No.6304
IT IS TIME FOR A NEW THREAD AND A NEW OPPORTUNITY TO DO OUR BEST
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE AND ENJOY THE REST OF THE WEEKEND!
No.6306
Ohio.I didn't sleep well, woke up in the middle of the night with a headache.took some cough syrup to go back to bed but still didn't get much sleep. do your best everywan!
No.6308
>>6305
>tfw you get Sif to 5% health and watch him for a minute before you kill him
Feels good man
(????????????) No.6309
>>6307
Shouldn't you be masturbating to some anime?
I WILL NOT BE RUDE.
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No.6310
OH HI OH OHIO
I HAD A DELICIOUS RAMEN BOWL FOR LUNCH AND DON'T HAVE TO WORK AGAIN TILL NEXT WEDNESDAY
MANY VIDEO GAMES WILL BE TAKING PLACE
MAKE SURE TO KEEP DOING YOUR BEST AND ENJOYING WHAT YOU HAVE
No.6311
ALSO TSF IS WORST UMARU BTW TBH
I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANY PICTURES OF HER SAVED
No.6312
>>6311
TSF is a worst. Hamster a best
No.6313
>>6311
>>6312
I'm surrounded by homosexuals
No.6314
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>>6312
Kirie best tbh but hamster isn't bad. You are, of course, 100% correct on TSF being worst.
No.6315
>>6309
Can you not be rude?
No.6316
No.6318
>>6316
ABSOLUTELY
S A V A G E
A
V
A
G
E
No.6319
My brother brought his gf over again. Its almost every weekend now, still haven't met her but don't really want to.I'm stuck in my room since I'm an autistic spaz that can't handle talking to people in my own house.I guess I'm going to drink myself to sleep early tonight.
No.6320
>>6319
I can relate. I always hated talking to my siblings' SOs. She probably won't mind if you avoid her, but it would be good practice to try introducing yourself.
No.6321
>>6320
>>6319
I've spoken like sub-100 words to my sisters boyfriend and he used to live in the same house as me for a couple months and has a kid with her. You dont really need to say anything but hello after the initial introduction unless your sibling sucks and tries to make you become friends or something.
No.6322
>>6321
>>6320
>>6319
>tfw your brothers girlfriend is so incredibly stupid like holy shit
>and so god damn annoying
>literally everyone in the family tells him she's dumb and a bad girlfriend because of how greedy and self-centered and awful she is
>tfw he doesn't give a fuck and lets her guilt him into stupid shit and spending what little money he has on her
No.6323
Ohio minna.I think I am going to maybe try to go to school tomorrow.Do your best everyone.
>>6320
>>6321
>>6322
so all siblings SO's are going to be people I hate? Great can't wait to avoid family more than I do now.Wait does that mean you are an underage uncle brat?
No.6324
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>>6323
Not all of them. My brother just got a shit one this time around. I was pleasantly acquainted with a couple of his others in the past tbh.
>maybe
>try
THAT'S NOT HOW YOU DO YOUR BEST. YOU'RE DEFINITELY GOING TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW, WITHOUT A DOUBT.
No.6325
>>6323
I don't really hate the guy, actually I think he's a decent dude. I don't think he has any common sense though. I just am not friends with him or anything
>wait does that mean you're an underaged uncle
No. I'm 18 and the kid was born after I turned 18.
No.6326
>>6324
I mean I'll try but Its still hard to leave my room, let alone the house.I really just want to drop out but also I don't.
>>6325
>>6324
I hope they they are decent.She sounds ok from what my mom has said, but still I doubt any of them will like me.Its best if I just avoid any of them.
No.6327
>>6326
Why would they dislike you? They might pity you, but it's pretty uncommon for most people to dislike each other to the point of visible hostility.
No.6328
>>6327
Is it really that uncommon? Most people don't like me or just try to pretend I don't exist.Especially grills, so I its best if I don't meet them, I don't want them to hate my sibling because of me.
No.6329
>>6326
>try
STOP IT
NO TRYING
TELL YOURSELF YOU'RE GONNA DO IT
AND THEN FUCKIN DO IT
>>6328
AND STOP BEING SO HARD ON YOURSELF. YET AGAIN.
No.6330
>>6326
>>6329
cute wans tbh
No.6331
>>6329
I tell myself I am going to do a lot of things, but I have no motivation or energy for it. I honestly can't think hard or move much, I don't know why.The only things I can seemingly do is sperg out and sleep.I will try to go, that is honestly the best I can do right now.
I wish I can stop being hard on myself, but its ingrained in me now.I am trying to stop but its hard to change your entire outlook, you know.I just haven't found a way to stop it or prove that I'm not being too hard.I honestly think I am not being too hard, but too light on myself.
No.6332
>>6331
It sounds like you may actually be clinically depressed. Get on SSRIs and actually try them out. A lot of older ones have generics now so they shouldn't be expensive.
No.6333
>>6332
Maybe.I don't really have a reason to be, but every online test says I am but those aren't really accurate.I mean I have thought about going, but I don't know if going and getting drugs will really accomplish anything.And I don't have the money to get drugs even if the therapy part is free.I just don't know.
No.6334
Don't read my post, depressed dude
I JUST GOT HUGGED AS SOON AS I CAME INTO WORK, SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR PERMISSION, WHAT THE FUCK, I HATE THIS, I'M QUITTING MY JOB AND REAL LIFE. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO SO I JUST STOOD THERE GENUINELY DUMBFOUNDED FOR A WHILE, AND IN ORDER TO SAVE MYSELF FROM HUMILTY, I EXAGGERATED AND STOOD THERE GOT EXTRA LONG TO MAKE HER THINK I WAS JUST JOKING AROUND. LITERALLY FUCK THIS WHAT THE FUCK, I FELT AND STILL FEEL LIKE VOMITING
No.6335
>>6334
Time to report her to HR for sexual harassment.
No.6336
>>6333
>I don't know if going and getting drugs will really accomplish anything
Neither do I, but it's much more likely to have a positive outcome than doing nothing.
I've asked this before, and I doubt I'll get a concrete answer, but is there a reason you don't want to seek help from your parents?
No.6337
>>6334
too bad I read it.I would say congrats but I feel like it wasn't pleasant for you so sorry that happened?If I read that a year ago I would be a little jealous, but I no longer care anymore, I have given up on stuff like that.
No.6338
>>6335
No that's mean and she's not mean.
I haven't stopped sweating since and I feel just really sad in a way, and it gets worse the more I think about it, but it keeps getting harder to think about something else
No.6339
>>6336
I guess. I'll think about it I guess.
>help from parents
Well its mostly because I am an autistic spaz and hate talking about myself and problems to people.I really don't want anyone to know I am a faggot.And my family isn't really open about problems, we keep to ourselves for better or worse. I doubt that my parents would even accept it.They would just say the same responses like, just cheer up, why are you even sad about,etc..They aren't supportive people I guess.Its best if I do anything to do it on my own.Does that make sense?
No.6340
>>6338
I was just joking tbh. I can understand why you'd be bugged out over it though,
No.6341
>>6340
I dunno why people dream of social interaction and intimacy and hugs and stuff when it's not unlikely they would slightly freak out like me
No.6342
>>6341
Well they would freak out a bit maybe but I don't think most people are quite as averse to it as you. Not that there's anything wrong with being that way mind you, I just think that even if they did freak out it would probably be a more positive kind of freakout.
No.6343
>>6341
Well I fantasize about it because I have never experienced it,Even thinking about it feels foreign.So of course I exaggerate it and make so no matter what it will have a good outcome in it. Like he said>>6342. But yeah if that ever happened in real life I think I would just freeze and question if that really happened. I still get a little panicked if someone says my name, its uncommon to happen.
No.6344
>>6343
Normal people don't think anything of those kinds of things, so while you're in shock, they'll still be going on as if nothing happened. It would probably be overwhelming afterwards.
There was nothing good about it, though. She hugged me because she was sad, so I was just her teddy bear for a few moments. It was uncomfortable and annoying. At this point I'm just pissed but I doubt you would ever be mad about it.
No.6345
>>6344
Oh if she was hugging me just because she was sad and needed to feel something, I would be mad too. I don't want to feel used like that, thats not a genuine hug to me.I if didn't know her well I would have just left if I knew thats why.I dont understand why people need to share their emotions and be all open about their sadness like that, its kinda annoying.
No.6346
>>6345
That's how literally every normalfag is. If it's not a selfish hug, it's a courtesy hug, when you meet someone for the first time in a while and as you're saying hello, you hug. Since I can function well with normalfags, I understand them better than people from /r9k/ and similar.
Becoming friends with them isn't becoming friends. Your best bet is to talk people online and maybe one day meet one of them irl. Otherwise it's just a disappointment, but no one ever seems to believe me.
