/cuteboys/ - Boypussy

homoeroticism detached from modern existentialism and cultural marxism

the old greeks and romans understood

>When my cousin bent over in front of me when we were both 13 and I suddenly felt like pulling down his shorts and fucking him

>When I saw that cute emo guy in my english class when I was 15

>When a substitute teacher kept teasing me in front of the whole class and making me embarassed but inside I was thinking "FUCK ME FUCK ME FUCK ME"

>When I realised the reason I never chased girls was because I wasn't actually interested in them, I'd just been brainwashed into thinking I was as a child

>When I noticed I salivate at the thought of having a cock in my mouth or butt

>main goal is to start a family

my main goal is to find a steady partner, that is all.

I started exploring more with boys after realizing women are terrible both in real life and online (maybe especially so online).

I just mesh a lot better with male sexuality. It's about having fun, not this weird "i want to but i dont please kiss me but dont" borderline actual rape bullshit. Guys are like "I want to do a rape roleplay" and that's the end of it. A woman wouldn't get off on having it laid out like that.

I don't think I have a hormone imbalance. I'm a strong young man. Genetics may play a factor, one of my uncles are gay and my father expressed that he was doubting his sexuality at one point, but I doubt he actually acted on it. Mental illness may play a minor role, but I doubt it. I don't have that kind of thing, only a cognitive deficit in certain areas, and depression has only really been in response to external events (puberty, restrictive parents, deaths). I have low self esteem, though. But I don't really value women that highly in my minds eye. I can still get infautated though, sure.

I would say I'm somewhat bisexual, but I'm not at all romantically attracted to women.

And as far as I remember, I've always felt that way: the first wet dream that I remember having was about me and two classmates, one girl and one boy. I was like 11 or something. And once puberty really hit I started seaching for porn of women, but the first thing that came to mind while fapping without porn were guys, when I dreamed about a relationship, it was always with another guy, etc.

It was difficult to accept. When I was 8 to 12, there was a really effeminate guy in my class. The guys bullied him, and he was friends with all the girls. I sometimes bullied him, and sometimes I tried to be his friend. Looking back on it, I probably had a crush on him, and was just really confused. We ended becoming pretty good friends, even slept at his home quite a bit. It's funny that now ten years later I almost don't remember his face, but still remember thinking that he smelled really good.

As a teen, it was even more difficult. I was in the boxing team, became a relatively tall, strongfat, hairy masculine guy. I wasn't attracted to my boxing teammates, too masculine for me, so that wasn't a problem, but whenever we had swimming classes, or just when changing before or after sport, it was a nightmare. There were a lot of cute guys, got boners all the time, and I was terrified of being found out. By then I had completely realised that I liked guys, altough I never told anyone. I'm not sure when I became "okay" with it, tho.

There was one guy I was close to. I was a pretty good student, and he wasn't, so a teacher had asked me to help him study for a test. He did really well on that test, so we continued studying together. We rarely hung out together outside of these around three hours of study each week, I'm not sure if we ever really became friends.

He was exactly my type. During these hours a of study I wanted to just kiss him and lick him all over, and stroke his hair, and fuck him gently right here in the middle of the room. And then I would go home, fap, and then imagine going on dates with him and cuddling and all that. Of course I never said anything because I'm a fucking coward.

Now I don't know what caused my orientation, but I tend to think that something is different in my brain. Might be genetic, might be a mental "illness", but illness to me implies that it could be cured, and I don't think I could be "cured".

>>232649

>When I realised the reason I never chased girls was because I wasn't actually interested in them, I'd just been brainwashed into thinking I was as a child

Pretty much this. All my friends were interested in girls and I just really wasn't, being the kind of nerd destined to browse chans I was often drawing people I like, and they were not girls. Always cute guys, and I didn't realize it for some years that what I was feeling towards these guys was a crush.

I think it is genetic, I had a great uncle that left all his cash and shit to his male lover, pissed off some of my family when he did that without any notice. I think most homosexuality is genetic, one of the by products of the imperfections of evolving sexual reproduction.

the ultra progressive (as in I mean like actual "professors" who study sexuality, not sjws going on and on about pansexuality) say childhood sexual experiences before puberty (like 7-11) determine what people's fetishes are

but Ive been pretty perverted since forever, I might say im biscum, but I really only looked at straight porn as a kid because I figured it would make the gay thoughts disappear, until I had actual wet dreams and urges, which that went on into high school pretending they were just intrusive thoughts

I probably realized when I was around 12. I've been calling myself bisexual my whole life, but I really do have a strong preference towards guys. It's especially weird for me at the moment since I currently have a girlfriend, and I much prefer bottoming. She's cool though, and helps me get off in "creative" ways, but sometimes I really do miss the dick :(

I've been attracted to men as long as I felt sexual attraction. I used to think it was normal until around 13 years old when I realized that it isn't normal at all to want to be fucked by a man and that I'm a faggot.

