I recently realised what I am after seeing each girl I love be younger than the last. my first girlfriend, when I was 16 was 3 years younger than me, my second when I was 20 was 5 years younger and not too long ago when I was 25 I fell for a girl that was 10 years younger than myself, a relationship that never even got off the ground even though we both felt the same, simply because of our absolute fear of the stigma.
I live in a world where people like myself are forced to live in fear and anonimity and it makes me sick!
In my country you can be locked away for ten years simply for being in possesion of lolicon images! How is that just? How is that law? Imagine a lonely person who can't express his sexuality, never harming a soul in his life getting chucked in an overcrowded prison for 10 years because some nosy neighbor saw his computer screen through a gap in the curtains.
Worse, imagine that lonely person had actual cp!
I can't take this fear anymore, this knowledge that I'm doomed to a life of secret one sided love. I can't do anything about it, I can't get any help and I can't risk having any material that could ease my pain.
I'm done.
Goodbye.