No.6348
>>6339
That's a lot of reasons, and yeah it makes sense. If they dismiss it as nothing, though, then there's no cost incurred, and this could potentially make your life much, much better. I'm also not sure why you're willing to go to a therapist and not your parents when you hate telling people about yourself.
>>6344
Do you care about her? She's being selfish, but she trusted you to care about her enough to abide by a hug and support her.
No.6349
>>6348
I understand that you may have neuroses that make touching people extremely uncomfortable, but she didn't know that. You're free to get mad at her, but I don't think it's particularly fair to do so on the basis of her selfishness, or else you would hate almost everything people do socially.
No.6350
>>6346
No I believe you.I have never hugged anyone but my grandma and mom, so I didn't know hugs were used so often like that for nothing.They feel kinda cheap now.I don't think even online friendships can work. Its too separated from socializing that you can't actually make a solid bond with people like you can irl, doing things together and stuff.And irl friendships are just as hard since you need to have skills for people to like you and want to talk for you, its a lose/lose situation. that is why I have given up on anything social.
>pic related
>>6348
Maybe they do, maybe they don't but I don't want them to look at me differently then they already do. since my brother has gotten a gf and he is younger than me they are questioning if I'm normal.If have to tell anyone about my problems I'd rather it be a stranger that doesn't care about me and give me drugs so I don't have to worry if they think of me differently and judging me.
No.6351
>>6347
3D is literally never cute. She's blonde and her hair is kinda long, which is the only thing I would ever care about. She's 17, slightly acne-faced, short at 5' 1", small chest, has a rather recessive kind of chin or whatever you call it, and relatively in good shape.
3D is shit.
>>6348
She is nice, doesn't drink or do drugs, though she's tried both one time each (just weed for drugs), so my opinion of her is decent. I'm nice to everyone all the time irl, and I'm nice to her, too, just because. I don't care about her in particular, but one time I tried comforting her when she was fighting with someone else, because I'm good at resolving conflict and calming people down. It wasn't anything personal, I would have done it for anyone because conflict is bad and I don't want it to go on any longer than it has to, largely because it means I have to hear about it for a while. I'm pretty sure I can't genuinely care about anyone, so that was a silly question.
>>6349
I do hate everything people do socially. Its all stupid to me, except goofing around and being funny. Thats all I ever do at work, because it's the only thing I can partake in that doesn't piss me off. I'm the biggest goof ball.
>>6350
So basically it's either online shit that doesn't work, or fake irl horse shit. No one really cares about each other that much. It's all "What does this person offer me?" For lonely people, they want just about anything so long as they get affection and feel as if they're cared about. For normies, they want to be entertained for the most time. The "genuinely connect with someone" meme isn't a real thing. The closest one can get to it is delusion. If you get two people that want it desperately enough, they can force it, but of course, you can't force a "genuine" connection.
It's all bullshit, which is why I say social shit is the worst. Most people don't want to believe it, because most people can't handle not having any hope. Luckily, I can though, because I'm God.
No.6352
>>6350
>And irl friendships are just as hard since you need to have skills for people to like you and want to talk for you
This is bullshit. Connections are formed on a common context. The majority of friendships are predicated on whining about or mocking the situation you share.
>>6351
Cynicism isn't wisdom. You claim not to care about anybody else, and then you fault others for being selfish in social situations.
>The "genuinely connect with someone" meme isn't a real thing
You can create an ideal, say reality doesn't measure up, and then dismiss reality, or you can negotiate with reality on its own terms. Most people feel they connect with each other on some level, and they enjoy that more than feeling alone. Something being imperfect doesn't mean it's bad. We have to select among imperfect alternatives.
A lot of this may not apply to you because you might sincerely be incapable of connecting with anybody, but I don't want >>6350 to use sophistry to rationalize giving up. I left wizchan because I was sick of resignation and surrender, especially when it's hidden behind a paper thin veneer of pessimism like this.
No.6353
>>6352
Maybe context and shared whining is what is needed to initiate a connection, but it can't sustain it.you still need intra and interpersonal skills, wit,charm, experiences shared and personal,at least same or more social status,emotionally stable, and other skills like hobbies.I don't have any of this which is why I can't sustain friendships which why I have given up. maybe I could learn and get those skills but I have hence to see the purpose since people can always find friends that already have all of that.just like he said >>6351 I don't have anything to offer.I guess I can still hold on to the false hope that if I have the necessary skills and can find some one in a common experience I can finally maintain and have a friendship, but until then I am not capable yet.
No.6354
>>6351
>blonde, short, good shape, not cowtits, not a degenerate druggie
Noice.
No.6355
>>6353
>you still need intra and interpersonal skills
This is true, and shared experiences come with a shared context. The rest of this sentence is pretty much false.
>people can always find friends that already have all of that
There are other people like you. Plenty of people are looking for friends or willing to accept new ones.
>I don't have anything to offer
Try antidepressants and, if that fails, benzos. It will take some more work after you do, and you may never be the heart of every conversation you're in, but at some point you might be wanted. I think that's worth struggling for.
No.6356
>>6354
>wanting short girls
Honestly, I would want my sons to be tall if I had any. Being a short man is really detrimental.
No.6357
>>6352
Just because I say something is bad doesn't mean I don't do it. I just don't care if I do it, because it's impossible to avoid. I do it much less than Ms. Hugger so I don't feel bad about it. I hardly even talk to people anymore, because I know with me in particular, it's always bullshit.
>you can negotiate with reality on its own terms. Most people feel they connect with each other on some level, and they enjoy that more than feeling alone
Well, I don't. And there's nothing to "negotiate" because of it. There's nothing offered there. How other people enjoy being social just doesn't make sense to me anymore.
At one point, I was a hopeless romantic that wanted to be everybody's best friend. When I realised it would never happen, and that it's just a dream like it is for many, I gave up. And it's only after I have up on dreaming that I felt I could really grab into reality and make it my own and enjoy it. Just like not so long ago, when I tried making friends on 4chan, it was just me dreaming, and it didn't work out and I was miserable. Now I'm back to being 100% selfish and focused on a lonesome reality that I'm happy again. Talking to people has always proven to make me unhappy, just like right now, so I'm gonna go back to work and actually try to enjoy myself instead. Sorry if my post was bad, I'm at work so I'm distracted.
No.6359
>>6357
There is nothing wrong with acting selfishly. You are a person too. Acting selfishly in a way that harms others is bad. Don't hate something merely because it's selfish.
>Talking to people has always proven to make me unhappy, just like right now
I understand I was being confrontational, but guilting people for arguing with you is pretty childish.
No.6360
>>6355
Is it really false though?Its bot hard to see that more skilled, witty , and charming people have friends and are more happy than those without.Its evident that you will always be inferior to others with skills so why would anyone want someone that's less?And people may be more open and accept less socially competent and worthy people, but you'll still be looked down upon, you will still have to prove yourself and they may catch on that you aren't normal, and find someone that is.And finding people that are looking for friends is hard, especially as you get older.Its not like they are walking around with a sign saying they want friends.
>at some point you might be wanted
I want nothing more than this.I guess I can stuggle for this, but it will still be a struggle.I will still always feel unwanted and inferior but if you say its obtainable to be wanted then maybe I'll stay in a little more.
No.6361
>>6360
>Its evident that you will always be inferior to others with skills so why would anyone want someone that's less?
Because they're also less, and the most witty and charming people don't associate with them. I know it's hard, I'm floundering myself. But it isn't impossible and it isn't pointless.
No.6362
>>6359
It's not fun for me to talk seriously ever, whether it's arguing or not. Even winning arguments is just annoying and unpleasant somehow. Normally I just funpost and be dumb, and obviously that's not what I'm doing now, so it feels like a pain to respond. Are you a new person or something?
No.6363
>>6362
>Are you a new person or something?
Yeah, I started posting pretty recently. This board was linked on 4/r9k/ and I thought I would check it out. Didn't mean to cause you discomfort, I should have interpreted you more charitably.
No.6364
>>6363
I ask because everyone else already knows that I'm Mr. Antisocial, and they wouldn't feel bad about upsetting me, because I get upset and pissy no matter how they interact with me.
No.6365
>>6364
I'm actually the Board Owner. Guess I'm just thick skulled.
No.6366
>>6361
Its just hard to see really anything but impossible and pointless.I know I am just projecting my inferiority and trying to rationalize giving up, yeah its hard.Its hard not to compare yourself that are successful seemingly flawlessly all while you are struggling to leave the house.I dunno, I'll try I guess, but its going to be hard to find a place where I'm wanted.
No.6367
>>6366
>but its going to be hard to find a place where I'm wanted
Probably. When you succeed you'll be proud of yourself though.
I strongly recommend you try going to a psychiatrist before you transfer schools. I also strongly recommend you ask your parents for financial support, but I've done that already.