I remember the first time I got a boner when I was 8 or something. I was at the doctor's and he had a really handsome intern working. He put a stethoscope to my chest from under my shirt. I remember it feeling cold, but his hand feeling very warm and pleasant while looking straight at him, so it just happened. I can't even remember what he looks like anymore.

I think it's worth mentioning that even before that, I always "liked" guys. Didn't realize what it all meant until middle school. While all my friends were wacking it to regular straight porn, I tried looking for the few sparse gay videos there were, all the while crushing on some other guys and crushing very hard on some of my male teachers.

Pretty much since day one, in retrospect. As a little kid, I was always "Huh, this is interesting" when I was looking at medical textbooks with pictures of bare-chested guys, never had the same kind of interest in the ladies. It wasn't sexual e.g. popping boners at that point, more just mental "interest".

It turned sexual after puberty. First major "OK, there's something going on here" was freshman swim class. Told myself it was just crazy raging hormones at first, but it never stopped.

Right around puberty is when I really noticed. I vaguely remember having gay thoughts when I was a kid even before puberty. This may sound weird, but I remember tying up another guy with a rope as a game in elementary school to see if he could escape and finding it hot.

I started feeling hot, stuffy and flustered around really beautiful guys by the beginnings of puberty. I started looking at gay porn and imagining sucking cock. Playing basketball and being surrounded by a bunch of sweaty, fit boys seriously pushed my gay attractions into maximum overdrive.

>>232746

>First major "OK, there's something going on here" was freshman swim class

How many awkward boners did you get in front of the whole class?

>>232624

Well anon, I am not a homosexual, I am 100% straight and just like fucking feminine dudes

lol jk I am becoming more and more gay and want to fuck almost everyone on this board <3

First I just wanted to suck cock, now I have a desire to get fucked, but only if I was a girl or at least a passable trap in some cute girly clothes. I don't think I'm in the closet or being in denial, I would have no problem being gay if that was the case.

I never thought about sex or love until I was in middle school, and before that I just didn't have the capacity to comprehend sexuality. Also growing up I was kinda aware what being gay was, but it was only mentioned in a jokingly way. Never was homosexuality talked about as normal or ok, only "lol fucking queers amirite".

Starting in 6th grade all of my friends were starting to get into girls, talking about crushes and giving tips to each other on how to be smooth talkers. I didn't understand any of it because I was like "well what's so special about girls in bikinis, you can see those literally everywhere". Also acts of affection and just regular friendship were all deemed as gay, and nobody wanted to be a faggot because we liked girls, right? So not seeming gay was an extremely big conditioning thing I was exposed to as well, even though I got a rush from looking at boys in their underwear and being around handsome athletic boys. I don't know how it clicked, but I soon became aware that what I felt were gay thoughts. I spent 4 years in denial before finally accepting I was gay in junior year of high school, realizing I always felt this way.

I just turned out gay in puberty, tried to repress it and then accepted it.

gay furries

at first i was like nooo but then i embraced cock in the butt

>>232665

Haven't they done studies with identical twins that show sexuality is like 30% genetic?

I think sexuality is generally more mutable than people think, though not completely plastic. Otherwise there wouldn't be any categories.

For nearly as long as I can remember, I've been interested in boys. It was not really a sexual thing so much as just wanting to be close.

When I was in elementary school, I was a bit of a troublemaker. I was always bored due to the ease of the schoolwork, and so I was always annoying teachers, pulling pranks, doing light vandalism, etc. There was this group of older students that would round up the kids causing trouble and bring them to a teacher or other authority figure. We were supposed to listen to them, but I spent a lot of time running away from them. Anyway, once when I was in maybe 1st or 2nd grade, I was doing just that. I had a friend who decided he was going to help me hide from them, and so he directed me to stuff my body underneath the very bottom of a slide attached to the playground's main unit. From the front, you really couldn't see under it. For some reason, he decided to lie down next to me. It was a really tight spot, so we were side-by-side and pressed very close. I can remember that very clearly, and how good it felt being so close to him.

