Hey guys.
I've always thought of myself as straight.
After questioning myself many times, even now i know that i am 100% NOT attracted to males or masculinity.
However i love traps. I quickly dismissed it as simply loving cute things.
I started reading trap hentai, i dismissed it as loving feminine attributes.
It got worse and worse, and i started buying dildoes for myself. I started getting aroused by the thought of being fucked silly and called a slut for loving forceful fucks.
Eventually i found a manga like this: http://g.e-hentai.org/g/482888/4e8e018ee5/
imagining myself in the position of that trap gave me the biggest orgasm ive ever had.
So i found out i was into being a submissive bottom.
Despite everything though, i still feel like im straight. Even though i want to be pounded in the ass, called a slut, used like a piece of meat, i have no interest in men. But if the person abusing me like that was a man, i dont think id mind in the heat of the moment.
Im so conflicted guys. I only found this place yesterday and i dont know if i'd go as far as crossdressing IRL etc (not that i could pull it off since i lift, tfw not skinny and cute)