>>205Yeah I did that pic and I think I did the greyscale one you're referring to as well.
>you are crazyYup, I talk to a therapist weekly now and 99% of what we discuss has to do with insecurities surrounding my art.
>is pretty damn advanced both in relation to your age and years studying seriouslyWell I don't want to be just "good for my age", I want to be genuinely GOOD. Period. Which I'm not. I can't draw well and I can't design for shit and still struggle with basic things like perspective or painting without reference. I think my lighting/values are decent but that's about it. And man I've been doing this "seriously" for a while now, maybe like 6 years or so? (with some breaks in the middle at various points, most notably one 8 month period). Hell, Whit Brachna did in 2 years more than what I did in 6. But I'm still nowhere near his or Jaime's level when they were my age. And if I'm nowhere near Jaime, and Jaime isn't at Sargent level, then how can I ever expect to surpass Sargent or other old masters? Hell, I can't even paint digitally well, so I dunno how I will ever pull off giant oil masterpieces when I'm older.
I never attended Watts btw, not enrolled that is. A few years ago I attended a week long workshop thing where basically I got to try out a single session of each class they offer, and then at night do a life drawing session. So it was an intensive week, but only a week. I did learn things though, and have studied the Reilly method a bit on my own as well (I did it before it was cool and known hehe), though these days my opinions are shifting and feel what they teach is a little too formulaic despite what they claim about flexibility.
About your comment on goals and creative work, that's something I am struggling with a ton actually. I don't know what my goals are really. I sort know what I like and don;t like, but it's not enough to fully say "THIS DIRECTION is where I wanna go". I feel incredibly lost. I don't even know WHAT I want to paint. I actually do have some polished stuff though it is still locked under NDA so on my site is under password protection and you can't see it. I never really bother fully rendering my own images though, I just get bored partway through and want to move to the next thing. Once I can see the general composition and mood in the thumbnail I lose interest in a piece. I also get frustrated with myself that I use rendering on pro work as a solution to an image rather than a more elegant one or something that really gets to the base issue of an image. I'd be happy if I could do it like you say and get sort of the same level as the portrait studies, but the difference is the studies have the info in front of me, and the creative work I ned to invent the info so they take longer and come out less clear. I've debated going more the route of like colour scripts or something, so that I can get a fulltime position and also not have to render as much, but my skills are a bit far off from that I think…though Sam Nielson told me like a week ago my skills are there, just my portfolio is too broad (I showed him a ton of sketches and finished pro work that's not publicly shown yet).
Sorry for cluttering the thread with text btw.