I was a bit of a loner, and I had friends, but did not spend much time with them. Throughout elementary school, I mostly kept to myself, but I had frequent fantasies about other boys, sometimes just cute ones that I never even talked to. Just things like wanting to be close, maybe to cuddle with him, perhaps get naked with him. I didn't really think about why I wanted these sorts of things, nor did I consider whether it was normal. I certainly didn't ask anyone about it.

When I was 10, my parents divorced, and my mom moved into an apartment. There, I met a boy who showed me how to suck dick, and we had lots of fun together. I got the distinct impression that this was something ALL boys that age did, because frankly every boy I tried to "experiment" with agreed to do it, at least once. I started to realize that the wonderful feeling of touching another boy's penis, of pressing our naked bodies together, and giving and feeling such pleasure, was what I had wanted for so long. By the time I was 12, I had attempted to and succeeded in getting into the pants of every boy younger than myself that I was able to get alone with for a few minutes. With some boys, it happened only once, with others it happened many times. One in particular - who was two years younger than me - I became very attached to. As much as it is possible for a 12 year-old boy to fall in love, I certainly did. I was heartbroken and very angry when he refused my advances the last time I saw him before he moved away. It did not end well.

As I went to junior high and then into high school, I tried to repress my feelings. Frankly, my attraction to boys my age had hit a wall around the ten-years-old area, and been left behind while I continued to grow older. I understood the concept of a pedophile, and considered myself to be one. Back in the 90's, there was no huge threat of pedophiles, but SHIT everyone was saying how horrible it was to be gay. That was fine, because I did not think of myself as being gay, seeing how I only liked little kids. I still thought it was going to be a phase I would grow out of, and so I attempted to make friends with girls. A few times, I had something of a crush, but it was platonic - I had no sexual desires toward her. I never tried, and I wasn't trying to do anything with other boys, either, haunted by what had happened with the other boy back when I was 12.

>>232834

cont.

Around high school, my mother got a computer with fast internet, and no parental restrictions. (unlike my father who had shitty dialup and set the damn thing up so I couldn't access anything worse than that which would be considered appropriate for a preschooler). Naturally, I found lots of porn; you could find literally anything back then: straight, gay, mixed, bestiality, hentai, child porn, you name it. I started reading shota fanfictions and looking at images, but there wasn't much of its. However, there was shitloads of yaoi, so I spent a lot of time with that. I realized that I liked the idea of such a relationship - even an adult one, provided we were friends already.

When I was 15, I met a guy online who was several years older than me. We became friends, traded stories and anime porn, and just generally talked about stuff. I'd never had a close relationship like that, someone that I felt that strongly about. We talked about my feelings one night, and after several hours, I came to realize the truth. I admitted I was gay, and that it wasn't going to change, it wasn't just about little boys, either. That was very difficult, because everyone I knew at the time, friends and family, had at one point or another, mentioned being gay as being the most horrible thing ever.

In my senior year of high school, I got into theater, and I met a lot of nice people in the Drama club who were okay with me. I eventually came out to this one girl who was constantly trying to get with me, and she of course told EVERYONE else. They didn't mind that I was gay (even though hardly anyone believed me at first) and accepted it entirely. That helped a lot. I started to realize that I could be gay and have a fairly normal life, without worrying about losing all my friends and facing the world alone, that it wasn't some kind of terrible evil that everyone universally hated and rejected.

So when did I first realize I was gay? There wasn't really any clearly defining moment - it was a process that lasted for a decade. I admitted it to myself when I was 15, so I guess you could say then, but I'd already known for so long, I just couldn't put a description on it or didn't want to believe it.

>>232834

>>232835

This isn't your personal blog.

>>232756

Too many, anon. Too many. :')

>>232824

The chances of identical twins both being gay is about a third, yes, but it's a bit deeper than genetics. Most of the more recent theories hypothesize that sexuality is epigenetic. In the case of twins, both have the same DNA, but in the straight twin, a certain segment of DNA (I'll call it the 'gay gene' despite this being a simplification) is deactivated through a process called imprinting while in the gay twin, the 'gay gene' remains activated. It's unclear why this happens. Perhaps one twin gets more exposure to a chemical in utero that the other doesn't.

The 'gay gene' probably codes for estrogen sensitivity, which is why gay men have, on average, more feminine brain structures than straight men.

I was a puritan little shit until after highschool and refused to even look at gay stuff so I'd never have the chance to like it. Eventually I slipped and here I am.

Kind of ashamed to admit it, but I think like >>232779 it happened with furry porn too. I blame Narse for making me gay.