No.6368
>>6365
Maybe I just overestimate people's power to understand me
Maybe I must accept that I am an anomaly 100%
No.6369
I'm dropping linear algebra while I can.
No.6370
>>6367
Thanks for caring. Money is also a touchy subject with them so that really isn't an option, don't worry I'll find a way if I go. I just don''t know what to expect and what they expect of me.If I can find the energy to use a phone, I'll do it.
>>6369
really? I love Linear Algebra but I guess its one of those classes that can be tough if it isn't taught right.That sucks man.
No.6371
>>6370
I just realized I don't have the discipline to take a math class with three hours of homework every other day. The class is taught fine, although it's the first math class I've taken where you learn primarily by reading instead of lecture. Getting through fifteen pages of proofs when I should have been sleeping was mentally exhausting.
No.6372
>>6356
>not wanting a short qt you can wrap your arms around and cuddle with
For reals fam. It's too cute.
>>6370
>>6371
>those whole conversation
I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON BECAUSE I'VE BEEN BUSY WITH OTHER STUFF ADN MY BRAIN IS MUSH ATM BECAUSE I'M TIRED
BUT I HOPE YOU BOTH GET THINGS SORTED OUT AND KEEP WORKING HARD ON YOUR GOALS FOR THE YEAR. Also have you tried focusing more regular time to your algebra clas thingydo before considering dropping it? Giving up is never an option, but clinging to a dead horse is bad too. There's a big difference there.
ALSO KRANON I DIDN'T SEE YOU ON ANYMORE BUT I HOPE YOU GOT YOUR THINGS DONE OR AT LEAST WORKED ON A FAIR AMOUNT TONIHGT
I'm gonna sleep now k bye ohio :^) have a cute coffee making girl
No.6374
>>6373
Saya is best fam you have good taste this time.
No.6375
>>6372
>Also have you tried focusing more regular time to your algebra clas thingydo before considering dropping it?
I was taking it for fun (and because the math majors I meet in CS are generally very intelligent). Don't need it for my major. I will take another, easier class for fun.
No.6376
>>6375
Oh okay then that's cool. Rather, it's a shame that you might have to drop it.
Ok goodnight for reals this time ohio.
No.6377
>>6376
Goodnight, in case you're staying up to read this
No.6378
>>6372
yeah I got most of it done, will get the rest done in the morning before class, if I can manage to go. goodnight fam.thanks for calming me down and not letting me spaz out too much.
No.6381
No.6397
Ohio. i made it to campus today, but I came in late and only stayed for the last 15min of a class.At least I left the house I guess, but sort of pointless for me to go.I think i have gotten worse, I get panicked a lot more easily now and I am more paranoid walking out in public.I mean I always have been, but it is more intense I think.I looked up the closet psychiatrist, I need to call t o set it up, so it might be awhile, I am legitimate afraid of the phone.I'll try to do it though.Do your best everyone.
No.6398
>>6397
Good luck. Antipsychotics cause brain shrinkage so beware.
No.6400
>>6399
http://boards.4chan.org/sci/thread/7825678
Hope you get SSRIs to work for you. Low dose benzos are probably not as bad as antipsychotics, but you will become tolerant and probably wind up in roughly the same position, so start the benzos immediately before transferring schools.
No.6401
>>6400
Well fuck I guess I will need to look up whatever they give me before I take it, but lucky for me there isn't really much to damage, my brain is already useless.
No.6402
>>6401
I've been taking a pediatric dose of antipsychotics on and off for about a year and a half. I doubt damage has been very severe at all, but it would be better to stop it if I can. Honestly, I made that thread last night and am probably dedicated to no longer taking the abilify.
No.6403
>>6402
Well it sounds like they aren't the best, but I will take what I can get for now. But thanks for telling me ahead. And be careful, they said that even dropping dosage isn't safe, don't stop just because a nerd told you its not good.
No.6404
>>6401
Also, don't say things like that. You aren't stupid and you should try to maximize your odds. That means keeping your wits as long as you can.
>>6403
I'm tapering the benzos before I've been on them for long, I'll probably stop antipsychotics wholesale now (I've done it many times before).
No.6405
>>6404
> You aren't stupid
you don't know that and if you ask me I would say I am legitimately retarded, but I understand what you are saying.
Well as long as you know what you are doing , but don't do something dumb you know. Drugs aren't exactly things to mess with.and thanks for the info and stuff.
No.6406
No.6407
Actually meant to post https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urtdIeWqC9E, both are great imo so oh well
No.6408
>tfw super pumped up today
>mess with my build on d3 and push solo greater rifts even farther
>play a game of league while servers are down and absolutely wreck face
>listening to hype music
>mother fuckin mandu for lunch
>idle game numbers are skyrocketing
>gonna push more grifts after eating and maybe finish up the cheevos on DD:DA later once my internet starts shitting itself as it usually does every night
O H I O
H
I
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No.6411
No.6413
>>6411
Ogreetingso
>>6412
She's still cute.
No.6414
>>6413
Didn't know you were into that tbqh
No.6415
>>6414
That's pretty entry level man, as long as you get em while they're still warm. Geez. What are you some kind of freak?
No.6416
>>6406
>>6407
pretty dank fam
No.6417
>>6416
Cannut tell if you're being ironic
No.6418
>>6417
No I genuinely liked it. Sorry if I sounded sarcastic.
No.6419
No.6420
andthen I was tired because I woke upat 3am. Who wants me to move in with thm so I can get a real job? I complani about this too much. I see a lot of red shit so I assume I made many typos but I cannot be assed right now because I am tired.
GOODNIGHT OHIO KEEP ON DOINGYOURBEST
No.6421
>>6420
>Who wants me to move in with thm so I can get a real job
Could you move out after finding employment and having enough savings to afford a freezer and basic cooking equipment?
No.6422
No.6423
>>6420
Also no you couldn't move in with me
No.6424
>>6408
I have that shirt but it's pink
No.6425
>>6424
pic of me wearing shirt
No.6426
>>6425
That hairstyle works for you (^:
No.6427
No.6428
Let's all do our worst today!
No.6429
>>6428
>can't sleep
>can't think
>haven't done work
I already am.
No.6430
>>6429
>tfw you give up and accept everything for what it is and don't try to change anything
No.6432
>>6423
Rude tbh.
>>6428
>>6429
>>6430
Do I have to beat you nerds up? Cut it out and stop talking about giving up. I SWEAR EVERY TIME I GO AWAY FOR A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME.
GO DO YOUR BEST AT YOUR THING TODAY. DO IT.
No.6433
>>6432
I'll do my best fampai, but not today, I fucked up too hard to salvage it. Tomorrow I will do better.
>burgertiddies
>not angel cake
???????????
No.6434
>>6433
>even emi knows she isn't best girl
>is simply jelly all day every day
No.6435
>>6432
Its okay to give up sometimes, life is scary.
No.6436
>>6434
>thinking a spaghetti dropping, cock craving cow tit slut burger flipping retard is best
>thinking burger tiddies isn't jelly of emi's maturity and top bantz
??????????????????????
you dumb senpai
No.6437
>>6435
NO
IT ISN'T OKAY TO GIVE UP
IT'S LITERALLY BANNED FOR A REASON
YOU GOTTA CHEER UP AND DO YOUR BEST! IT'S IMPORTANT TODAY! YOU CAN DO IT! I BELIEVE IN YOU. WE BELIEVE IN YOU.
>>6436
>doesn't know how to have fun
>"maturity" when she's literally just a kid thrown into the adult world
>isn't even the best of the hero group
Waye ih rkanon, couk hajhe in tahakaruj ij zax. Cou egen hkiex ho hkiyrc xanvo fiht liej azouh tek zeinv a ytkijhpaj yare!
No.6438
>>6437
>not giving up when life scares you
normie tbh
No.6439
>>6435
>>6437
i think its ok to give up sometimes, we all need breaks.Doing everything and not thinking is just futile and you won't be able to do your best.Sometimes knowing when to walk away is doing your best.
>not liking an anxious and easily excited tsundere figuring out a new world
>not liking a qt that makes qt reaction faces and gets flustered at everything
>doesn't like the gutsy vengeful leader of the group
????????????????????
you are dropping the ball senpai tbh
No.6440
>>6438
I couldn't do that. I'd never get anything done ever because life scares me every day. so you just gotta push through it!
>>6439
N O it's not okay to give up. There's a big difference between giving up and taking a break, and there's also a big difference between giving up and moving on!
No.6441
>>6440
>mfw yui-senpai tries to get me to do my best
just stop pls its time to give up
No.6442
>>6441
if we can't convince you, then maybe onii chan can?????
No.6443
>>6442
>onii-chan card
not even that
No.6444
>>6441
NO
IT ISN'T
IT'S ACTUALLY TIME TO STEP IT UP AND TRY HARDER!
