I'm seriously sorry OP but you tried your best and it was out of your hands.

They would have done it sooner without you probably.

At least you helped them be happy now and then.

They were lucky to have you.

I hope things get better for you!

Anonymous 01/10/16 (Sun) 05:25:28 No.237911

Hi anon I have no way of proving this but something very similar happened to me. I know your pain and I feel for you. It happened about a year ago and because of me being well in the closet I held everything in and it almost killed me. I love him very much to this day. Something you will have to tackle is that your feelings won't really change. You will always love him and you will always have the hole. What you NEED to do is talk to a professional. Please see one asap. Take care of yourself anon.

Anonymous 01/10/16 (Sun) 09:07:08 No.237937

>>232470

And you were a jerk and guilt tripped someone suffering from a loss of a loved one. You can't *make* other people happy, no matter how hare you try, you just can't.