>>232858

I have a really hard time believing that homosexuality could possible have anything to do with genetics. If that's the case, then why is there so much grey area between homosexual and not homosexual? Are pedophilia and foot fetishes and all the other different sexual nuances also caused by genetics, then? If that were true, it wouldn't explain why sexuality is so massively shaped by the culture in which an individual lives. Surely it's possible for someone to grow attracted to men when they were once only attracted to women, and the other way around.

i just thought i was asexual for a long time until i accidentally went to /hm/

>>232871

in short, it's likely a very complicated mix of genetics and social factors, just like every other human behavioral trait. this is made even more confusing because sexuality can change over time, more so in women but also in men to a smaller extent.

your dick likes what it likes basically, so don't worry so much about it.

I started reading shonen ai and gender bender manga out of curiosity. At first I was like: I'm straight but I still wanna read this because it's so cute. Slow progressive fall into blissful penis insanity. Skip ahead to today I identify 100% as homosexual and regularly jack it to Yaoi hentai with traps and hardcore gay porn

A guy in my class in fourth grade talked me into feeling him up and showing each other our dicks during a couple sleepovers. Fapped to the memories a bunch of times and soon found myself looking up twink porn regularly. I still wish either of us had the nerve to take it further; he was big for his age and had nice foreskin.

>>232878

>your dick likes what it likes basically, so don't worry so much about it

Yeah, let's just ignore the entire science of psychology, there's no point in trying to figure out why the mind does what it does, none of that is important.

>>232883

Alright, I'll one-up you. When I was in kindergarten a friend and I got into trouble for showing each other our penises on the playground. We continued to do it on occasion in class.

I consider myself right now bi but not romantically attracted to men.

It probably started with me and my cousin playing around with each other when we were about 8 or 9. We'd whip out our dicks and stroke each other off. He'd sit on top of me and we'd rub em against each other. Not even really sure why we did all this, we were just experimenting and having fun, we honestly never really thought it was that weird. We knew it was unspoken taboo to do it though obviously since we'd still be wary of our families catching us.

Later on, I had a friend I met in elementary school who, going into middle school, had a lot of feminine features. He always wore silky sweat pants and had an ass I just couldn't ignore. Not to mention he was incredibly flexible and constantly showed off his ability to stretch with yoga. I'd later go on after high school to make my advances on him and to this day we still fuck every now and again.

>>232834

>>232940

Seems to me that little boys regardless of orientation like giving and receiving oral sex from other little boys.

>>232871

I tend to agree with this. I became bissexual from long term accidental exposure to gay porn on the internet.

mlp porn definitely

:(

and i still prefer it over normal porn

>>232638

'the old greeks' used to have preteen sexslave boys and showed them around

>>232666

>childhood sexual experiences before puberty (like 7-11) determine what people's fetishes are

>got molested by sister

>played doctor with best male friend

future's looking bright

>>232871

If it had nothing to do with biology, the rate of homosexuality wouldn't be an order of magnitude higher (30%) when comparing two twins vs. two members of the general population (~3-5%).

>why is there so much grey area between homosexual and not homosexual?

Because binary thinking is verboten according to society's current standards (or lack thereof) of morality and we've been trained to see shades of gray when the range for gray is nonexistent or a lot narrower than people think.

>>232903

Psychology is not neuroscience.

I would be hesitant to call psych a science at all if it wasn't for cognitive/behavioral and evolutionary.

>>232666

>>232958

>only prepubescent sexual experience was rubbing myself to Princess Leia in Return of the Jedi

>still turned out bi

Well then

>>232959

Honestly I tend to think that most people are bi, male and female.

>>232964

probably except for the cute guy you have a crush on, he's always straight ;_;

My cousin and I had sex from around 5-17. We never fucked each other in the ass, but we did blow each other and take each others cum shots.

>>232957

I think anon's statement still somewhat applies.

My earliest sexual memory was my Aunty, a year younger than me thanks to Grandpa getting around a lot, molesting me while the people who were supposed to be watching us had sex upstairs. I didn't quite know what was happening.

As for what led to gayness, my older friends picked on me for being girly, we found porn, I was more interested in the dicks than the girls since the adult male cocks were way bigger than mine. I didn't do anything about it though.

In the end I turned out bi, but super submissive to my sexual partners.

My earliest sexual memory was my Aunty, a year younger than me thanks to Grandpa getting around a lot, molesting me while the people who were supposed to be watching us had sex upstairs. I didn't quite know what was happening.

As for what led to gayness, my older friends picked on me for being girly, we found porn magazines in the bush, I was more interested in the dicks than the girls since the adult male cocks were way bigger than mine. I didn't do anything about it though.