YOU HAVE TO DO YOUR BEST AND KEEP TRYING EVEN WHEN IT GETS HARDER THAN YOU EVER THOUGHT IT POSSIBLY COULD ayo (^: BECAUSE THAT JUST MAKES THE REWARDS EVEN MORE WORTH IT! YOU MADE IT THROUGH ON THE OTHER SIDE AND YOU'RE FUCKING AWESOME FOR DOING IT! YOU DESERVE IT! YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY! YOU ALL DO! SO WORK HARD AND BE HAPPY WITH THE FACT THAT YOU NEVER GAVE UP EVEN WHEN IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO MUCH EASIER TO JUST LIE IN BED FOR HOURS AND CRY! You have to do it because if you don't then nothing will ever change and things will just get worse in time!
If I come home from work in a few hours and see you posted anything other than "I'm sorry yui-senpai you're right, I'll do my best today!" then you're in trouble. BIG TROUBLE!
No.6445
>>6444
>YOU DESERVE IT! YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!
I don't. Its conceited to think people deserve anything, you have to earn it.
No.6446
>>6435
>>6438
>>6439
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ph5NSJ3GRBo
NEVER!
PUSH ONWARDS, PRESS THE ADVANTAGE. EVEN BY THE SKIN OF OUR TEETHS.
No.6447
>>6446
The future is scary. What if pushing on is worse than staying were I am, what if its too late to go where I wanted to go, what if I am making the wrong choices, what if I mess up pushing on?
No.6448
>not response
Must be out doing her best instead. I approve.
>>6445
YOU DO DESERVE IT. I WOULD KNOW. I SPENT ENOUGH TIME AROUND YOU TO KNOW YOU'RE A PRETTY NEAT GUY THAT DEFINITELY DESERVES HAPPINESS. NOW GO GRAB IT! TAKE IT FOR YOUR OWN! IT'S YOUR HAPPINESS JUST WAITING TO BE CLAIMED! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?
>>6446
YOU'REDOINGTHEEMPEROR'SWORKSON
>>6447
>what if pushing on is worse
THEN PUSH ON TO SOMEWHERE ELSE. YOU'VE ALREADY DEMONSTRATED YOU CAN
>what if its too late
THE ONLY WAY IT'LL BE TOO LATE IS IF YOU SIT AND QUESTION YOURSELF TOO MUCH STOP DOING THAT. JUST GO FOR IT
>what if I am making the wrong choices
>what if I mess up pushing on
THEN LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE AND APPLY IT TO YOUR FURTHER PUSHING. THIS ISN'T A WHAT IF QUESTION. YOU *WILL* MAKE MISTAKES. EVERYONE DOES. THAT'S THE BIG SECRET TO LIFE NOBODY EVER TELLS. YOU'RE GONNA MAKE MISTAKES AND FUCK UP AT SOME POINT IN YOUR LIFE. LITERALLY EVERYONE THAT LIVES THEIR LIFE DOES. SO WHEN YOU DO TRIP AND STUMBLE AND FALL, PICK YOURSELF BACK UP AND THINK ABOUT WHY YOU TRIPPED. THEN TIE YOUR SHOELACES DOUBLE THIS TIME AND GET GOING.
No.6449
Damn I missed the giving up party, guess I have to try my best today instead
No.6450
>>6449
I crash every giving up party I find. They aren't allowed. THEY'RE BANNED.
AND NOW YOU ALL HAVE TO TRY YOUR BEST.
No.6451
>>6450
Yui "The Party Pooper" Anon
No.6452
>>6451
Pity parties not welcome. Only encouragement, doing your best, yelling, and fun.
No.6453
>>6452
Fair enough. I'm just messing around honestly, I know you don't want that kind of stuff around for our sakes.
No.6454
>tfw harvesting another monogatari thread
>tfw harvesting another thread elsewhere and getting some R A R E K A R E N S
>>6453
I just like reminding people that inaction is the enemy. It's what fucks you in the long run. Number one contributor to regret.
No.6455
>>6454
Yeah reminding people is good but it really doesn't matter if they do nothing to fix it, I guess that's why you are always adamant about saying that you don't really do anything for us.
No.6456
>>6455
Now you're getting it. Literally the only thing I can do is yell at you guys. THAT'S WHY I HAVE TO DO IT ALL THE TIME FOREVER, CONSTANTLY, AND WITH GREAT ENTHUSIASM. So that one day you'll listen, even if it isn't today, or tomorrow, or the next day, and so on. I'd imagine some people I've yelled at still aren't listening, and they stopped talking to me long ago. But I still want them to be happy and do their best. Same deal here, long after this board is gone and anyone I've talked to from it has stopped talking to me, I'll still hope the same for you all.
No.6457
>>6447
I remember reading something really insightful on r9k on my rare visits there, something that I would like to share.
"The introverted life leads to only worse feels. Even if there was a person for each robot the two would never meet.
When you're alone and learn to be alone you kind of stop functioning socially. things lose their value, you focus on yourself or the things around you. It's self destructive in the long run because you're willingly shutting yourself off from potential, from opportunities, from rejection.
There's no solace in your notion unless the person tries to find them.
I find all these stories of how robots came to be absolutely tragic, it really pains me that we're all suffering."
Doesn't matter if you mess up. Keep on going. Again!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKeI8eYtWyQ
No.6458
No.6459
>>6458
You don't have to be jealous, I might share them with you someday (^:
No.6460
No.6461
>>6460
Don't worry I believe you.
No.6462
>tfw need to catch up on a show but sleep calls
Maybe tomorrow. Goodnight ohios.
No.6463
>>6448
But why? I haven't done anything or proven myself in any way to deserve it.I am lazy, retarded and unproductive,I don't deserve anything.
>THEN PUSH ON TO SOMEWHERE ELSE. YOU'VE ALREADY DEMONSTRATED YOU CAN
?????I have been stagnant for years, I haven't developed much or done anything since middle school.
I have learned form my mistakes and I know I will make more, but I have never done anything right, I always mess up. I have learned that I will likely mess up anything I do so I don't waste my time.I know you are trying to motivate us and I appreciate it but I know my limits and what I am capable of, which is not much.
>>6457
>shutting yourself off from potential, from opportunities, from rejection.
I know I do this, but I don't do it consciously, my thought process does it for me and makes up reasons why I don't do things. I am trying to stop the thoughts but its hard, I believe them more often then not.
>Even if there was a person for each robot the two would never meet.
I didn't want to have this feel
No.6464
>>6463
You've been getting through college, haven't you? That's something to be prou of.
No.6465
>>6464
Barely, I am struggling to go and not doing well and I'm am not even at a good school.
No.6466
>>6465
I think you're downplaying it a bit honestly, it's easy to just say that you aren't doing as well as everyone else or that it's nothing comparatively but I don't think that's the right way to look at it, you could easily turn it around and think how much better that is than some people, I didn't even finish highschool.
Honestly though that isn't my point either, if you look at your own circumstances (not just financial but your personal circumstances) I think it's pretty amazing that you can still do that much, amount of effort/willpower isn't always directly translates into success and even the act of putting in effort isn't equally difficult for everyone. I don't know, I'm probably being a hypocrite considering how much of a pessimist I am but eh I guess that's because it's easier to give advice than take it, even if it's your own.
No.6467
>>6466
Well I maybe better off than most people and everything, but to my standards I am failing, I am not where I want to be.I am so far off from what I wanted that I might as well not bother.
I look at my circumstances and don't see the big deal tbh.I could have done anything but I squandered all of it and failed. You are assuming too much, I am not putting in any effort and can barely get to campus most days.
No.6468
>>6467
How many people do you think are where they want to be in life? It's probably a negligible number, even if you're far off you will definitely never make it there by quitting.
Your circumstances might not seem like much to you but I feel like you have a pretty hard time, problems are not just physical mental and emotional problems are legitimate problems that can hinder you.
You could have done anything but you didn't, you said you learn from your mistakes so you should probably learn from that one. You can still do anything, at least more than you will be able to do if you keep giving up then 5 years from now when you look back and say the same fucking thing you're saying right now about could have done anything.
I do not really think I'm assuming much, my standards are much lower than yours is all. I quite literally do nothing, you would be suprised how little I do, the fact that you are even enrolled is great and puts you miles ahead of me in effort.
Sorry if am coming off as harsh, I feel like I'm being a dick with this but at the same time I think you need to hear shit like this to an extent
I also think a lot of this applies to me and i need to hear it as well.
No.6469
>>6463
Nigga that was responses to the thingies. IF you push on and it's worse, then push on to somewhere else. Shiet man.
And just trust me I know that you deserve it.
>I will likely mess up anything so I don't bother
>I know my limits
>I squandered all of it
Real talk? You're fucking nineteen man. You literally don't have the life experience to say any of those. You Don't actually know SHIT about your limits or your abilities because you're too young to have put in any real effort, even if you were putting in effort that you claim you aren't. So don't even let that stupid shit enter your brain because it's LITERALLY. NOT POSSIBLE. I don't fucking care if you feel that it's true or other people have implied it and shit, it's literally wrong. So shut up about that.
