/death/ - seppuku and destiny

Everyone clinges to be eternal, but what they actually wish for is a quality eternal youth.
Imagine being handicapped and having to live forever like a walking vegetable. Doesn't sound like a quality life.

I find it terrible that africans and similar beings under the same conditions would even remotely fear death rather than fear life. It's sane and human to fear for your survival like every breathing animal and insect, but an intellectual person's fear relies in how much he has to lose if he dies. Conscience, self-awareness, feeling cheated at your birth, thinking about your future, the attempts of living a quality experience, those are some of the qualities of a human.

Even a chaffinch/titmouse bird stabs itself with it's claw if it's held in a cage for too long, staying in a cage and doing nothing, not being able to fly is hell in itself. It's weirdly shallow how convicts are fine with not killing themselves in maximum security prisons, when people should have standards and ambitions more than any living being on this planet. USA prisons are usually handled in a really superficial way almost like high-school recess or old people's homes, still giving everyone the feel of wanting to be alive and being able to interact, rather than the opposite; a lonely vegetable forgotten forever, which can't even bang it's head on the wall if it wanted to.

I'd feel cheated and hopeless if I was born with handicaps such as no walking and no learning capabilities and at the same time if i was not even allowed free reign over my own life. Like life itself decided to play a cruel joke on my destiny by incapacitating any potential I had as a human being and everyone telling me to be fine with it. I'd feel forced, even possessed to rebel against life and give back it's fake gift. Once anyone gives me something, I have free reign to do anything I desire for my own personal sake, and my own life is something nobody should ever command me what to do with it, not even my basic instinct of survival.