In the end I turned out bi, but super submissive to my sexual partners.

>>233009

>>233008

Oh come on, what did your aunty do and was she hot?

>>233031

She was cute but we were young anyway, and she was younger than me by a year.

As for what she did she just forced me to kiss her and fondle her, but it was really awkward.

>>233031

>using the term molestation

>asking if she was hot

pretty sure that guy isn't very comfortable with talking about that memory in that way

>>232962

>>232958

I said fetishes, not the people you are sexually attracted to

the cause of sexual orientation degenerates into "its a multitude of possible factors"

hypersexuality and perversion

epigenetic

genetic

pre-natal stress

history of abuse

history of gender non-conforming behavior

fags are the exception to the rule

so all our causes for our faggotry are exceptions to the rule anyhow

>>233040

Eh, I'm not quite traumatized, but it is an awkward memory, wasn't pleasant, if I'd known more about what I was doing it'd have been better I think, probably.

>>232968

Its a sliding scale. I think the Kinsey scale is pretty accurate TBH.

>>232959

>Because binary thinking is verboten according to society's current standards (or lack thereof) of morality and we've been trained to see shades of gray when the range for gray is nonexistent or a lot narrower than people think.

That's the opposite of the truth, anon.

I realised I was bi a long time ago as a kid playing halo 3 on live but thought I was just being stupid and denied it. Like 6 years later I realized I was falling in love with some irish guy I knew via the net. We would flirt and shit in a public chat joking around to annoy people and I can quote myself saying he is the only man I would fuck well before I realized I actually had feelings for him. He had them for me as well but found a boyfriend before I realized I wanted his dick. (Probably for the better, I couldnt handle a long distance the size of the atlantic)

After that it was just comming to terms with myself.

Well, I know that when I was a kid, I was fascinated with seeing both boys and girls naked, but I'm not sure if that's something all kids think about or what.

When puberty hit, I found myself attracted to just girls. On the other hand, I practically hated cute guys because I was a bitter loser and was envious of them for being attractive and likeable.

That continued until I got to be about 16 or 17, after which I suddenly started finding myself attracted to guys as well as girls. At first it was just emo/scene guys (or what was left of them by 2009), but as time went on I started liking guys that were slightly less feminine. Of course, me being me, I never even tried to make friends with any of the guys I liked.

I'm not sure if my attraction to guys was something innate that just suddenly came up, if it stemmed from desperation and a lack of relationships, or if my envy had gotten to the point where my feelings started getting mixed up and suddenly they were hot. I know that when I first started having daydreams about cute guys, they were all about me dominating and torturing them with almost no intimacy, so it might just have stemmed from me wanting to have power over other guys.

Nowadays, though, I can imagine being in a loving relationship with a guy, so I don't really know or care what caused it.

I only entertained ideas of being bisexual after finding this board (3, 4 months ago?) Because before that, I just had a mild, very passive interest in crossdressing.

For now, I'm a 2 on the Kinsey scale. For a while cuteboys only appealed to me because they looked like girls, and its still kinda difficult to watch most gay porn. But today I caught myself saying "Oh my god he's so big" under my breath as I came.

I want to know what it feels like to fuck a (cute, but not necessarily feminine) guy in the ass.

Gay? Hell yeah.

Worth it? I do not know.

Cause? Who the hell gives a fuck?

>>233573

Allah cares, every time a man mounts another man the throne of God shakes!

>>233573

German cocks are the most beautiful on the planet… I want to know what it feels like to have one entering me… A hard, throbbing cock pushing into me as fast and as deep as it wants. Using my ass like a toy for pleasure… I'm not in control, all I can do is bend over and take it.

In fact all of you are bisexuals guys, effectively Freud did works on sexuality mind and these works proved psychism is by default bisexual, David Kirsley had gone further than any psy he said Homesexuality and Heterosexuality are against nature because the only thought mode of human is bisexual, some studies on the subject reveals at least 40% men had sexual relationship with another man in his life. Don't worry CQFD https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexuality

Read a lot of webcomics as a kid and in my early teens. Eventually I ended up reading this furry comic with a lot of gay characters. That lead to gay furry porn, and that lead to normal gay porn. Around 18-19 I realized that 95% of the porn I watched was gay.

>>235408

thats a 60% majority straights and total faggots

>>232624

When I was 12 I started anal play. At this time I didn't even know how to masturbate. I used carrots and stuff that made me cum almost instantly.