No.6472
>>6463
>I know I do this, but I don't do it consciously, my thought process does it for me and makes up reasons why I don't do things. I am trying to stop the thoughts but its hard, I believe them more often then not.
It's good that you're standing up for yourself inside, keep doing that and know that you're never really alone.
The war is always in the mind instead of everything else. You have to believe that you are stronger because you are and I believe that you are. Do not allow yourself to be defeated now. One foot after the other, we'll get through this too.
No.6473
I'm reading Blood Meridian. It's my favorite McCarthy book so far.
No.6474
>mfw charged into the daimon fight as a warrior and realizing I forgot periapts
>mfw I knocked his bitch ass out of the air super quick when he started rifting
>mfw Casca brainsplittered his face for 3 bars while he was down
>mfw I didn't have a barakmon folder yet
No.6475
>tfw midwest emo music is associated with goth teenagers
No.6476
>>6468
No you aren't being a dick, you are right we need to hear it or else we won't ever do anything.
I don't feel like I have a hard time.Yeah I am not happy or done anything with my life but, its not so bad, it could be a lot worse.
>>6469
>you deserve it
Agree to disagree.
I might be young, but I like to think I am good at judging things.It only takes trying things once to know if you are good or not at it.
>>6472
>Do not allow yourself to be defeated
I'll try not too. I already gave in to it years ago, I need to crawl back out of that hole.
>>6473
noice fampai.McCarthy is petty good.
No.6477
>>6476
>It only takes trying things once to know if you are good or not at it.
It takes trying things many times to find if you can become good at it, though.
No.6478
>>6476
>It only takes trying things once to know if you are good or not at it
Come on son, that is so retarded, deep down I think you know that is just an excuse.
I won't deny that some people are naturally inclined towards certain things but anyone can get better through practice and natural talent can only take you so far if you don't try to get better. Do you think Einstein would have got as far as he did if he just threw his hands up and said "I suck at math, that's it" the first time he fucked up a problem? Humans are really great at adapting and learning through repetition. Even if you suck at something you can still improve and you don't need to be some prodigy or anything you only need to be better than you were yesterday.
Tl;Dr Experience > Talent or what >>6477 says
No.6479
>>6476
>I like to think I am good at judging things
Clearly not if you think it only takes one try and then it's ok to give up.
No.6480
>>6475
holy fug I didn't even know this genre was a thing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tsR8QDP46xg
No.6481
>>6480
Who is giving you these good recommendations?
No.6482
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Somebody tell me a story.
No.6483
>>6477
>>6478
>>6479
Yeah it might be just an excuse. Like i said I tend to believe all the negative thoughts I have. I think what I meant that it only takes one try is that I estimate what I think it takes to get good and how much time and effort it would take to get gud and factoring in what little talents I have.Of course it is just me rationalizing not trying and giving up if I fail my first try but its what I do.
>>6481
Bandcamp? I just searched for Midwest emo and it was one of the first to show up. I like it alot.
>>6482
Fuck I just realized I really don't have any stories. I have had events happen to me but none worth sharing or with any narratives. Like the only thing I can think of is my trip to New Mexico and even then its not that exciting.
No.6484
>>6482
The only person I talk to at college stopped returning my texts, it seems (we hung out maybe once a month). I didn't respect them all that much, but it's hard to avoid thinking about it. How has your day been?
>>6483
>but its what I do.
It's what you have done.
I love emo and I like that album, although you have to get accustomed to screaming if you want to listen to very much of it.
No.6485
>>6483
Also, that The Brave Little Abacus album I posted is probably the most well regarded emo album by people in emo generals on /mu/. If you haven't done so, try listening to it while reading all the lyrics (this really pays off later in the album, as it uses a lot of lyrical repetition to build themes). The vocals can be hard to get past, but I think they adds a lot of heart to the LP. It's easily my favorite album.
I forgot to mention, but I liked Brand New a lot, Yuianon.
No.6486
>>6482
>Somebody tell me a story.
Okay, here's one. I was on a mission trip in high school. Several other kids and I were walking back to the place we were sleeping when we were confronted by a man on a bicycle. He got off and told us the story of his life. He confirmed that he was sober by pouring the contents of his water bottle onto the street. He explained that his family had a restraining order against him, and the only way he could talk to his children was by calling the radio station at the time they would listen in. He said he knew he couldn't make up for the way he treated them but he had to try to make it right or he couldn't live with himself. He then asked for twenty dollars, some for the call to the radio station and some for a cord to use at his farm for repairs. We gave it to him. Half a week later, in roughly the same location, this same man chopped a guy with a machete when he refused to cooperate with robbery.
No.6487
>>6484
>>6485
Oh ye I have listened to a bit of it, its pretty great. I didn't care for screaming in music much but its grown on me.
>>6486
that is pretty brutal. What country was this?Did you get hassled a lot while you were down there?
No.6488
>>6487
>I have listened to a bit of it, its pretty great
Listen to it all the way through while reading the lyrics. The last song feels incredibly cathartic.
The country was Belize.
No.6489
>>6483
Well accepting that it's just an excuse is a good start. I'm prone to using this "I already know" type excuse, mostly just on 4chan but still when I really sit back and think I know I'm just saying that because I'm scared of failure but at the same time I am not able to give up without making an excuse.
Basically I can't accept being a fucking loser who gave up but I still don't want to try because I'm scared
No.6490
>>6489
If somebody offered you a job for $10 an hour would you take it?
No.6491
>>6490
I'd take a minimum wage job, I'm just too anxious about the whole process honestly.
No.6492
>>6491
Have you ever tried drinking in social situations? It's worth giving a shot. If you can hit a comfort zone where you're collected but not anxious you can drink that much and then brush your teeth before interviewing. Applying is the real pain in the ass, but you're going to have to do more the more you put it off (it isn't strange to have no job experience for you yet).
No.6493
>>6492
What's up with you and going straight to drugs and alcohol for every problem
No.6494
>>6492
I don't think that would work for me, when I'm drunk I genrally get more akward up until the point where I get noticeably drunk and then it's too much to show up at an interview.
I just don't know why anyone would hire someone with no highschool diploma/ isn't working towards one either. Honestly school is what I really want to work on but I'm not even sure where to start or if it's worth it when I've already started and quit 2 or 3 times as a teenager
No.6495
>>6493
Some drugs including alcohol are very effective at treating anxiety. That's all it is.
>>6494
That sucks about the drunkenness. Google how to get a GED if you're worried about not finishing high school.
No.6496
>>6495
Yeah that's probably my only option st this point, especially since I'm too weird about itto ask anywhere else like the Alt. School I was going to before.
Honestly just makes me feel like saying fuck it though
No.6498
>>6495
Yeah but then you rely on the stuff and that's not good
No.6499
>>6496
That is how I feel too. I really just want to say fuck it and drop out or school.I hate it. I failed to get into a good school and am stuck in a shitty place.In the back of my mind I know why I still go, but I just wish it wasn't here. I never wanted to end up like this.
Get your GED fam. Its not like school, its just a few practice tests and some refresher course and you get it.I don't know how long it takes but Its is prob under a year.A GED will at least let you get a job if you need to or go to school if you want. I know its scary to go out and try, to go and make an effort, but we need to.
>>6498
Did you remember your trip?
yeah drugs and alcohol is no good, they are crutches. I do abuse them though tbh but I know I shouldn't.
No.6500
>>6496
>Honestly just makes me feel like saying fuck it though
You can have a good life without a college degree. Learn a trade. Become a longshoreman and struggle to get seniority. Learn to weld but do not become a full time welder. Go into construction. You can make decent money if you want decent money. Blue collar does not mean poor in this day and age, and half of the people going through college are getting a degree that will not help them financially.
If it's not money but satisfaction you're worried about, learn to code. Create a portfolio of projects and try to get hired. Maybe try learning an instrument or a language. You have so much free time to accomplish things, you aren't cornered by responsibility yet. Do not waste this.
Just throwing ideas out there.
>>6498
Relying on alcohol for daily functioning is incredibly harmful, relying on alcohol for job interviews is pretty harmless, as job interviews are rare occurrences. There are some people who are genetically predisposed to addiction, and they are just completely fucked. If you have a family of alcoholics you shouldn't drink, for example. However, for most people, occasional alcohol use is nearly harmless.
No.6501
>>6499
Yes I did remember it and then I had a stroke and fell on my keyboard and hit tab a few times and then enter
>>6500
>nearly
Key word!!!!!!!!!!
No.6503
>>6499
Maybe I can do it online, that would be ideal but I would need a laptop or something at the least.