I tried to convince myself I like guys and that I am only attracted to the sensation of anal, but I realised my type is the small twink type. Unfortunately, I also fall into this category and twinks usually want masculine guys

>>232861

Furry here too. Wanna yiff? :3

>>232624

this op

>>232666

>>232779

I had bi tendencies as a kid. I liked to pretend I was a girl stuffing my tshirt with teddies and walking on tiptoes pretending I was wearing heels which ceased by the age of 6. Then when we got the internet and I started fapping I was fapping like 4 times a day from the age of 14-17 but got bored of straight porn, went onto sfur, got bored of that, went onto gfur and loved it. I had always been interested in anal cause I have a butt and it went from gfur to traps/sissy and now I'm stuck in this circle of

>tfw too manly to trap

>tfw no bf

tl;dr internet turned me gay lol

I'm still in denial.

Odd childhood experimentation that equated to simulating breast groping in the dark of a closet aside, I think I came to terms with the idea about the same time that I came to terms with homosexuality and bisexuality in general, which was when I was about 12.

It wasn't anything very shocking or world changing, though. I quite literally just sat around thinking about sexuality as a whole for a while, one thing led to another, and I figured out what I am and am not attracted to just like that. It was pretty simple and easy for me.

I've always had homoerotic fantasies, but I've rarely met an actual irl boy I'd sleep with. Maybe it's because I don't hang around gay guys and the vast majority of straight men just seem so gross.

Frankly I'm still confused about my sexuality. My default position is straight. I'm automatically attracted to women and have a "heterosexual gaze". But I get these periods when all I think about is getting my holes stuffed by cock.

Maybe it's hormone fluctuation?

I waited. The lights of the fag bar above me blinked and sparked out of the air. There were faggots in there. I didn't see them, but had known about them for years years. My warnings about Jesus were not listened to, and it was too late, far too late now, anyways

I had been a queer basher for fourteen years. When I was young I watched the fag parade and said to my dad "I want to fuck up those degenerates, daddy"

Dad said "No! You will BE BUTT RAPE BY FAGS!"

There was a time when I believed him. Then as I got older I stopppded. But now, waiting outside the fag bar, I knew buttrape could happen

"This is /pol/" the radio crackered. "You must fight the degenerates!"

So I gotted my home-made pipe bombs and blow up the wall

"HE IS GOING TO KILL US" said the fags

"I will shoot at him" said a sissyboy, and he fired the jizz cannon. I shotted at him and tried to blew him up. But then I was tackled from behind and was trapped under a pile of /cuteboys/ and unable to kill

"No! I must kill the degenerates" I shouted

The radio said "No, John. You are the degenerates"

And then I was a faggot.

>>237714

>heterosexual gaze

What is that?

>>232624

Recently I watched a video of some touhou cosplayer giving head to a guy, and have been masturbating imagining myself in the cosplayer place since then. Now I'm here. I don't what I'm doing with my life.

>>237764

link to video?

>gays guy up here are honestly awful (Degenerates, childlike, SJWs, etc)

I know this feel all too well. The only gay people I've spoken with who aren't complete crazies have been on the internet, and even then it's sort of hit or misss.

>>237774

> The only gay people I've spoken with who aren't complete crazies have been on the internet

iktf bro I'm the same I've spoken to loads and loads of great guys on the internet but the ones round here are shit tier

>>237774

>>237776

Same situation here. But Brazil is a very very big country, internet relationships here are very complicated.

The worst part is to be in love with a straight guy. It's messed up.

>>237778

I've hit a new level of pathetic I fell in love with a guy in another country. We talk a lot and hes drop dead gorgeous and an amazing person. I'm a hopeless romantic

>>237778

>The worst part is to be in love with a straight guy

All those feels, I can't handle them.

>>237779

Trust me, it's much worse when you're actually friends with the person. It's awful being around them all the time and not being able to do anything about your attraction.

>>237779

Try falling in love with a straight guy over the internet.

>>237784

yeah I can imagine thats pure hell

>>237788

kek that is rough.

>>237794

I used to go to this manga meetup thing, but had to stop because I fell in love with a guy there. He had such a cute voice and could talk for hours about pre-dreadnought steam warships.

I keep him at arm's length online, it's safer that way.

>>237797

You should show him how ineffective his depth charges are against your submarine.

>>237794

>yeah I can imagine thats pure hell

He's such a perfect feminine Aryan qt. It's such a shame that he has a girlfriend.

>>237768

Search for "momiji cosplay blowjob" on Google.

>>237750

I have an ingrained tendency to check girls out, judge their attractiveness etc.