>>6500
Maybe I can but I would have at least liked to have the option, I feel like by giving up on school so early I've shot myself in the foot in more ways the one. I mean I didn't drop out until around the time I was supposed to be a Junior but I basically gave up freshman year for reasons I don't really feel like explaining. I don't know, I think I might like coding stuff but I am pretty ignorant because I never owned a computer. I always wanted to play an instrument but I'm not very dexterous, my handwriting is preschool tier.
I just wish I knew what I wanted to do or had more drive to figure it out
No.6505
>>6503
Ye fam there are tons of ways to get it and plenty of options for you.
>I never owned a computer
>I am pretty ignorant
>I am not very dexterous
you sound like me. Don't make excuses for things you haven't tried yet.Ignore your abilities or perceptions of what you can do, and think about what you want to do and where you want to be.It might be hypocritical of me, but you can do it.Whatever you want to do, just do it. Put in the effort and try. Its hard, I know I am scared too.
>>6504
Am not dork
No.6506
>>6505
Honestly it's not even a matter of me not wanting to try them because I think I'll fail I just don't know how to go about putting myself in the position to be able to try them or I'm too anxious to try any ideas I might have that would improve my situation
It's kind of funny honestly, we can both tell each other some good advice but can't take it ourselves. It's like a two way "do as I say not as I do" lots of great words with little belief in them
No.6507
>>6506
> I just don't know how to go about putting myself in the position to be able to try them or I'm too anxious to try any ideas I might have that would improve my situation
I know that feel. I honestly do.Its why I never bothered to apply for school and gave up in high school.I am equally afraid of failure as I am of success.Any situation that isn't me in my room scares me.
We do say nice to each other that we might actually do ourselves, but its better we hear it than not at all.
No.6508
>>6507
Sometimes I say something that I like but more often than not I feel stupid and embarrassed rereading it. But sometimes you guys especially Yuianon say something that actually changes my outlook a bit or at the very least makes me think about stuff from different angles. Hell sometimes it even gets me a bit motivated to the point where I almost do something, I think another issue I have is I don't want to do anything I perceive as imperfect, I'm always waiting for an exact opportunity.
I wish I had like a little dude sitting on my shoulder giving me exact instructions on what to do, I could easily just follow instructions serious decision making is the bane of my existence.
No.6509
When I listen to stuff like this, it's like all my problems go away https://soundcloud.com/desired/sayonara
No.6510
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No.6512
>>6511
>facebook filename meme
I knew you were a normie all along
No.6513
File: 1454846319458.jpg (63.21 KB, 810x716, 405:358, ^5C7815117F6EFA85396911D43….jpg)
>>6512
Everyone already knew the gymbro college student was a chad
No.6514
>>6513
Are you on the east coast? Do you have to get up early for work? Are you insane?
No.6515
>>6514
Midwest, it's 12:30 pm right now so yeah EST. And no, I didn't have to get up early for work today. It's just how my sleep schedule has worked out recently, it's more trouble than it's worth to stay up late and risk my sleep schedule.
>Are you insane?
No.6516
>>6515
You just get up very early and go to bed pretty early, usually. I guess most manual labor jobs demand waking up that early so it's not a bad idea.
No.6517
>>6516
Recently yeah. Usually around 8-10 these days though sometimes later sometimes earlier. I haven't needed my alarm in a few weeks either since I wake up around 3-6, although I rarely ever sleep straight through, you know? Most commonly I'll get a few hours, wake up, look at the clock, and roll over and go back to sleep.
No.6518
Also this has been stuck in my head the past few days.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XCuj-foSQI
No.6519
Off to a day full of homework because of procrastination
No.6520
>>6512
>>6513
reeeee, whatever fuck you guys
>>6519
same, 3 weeks of work due tomorrow wew
No.6521
>the feeling of deciding to not turn something in
I'm a true badass
No.6522
>>6521
just turn it in baka, why wouldn't you? Is it not done?
No.6523
>>6522
Not done, never will be. I'm divested and it feels good.
No.6524
>>6523
tbh fam…. Just don't make it a habit. I know that feel, its really nice but its not a good thing. Was it worth much?
No.6525
>>6524
>Was it worth much?
Dunno. Hope not. I accept the things I cannot change, though, and the opportunity is already lost.
No.6526
>>6525
>I accept thew things I cannot change
that's all fine and well, but I hope you learn from wasting this opportunity.Its a slippery slope you know, skipping class and not doing work feels nice not worrying about it, but it will hurt you in the end. Maybe your time was worth more than working on whatever it was but it won't always be.Don't be like me and waste away because you are too lazy to do anything.Do your best.
No.6528
>>6527
>wanna kill myself because I just cried in front of my grandmother while drunk
Sleep on it. Sober up. You'll feel better, this isn't a very big deal.
>>6526
I appreciate it.
No.6530
>>6529
Nonsense, people are incredibly inaccurate at judging their own appearance. You probably look fine. Just try to go to sleep. Your grandmother will forgive you, she likely already has. Don't feel ashamed of yourself.
No.6531
>>6529
No, there are worse things you can do and cry drunk in front of your grandparents.You are making it a bigger deal than it is. Beat yourself up, feel bad about it, hide in your room, but don't end it over this.Maybe they will forgive you, maybe they won't but you need to forgive yourself.
No.6536
>>6534
Delete whatever you want to. I apologize about telling you to use an eye patch, I thought it was just one eye that was messed up. I don't know what your condition is, but there are a lot of people out there and odds are very high that, if you work hard at it, one of them will love you. You can also probably have friends, even if you've never made any before. I'm sorry you have to struggle more than most, but don't give up.
And brush your teeth, even if it hurts. It will save you money when you do go to a dentist. Don't drink soda.
If I don't respond it's probably because I went to sleep. I'll try to stay up a little bit more to talk with you.
No.6537
>>6534
Well ok, I worry about you, I know all too well what its like to be that low to do it.you might be ugly for all I know, I am just as much, but you can't dwell on it.Most of what you hate you can fix with time or money, which you might not have now but they are fixable just remember that.We might not ever stop feeling ugly, but our ugliness shouldn't stop us from enjoying life.Get some sleep anon.Do your best tomorrow
No.6539
>>6538
I'm going to sleep. I hope you feel better.
No.6540
>>6539
Good night board owner
No.6541
Sorry about last night guys.
I'm paying for it this morning though, jeez.
No.6542
>tfw waking up and getting a big bacon ranch cheese ball out of the fridge
>fresh glass of peach tea
>fresh box of ritz crackers
Gonna be a good day today lads.
>mfw skimming the thread and seeing a bunch of deletions
What'd I miss last night?
No.6543
>>6542
You didn't miss much I was just very drunk and said some stupid shit
No.6544
>>6543
Eh, it happens. I recommend not making a habit of it, either one, but hey. Sometimes, it can't be helped.
No.6545
>>6544
It's not really like I have access to it outside of a few specific occasions and that will be the case for a couple years still. Hopefully I'll be in a better place by then, one where I don't feel like trying to get shitfaced whenever I can.
No.6546
>>6545
That's true, you're still young aren't you? I honestly forget how old everyone is sometimes. Either way, alcoholism is some real shit and will fuck you up so avoid that shit. Expensive too.
No.6547
>>6546
Yeah I'm only 18. I don't really drink often but when I start I'm just not inclined to stop myself.
No.6548
>>6547
Well that just happens usually anyway honestly. You start drinkin and then you get drunk and hey what's one more drink and so on and so forth. That's when you start gettin in trouble.
No.6549
>>6541
>Sorry about last night guys
Nobody minded.
>>6546
>alcoholism is some real shit and will fuck you up
No kidding. Out of all the drugs to legalize they had to make it the one that gives you hangovers. And if you do become addicted to it it's so pervasive that you can't really avoid it.
No.6550
>>6541
Dude don't worry about it. It's kinda of why we have this board right?We all have those nights.
>>6542
What does a cheeseball taste like?People always make them around Christmas but I haven't had one.
>>6547
That's the thing about drinking it's easy to keep drinking and before you know it you are a half way through a bottle of whiskey.Just be careful whenever you do.
No.6551
>tfw have to deal with a largely unsorted trailer full of shit tomorrow morning
Opening sucks, especially when you aren't getting paid. Goodnight ohio.
>>6549
And now they're pushing to legalize weed too. I shudder to think what the world is going to look like in a decade or so.
>>6550
It tastes like DELICIOUS. It's super easy to make, but I think we cut the recipe in half because god damn.
Here's thing.
No.6552
>>6551
>And now they're pushing to legalize weed too
Stoners are obnoxious retards, but I think this is a good decision financially. Weed isn't really very bad for you, stoners aren't a dangerous bunch, and it's costly to make it illegal.
No.6553
>>6552
Ye I don't mind if all drugs get legalized, it would at least make them less annoying, every time you see one the only thing they talk about is legalizing weed dude.They tried passing it here but it was tied to only legalizing a few selected weed farms so it didn't pass, it might be passed next election though.