I don't have that with guys. If I'm on the metro I won't notice guys and think how attractive they are, something I automatically do with women. Finding women attractive is more hardwired, where as my attraction to men is more about private, specific fantasies that I'd probably never act on.

I don't know if that just makes me repressed but there it is.

>>237962

I don't do that with anybody. I've always found it disgustingly decadent when people constantly think about people's attractiveness. I'm especially repulsed when they judge a person on a numeric scale, as if the entirety of their appearance can be objectively calculated into a single digit.

>>237962

Same thing. Checking out ladies is natural but I somehow don't checkout men but become attracted anyway.

>>232940

I'd probably let him suck my dick too tbqh

>>237832

pull a Cosby ;)

>>238088

Not sure exactly if its the same thing with gays and with trans/girls but I'm trans and like before I took hormones I would check out girls a lot. But after being on estrogen I don't really do it that much and I like guys much more, but like with liking guys it's not the same like "look at muscles, get erection" its like a different feeling less visually focused. I think that's the general difference between like attraction for maleness and attraction for femaleness; with females one is attracted to their body more and with males one is attracted to their like aura/personality more. But I think like traps and fembois and such confuse that idea but basically they're more toward the female end in terms of how people are attracted to them. Probably doesn't always apply but that's my 0.02 USD.

>>238146

Fuck no. I don't even like him in a very sexual way. I want to fuck him, sure, but more than that I want him to feel the same way about me as I do about him. It would just feel awful if it isn't consensual. We have a good friendship, anyway, and if I betray him like that then I wouldn't even have that anymore.

I just wish I could be ignorant of my homosexual side again. Things were better when I thought myself 100% straight.

The boy pussy is too good though.

It started a few years ago. Don't remember if I told the story here. A streamer I was watching randomly showed this old flaming music video with both men and women. One of the men was dressed flaming, but I was attracted to him. I went to bed thinking of him all night, excited because it was my first time feeling homoerotic feelings.

I eventually forgot about it, until years later I had money and a car. I started googling for sex parties and shit. I mistakenly found a nearby gay bathhouse. Thinking of that old music video, I went in and saw a bunch of men. I was too scared to do anything, but eventually I started experimenting.

>>238059

I agree with this. I don't see people in a 10 point scale. They are either completely attractive, kind of attractive, or not attractive at all.

When I was 12 and I did the 69 with one of my friends.

Those were the times.

>>232624

Workout, find boypussy, furiously fuck it? Stop being casual.

I started out in life 100% straight, but after puberty I became bicurious. All my relationships were with girls though. I didn't date a guy until college, and now i'm 100% gay and I love fucking boy butt like you wouldn't believe. For me it was a really long process and I'm still coming to terms with it. I definitely remember finding girls attractive in my teenage years and enjoying sex with them. I really don't know why I changed, but I just had a enough experiences eventually to know I was happier with guys. Like, a lot happier.

I had a qt asian classmate as a shota fuckbuddy. We used to go to his house after school because his parents worked late so we had a few hours to watch his dads porn. And after a few times it went from watching, to touching, to not even needing the porno anymore… then we just played vidya innocently for the rest of the day when his parents came home. This went on for a few years, but then puberty hit and he got interested in girls. I was left with an insatiable homolust…

Id consider myself bi, but weakly. I had crushes on girls as a kid, and I would say I'm romantically and aesthetically attracted to women, but sexually its no contest. I like men and traps.

I think my first realization was being about 10 and having a close guy friend try to kiss me. I was flustered and embarrassed. I pushed him off me and ran away, but a part of me wished I hadn't.

Several years later, in high school, I met a guy in my Spanish class who I fell for hard. I was the shy emofag. He was a really cute skater guy with long hair and beautiful blue eyes. I would catch myself stealing glances at him from across the room. He noticed and started smiling back. Shortly after he approached me and eventually we became friends. I would always linger a bit when we hugged because I loved the way he smelled. We dated for a while, which was my first real gay experience.

We broke up and I started dating a girl, but I was never attracted as strongly to the women I dated after him. Still, I was kind of in denial and thought it was just a phase, which was some top tier self deception because I pretty much exclusively found myself masturbating to yaoi, trap, futa, etc.

When I was 18 I came out as MtF. I dated some other people, including an LTR with a bi girl. It was during that relationship that I found out I'm not really into pussy. I craved cock constantly and when we had sex I had to imagine I was doing it with a guy or another mtf to get off. Eventually I broke up with her because she was emotionally manipulative.