>mother just told me I have a dentist appointment in the morning
>haven't left the house in 3 weeks
>sleep cycle all out of whack
tomorrow will not be a good day. Goodnight Ohio do your best
No.6554
>>6553
>haven't left the house in 3 weeks
What the fuck? Don't you have a semester going on? Don't give up completely without telling anybody. And goodnight.
No.6555
>>6554
I know. I have been wanting to give up all month.I will go to class on Wednesday probably,maybe I hope. Goodngiht for real ohio
No.6556
>>6555
Goodnight, and please go to class. Don't waste time and money.
No.6557
>>6549
>>6550
I know you guys might not mind but I still don't think I should have posted some of that stuff.
But I guess I'll just drop it, there's no point in worrying about it now
No.6558
Played through Dark Souls 2 after a long time. Sir Alonne is incredibly fun. It's a shame base game is so mediocre, the DLC areas are fantastic.
>>6557
>I still don't think I should have posted some of that stuff
Think that if you want, but I like you and I don't mind trying to cheer you up. I'm sure kranon feels the same.
No.6559
Ohio ohio. Didn't get much sleep and don't want to leave the house so I'm not going to the dentist, going to reschedule. It's also snowing pretty hard and the roads are bad so that's nice. I am pretty comfy right now. Do your best minna.
>>6556
I know. I want to go honest but I am also afraid of leaving the house and being in public. I will try.
>>6557
I regret most of the stuff I post tbh. I think we all do. We don't mind though, it's why we are here. Just do your best instead of worrying.
No.6560
>have no money
>failing classes
>wreck car
>can't get to work to pay off loans
>can't get to school to catch up
>can't even get food
I'm so glad I left the NEET life behind, it was so horrible in comparison to this!
No.6561
>>6560
Face adversity now. Build something sustainable. The NEET life is delaying miserable shit, and making yourself incapable of dealing with it when it comes.
No.6562
>>6561
I faced adversity and now I'm fucked
No.6563
>>6562
Your situation does sound horribly shitty, and I don't know what advice to give you. I'm just saying NEETing isn't sustainable, and that it's better that you're fucked when you're young and employable than when you're thirty and homeless. Is your city lacking in public transportation? It will take a few hours out of your day, but you may have no choice.
No.6564
>>6563
Public transportation isn't a thing here because all the roads are hilly and windy and there's woods everywhere. The closest bus stop is a 90 minute walk away, and the only bus that ever comes by doesn't take me anywhere useful.
Also if I fail all my classes, I'll lose my financial aid, meaning I won't be able to go to school without paying out of pocket anymore. Don't have anyone to rely on, either. Everyone is poor.
Everything is fucked, but for some reason… I can't stop smiling… and JAMMING
https://soundcloud.com/lieber-bitter-samplinger/lieber-bitter-samplinger-re-construction-no001-refix
No.6565
>thread stops updating and don't notice
Fuck you 8ch
>>6564
You were on good terms with coworkers, right? Could you at least find people willing to carpool you, if you share shifts with anyone consistently? You may also need to try something similar for classes.
No.6566
>>6565
I'm just a jokester/jester that makes them all laugh, they probably wouldn't. Plus it's not like we all share the same shift every day, the schedule is all random. No one lives near me except for one girl I also went to high school with, and she's kinda crazy.
Asking people for favours is literally impossible to begin with. Plus in the end, none of this is worth all the effort. It hardly was when I had a car.
No.6567
>>6566
>I'm just a jokester/jester that makes them all laugh, they probably wouldn't
People love that kind of person. It's worth trying if work was worth trying.
>none of this is worth all the effort
Things will get very painful. You can't NEET forever.
No.6568
>>6560
Fuck dude. Is it completely totaled? Can you afford to repair ig? It might sound like a retarded idea but you might need another loan or ask the mechanic if they have like a payment plan. It's the same thing here you are stranded without a car, you need it or yeah you might as well give up.
>>6564
That's a nice space jam you gotta Goin fam.
No.6569
>>6567
>You can't NEET forever
No, but you can NEET until you die!
No.6570
>>6568
The car runs. My mum drove in front of me with blinkers on and escorted me home very slowly. It might just be all cosmetic stuff but the entire front is ruined. The grill is pushed in, hood flew off, headlight gone, front bumper kinda disappeared and flew off a cliff.
It will be expensive. If I get another loan I won't be able to even make enough money if I worked every free hour I had. Well maybe I could, but it would mean I work every single day, and I wouldn't have time for homework whatsoever.
No.6571
>>6569
I can't argue with this. Dying is much harder than it seems like it would be, though. I don't know what you want, and I don't know what rewards lie waiting for you in a paycheck. I'm just sure you don't want to be homeless. It's worth struggling while you can, though, so you can make the choice of living or dying after you know how good living can be. It would be a waste to die missing the most important things that can happen to you.
No.6572
>>6570
It might not be that bad then. you don't need to fix everything. Just repair what you can piece by piece.What matters is if it runs.And I'm sure you can get cheap parts from junk yards, thats what my dad does. You can get through this and continue what your doing or you can give up default on your loan, fail school, and be a neet.Its your choice, people have gotten through worse.I want to see you get better but I can't make you.
https://soundcloud.com/macross-82-99/anri-remember-summer-days-82-99-bootleg
No.6573
>CS department servers are down so project will be delayed 24 hours
WEW
No.6574
>>6573
WEW lad. Our servers are pretty good, never had them down for long.
No.6575
This semester has had a pretty shitty start. I need badly to do laundry and my sleep schedule has already started pushing going to bed at 2 am. I do almost none of the work or readings assigned to me. I'm only taking three classes. The most troubling thing is that none of this bothers me.
No.6576
>>6575
Why aren't you doing the work? No motivation or is it too hard? You should worry, shifted sleeping and not working is just the start of going downhill. I hope you are at least going to the lectures.Do the classes not interest you? You need to do the work man or you are wasting your time.
>says the one that hasn't done anything in a month
No.6577
>>6576
>I hope you are at least going to the lectures
Yeah I am. I'll scrape by.
The work isn't too hard, I'm just procrastinating like mad. I think it's the benzos, honestly. See >>6245. Good thing I'm tapering off of them, hopefully without too much excitotoxicity.
Seriously though, go to class. Do you live with your parents? If so, why are they not addressing this?
No.6578
>>6577
Oh yeah I understand that.I think a lot of people worry what they are doing with their lives and why even bother.I really don't know what I am doing either. You are in CS right?.Have you looked in to anything you want to work in or got an internship? I didn't want to do CS either but after I did the research over the summer I am at least interested in it now. You still have time right senpai? I am sure you can find something you want to do.
I still live at home. My parents are gone before I am suppose to go to school so they think I am going.We really don't get involved with each other so they haven't asked or noticed anything. I will go to school if not tomorrow Friday for sure. I know I need to go and do the work as should you.
No.6579
>>6578
>I will go to school if not tomorrow Friday for sure
Good to hear.
>Have you looked in to anything you want to work in or got an internship?
Not really. I just like coding. I should probably get into that process though.
No.6580
Ohayou everyone, good luck this week.
No.6581
Goodnight all. I'm very tired but will have trouble sleeping because I drunk coffee five hours ago
No.6582
>try to play racing game
>feel queasy and uneasy and stop after 3 minutes
Uh oh maybe I have PTSD, can I get super NEETbux for it
>>6572
What matters is if it's legal to drive. It might run, but there's so much that needs to be done and I only make like $40 on a working night. And I need to buy food and everything.
No.6583
>tfw spent all day yesterday playing rust after getting home from work
>cookie clicker got a sizeable update
>sides were tickled by stumping in NH and all the huffpost buttblast
OHIO OHIO IT SOUNDS LIKE THE LOT OF YOU NEED TO DOUBLE DOWN ON THINGS. Kranon needs to ACTUALLY go to school instead of just tell us he's going to, board-owner chan needs to keep working hard at getting off the benzos and stop procrastinating, and bratposter needs to not worry so much about what he posts!
No.6584
>>6579
Yeah coding is fun, but you still need to find a use for it. What languages do you know? Maybe you can find something from looking at what type of programs you like to code the most.I dunno, you'll make it fam.
>>6582
Fair enough. I am just saying the car isn't unusable and can be fixed.I hope things can work out for you.
>>6583
CANT STUMP TRUMP
I will go senpai. I am going to catch up on work and psyche myself up so I can go on Friday.
No.6585
>15F right now with light snow
>below 30F all week
>5-8 inches forcasted for Monday
WEW LADS, maybe I don't have to go to school yet
No.6586
>>6583
>sides were tickled by stumping in NH
>mfw didn't even vote
Also I know I shouldn't be so worried about what I post but it just can't really be helped. I'm always going to overthink everything I say but I think as long as I still make post than I'm winning in a way by not letting my anxieties stop me
No.6587
>tfw physically suffering so much you are actually contemplating suicide.