But it wasn't until I started dating another mtf a couple years ago that I found out what I was really missing out on sexually. And since then it's only become more intense. I started coming to terms with the idea of being attracted to all kinds of men. Years of social conditioning and fear kept me from admitting it. I still tend to prefer pretty feminine guys, but I'm pretty confident I'm (mostly) gay.

I don't know why I'm this way. Maybe its genetic. Maybe its because I was always a quiet, sensitive nerd and I spent a lot of time in books and online and I was exposed to a lot of gay porn pretty early. I don't really think about it much.

>>239791

Biscum.

I'm definitely prison gay, but I don't care. I know just how easily I could get some cock if I wasn't a coward, which is a lot better than girls and their bullshit.

>>239796

A bit harsh

>>239835

>The earliest sign for me was that me and another boy showed each other our dicks when we were really small, but I didn't really feel any kind of way about it at the time, after that I was exclusively attracted to females, then I really got into dicks when I discovered porn.

Oh hey, it's me. How you doin, me?

Seriously, though, the difference is that I'm no longer really attracted to women at all. I'm turned on by some of them, but I can't picture myself actually having sex with one, let alone be in a relationship with one. That thought just feels unnatural.

>>232624

honestly i've always been open minded about sexuality but i never felt attracted to guys IRL, probably because i never met an effeminate guy, they were all too manly and straight. but then i saw femboys online and i thought "damn that's hot"

>>233635

Sounds like a glorified Sybian vibrator to me. And to think Allah even made it run off homosexual energy…very lewd.

>>233638

Are they now? Too bad you're in britain. Contrary to the Brit women, the Brit fags seem to be quite cute.

Well anyways I first *really* started to notice when I had a crush on a boy I knew.

I had kind of homosexual feelings from time to time before, but nothing that persistant.

>>232624

>>232624

I love cuteboys because they look feminine. I don't even consider myself gay or by, because trap tier cuteboys are such a rare exception, it's not gay to me. I'm attracted to cute smooth juicy ass / thighs, flat belly and chest. Traits shared by bottom heavy young girls at the peak of virility.

>>232949

Many twin studies actually prove that it has nothing at all to do with biology.

http://www.redflagnews.com/headlines/identical-twin-studies-prove-homosexuality-is-not-genetic

>>237962

Trap tier cute boys are an anomaly, not something you regularly see. Only 1 in 10,000,000 has an ass and thighs as hot as assbro. Ordinary males do nothing for me.

>get into furfaggotry young

>slowly progress from mtf-tier traps to shota to cute boys

>end up with cute brown internet bf

I'm fairly sure that's how it happened, see also >>>/furry/480705

>>232624

i remember being in high-school in my junior year, there was this Filipino guy i was friends with and we sat next to each-other in 8th period. i would every now and then fantasize about him, but i just rationalized it as him having a cute figure or a cute face. well fast forward a few years later and im still fantasizing about him, we're both 23 now and he's still fuckably cute (the kind of cute that makes you want to jump him and start sucking) it was at that point in time that i came to think "ya know, i might be gay" so i decided to do a test. look at picture of vagina, not even a tingle, look at picture of penis, get erction. look at straight porn, find that i imagine myself in the girl's position getting fucked. but i didn't find the guy attractive (it was one of those porns with the big black dude with the perpetual look of teeth showing anger on his face. the look meant solely to show you his grill 24/7. these guys are chosen for their dicks not their looks, after all, straight guys are looking at the girl), so i looked at some gay porn (in gay porn you have to worry about how the guys look, after all, that's who the guys will be looking at) and i find the guys attractive, many of whom i would let bend me over and take me to frisko. so that's how i found out that i was gay.

>>232624

I was molested by my cousin when I was 4.

When I realized how horny it made me whenever the guy talked in porn.

>>232624

The gay stuff just kind of slipped in as my masturbatory habits became more and more depraved. Haven't ever felt romantic love towards anyone, so it's purely lust driven.

>>238401

In my early teens I was fucking three of my friends at the same time. None of us really knew what we were doing, but I still look back on it fondly. I haven't had any sexual experiences since… I guess I can theoretically claim not to be a kissless virgin because I kissed one of my friends and penetrated another in the ass back then.

>>250690

kinda gay tbh

When I got towards the end of highschool and realized I never developed feelings for any girl I ever met.

I originally just tried to be normal, tried going out with and kissing a girl, felt nothing. fingered a girl when we were both drunk and felt nothing. I got the same amount of enjoyment from the "handjob" as if I was just grinding on the couch.

I've got a date with a /cuteboy/ this week and am more excited than I have ever been to go out with a girl.

>>232956

>>232956

You're not alone