I want to give up.
I don't want to give up.
This really sucks.
Help.
No.6588
>>6586
Well you arent of age yet to even vote yet so its fine.Thats a good way to look at it, we will always overthink things. But not letting the thoughts get to you will help and maybe even get you to stop the thoughts a little.
>>6587
How are you fam?What symptoms do you have?
No.6589
>>6588
Last time I checked 18 is old enough to vote you nerd. Actually someone in my family wanted me yo vote but I just don't care enough about it to bother getting registered
No.6590
>>6589
whatever dork. Yeah I cant be bothered to go register either, I never had a good time at government buildings.Might have to this year though, I need to look up how to do a write in so I dont have to leave the house.
No.6591
>voting
>ever
Might as well write who you want to win on a piece of paper and throw it in the trash. Trite but true.
No.6592
>>6591
Yeah you aren't wrong but it might be a close election this year so eh its whatever.
No.6593
>>6591
Pretty much. Doesn't help that I don't really care for any the candidates
No.6594
>>6588
Atopic dermatitis, 95% coverage. As of right now, skin is weeping all over. It's shivering on the surface. It's sweltering on the inside. There is no escape from this discomfort except to endure it.
I have to constantly medicate everyday but it just ends up going in a cycle anyways.
I want an out.
No.6595
>>6594
Uncontrollable itching is fucking terrible. Do something distracting like playing videogames.
No.6596
>>6594
Fuck dude. Can you take a shower or would that hurt? Otherwise I would say just take something to fall asleep itching sucks dude. I get itchy alot to have pretty sensitive skin. Hang in there fam
No.6597
>>6595
I am, but distractions can only go so far. I don't think or shall I say, I haven't found anything that fully distracts from constant discomfort such as shivering. Problem is my skin is too broken up and thin that it releases body heat like a water tap and your body tries to compensate by shivering and producing more body heat. Add weeping into that and it amplifies it, making the situation a lot worse and there's nothing much you can really do about it either other than to sit it out and endure.
>>6596
Taking a shower hurts, it hurts a lot sometimes in fact. It depends on how much wounds you have at that given point of time really. Well in my case that's 100% of the time it's going to hurt, just to varying degrees. I've had ones that were so bad that I just slumped to the ground and just curl up in resignation, yeah, it hurts.
I would love to sleep past everything but when you're weeping all over the place, that makes even sleep, my only respite, extremely difficult.
No.6598
>>6597
I am sorry fam. I would want to give up to if I was you.
No.6599
>>6598
>I would want to give up to if I was you.
It doesn't help that a dozen others have told me the same thing. Is this a testament to my tenacity or sheer stupidity? Both are not a comforting thought.
My time will come. Maybe soon, maybe.
No.6600
>>6599
What's wrong with being stupid or tenacious? You are more strength than most of us. We can'talk fathom what sort of pain you are going through, but you still endure it. Don't believe in yourself, believe in us that believe in you fam! You can preserve a little more can't you?
No.6601
After watching scrubs I have been thinking it would be pretty nice to have a terminal illness. Something like leukemia that is certain to kill me in a few years. I wouldn't get blamed or get shit for giving up and being comfy until I die. I would get social interactions from people and force my family to not right around me. And most importantly I would die. Chemo might suck but it would be worth it.
No.6602
>>6601
>Chemo might suck but it would be worth it.
Nah it wouldn't be. A lot of chemo patients starve to death because it's too painful to eat. It would be nice to die in hospice care, but dying under a chemo regimen would be horrible.
Also, would you want to die if you were comfy and got social interaction and your family didn't fight around you? Aren't you afraid of wanting to live and losing the ability to do so?
No.6603
>building I live in is being sold
>just got told a real estate agent is coming in a week (at most was supposed to be today)
>my room is a fucking disaster, the rest of the apartment isn't much better
Fuck me
No.6604
Oh wait there's also some good news though, because of some of the shit I said on Sunday my family called the school I went to before for me. I'm supposed to be talking to them tommorow to figure out what I'm going to do also I made banana bread.
No.6605
>>6604
It's great that you're doing something. Good luck.
No.6606
>>6605
Well I haven't REALLY done anything yet but thanks anyway.
No.6607
>>6606
you told your parents right?You plan to talk to the school right? Thats taking action fam! You have done all that without realizing it!
No.6608
>>6607
I guess but it was only because I was drunk that I was able to say anything, honestly I would have just kept on not saying anything until I was forced into doing something otherwise.
I don't know I guess it doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things but I still feel like it's ridiculous that I can't even ask my family a simple favor without being plastered, something is weird in my head.
No.6609
>>6608
I have the same problem so I can't say if its weird. Even if you didn't mean to tell them, you still did, did they get mad at you?You will be fine fam.
No.6610
holy fuck 8chan is being such a bitch today
No.6611
>>6609
No they aren't mad at all, probably the opposite actually but that just makes me feel worse about how withdrawn I am. I have no good reason to be
No.6612
>>6611
Don't beat yourself up. You don't need a reason to be all sad and shit. It perfectly fine to be withdrawn from even people that care about you,its just how we are. But since you know they care about you and won't get mad for you talking to the. You should rely on them more and not be afraid to talk to them. Just keep that in mind if you ever find yourself in a dark place, there people that careally about you, nobody is mad you need to be alone.
No.6613
I wish I could make people happy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3YdzMy593Y
>>6611
Don't be ashamed. If you feel like you should talk to your family more, then do so. As long as you try you can forgive yourself, so try.
No.6614
No.6615
>>6613
Me too. I doubt I ever will though, I wonder what its like for people to be happy around you?
What the fuck is this? It looks so cheesy, is it like an amateur movie or some shit video game ad?
>>6614
I imagine she is curled up on the floor wondering where the wan wans and pawns went.She might be dead by now this long without wan wans.Maybe her onii chan saved her.
No.6616
>>6613
I don't know if I should talk to them more, the problem is me not being able to talk to them when I really need to or should. Other than the stuff I've already been over with not being able to open up to anyone I'm also especially weird about asking for things, like if i need clothes and they have even asked me what I need but I just kind of freeze up or walk away. I don't ask for anything for holidays anymore, it just feels wrong for some reason and I honestly don't want anything very much.
>I wish I could make people happy
That's a pretty common wish, one that I have as well but I think it's one of those things where you have to sort yourself out first, imagine how you would feel if someone was always trying to make you feel good but they weren't very happy themselves and didn't really work on it either. At the very least you have to pretend, having someone who doesn't seem content trying to make you happy seems like you will always feel guilty or have your positive emotions undercut by those of pity.
No.6617
>>6615
>It looks so cheesy, is it like an amateur movie or some shit video game ad?
It's a shitty ad for a prog rock concept album. I thought it was hilarious.
BT probably got bored of this place and moved on to real life things or some fantasy role play friend group. I just want her to know somebody cares if she's going through something bad right now.
No.6618
>>6616
>it just feels wrong for some reason
Again, don't be ashamed. Your family wants you to be happy and self reliant, don't feel guilty for seeking help from them. It will probably make them feel better.
You're probably right in the second paragraph to an extent. People don't want the aid of a martyr. At the same time, doing things for others can make you feel better about yourself. And really, when people tell you to work on yourself, focus on your own happiness, at what point do you stop? Being self absorbed for altruistic ends can wind up being an excuse.
No.6619
>>6618
I don't know, it's easier said than done. It's hard to not feel ashamed.
I'm not trying to say that you have to be crazy happy but if you're miserable to the point where everyone can tell then you need to work on that first, I don't really believe everyone can be happy alone, I'm not someone that pushes the idea that you should be 100% solitary and live only for your hobbies, if that works for you great but it's difficult for most. I don't know I guess I'm just saying you need to reach a comfortable place first before trying to aid others in any major way, also I don't think making someone else happy and making yourself are mutually exclusive if it sounded like I did
No.6620
>>6617
She told us that her Internet was being changed and wouldn't get it back for a few months apparent ly isps take months to do anything in bribing but I wouldn't be surprised if she just said that to be nice about leaving.
>>6619
>you need to reach a comfortable place first broke trying to aid others
[Spoiler]Yeah I have come to realize that. I feel bad for trying to help you guys and give advice since I know I think the same way and have the same problems and just as clueless. I also feel like I bring everyone down and show don't bother trying to make friends and talk since I am till a mess right now. Tbh I have thought about cutting everything and go back to my neet cocoon to probably die or something. I just don't know how to find happiness anymore.I think I would be fine being 100% alone but it could be the end of me I don't know I'll probably find out soon enough. [/spoiler]
No.6621
>>6620
I'm a genius and after you guys told me how to spoiler well whatever just end me fams
No.6622
>>6620
You cut that quote short and changes the meaning immensely. Little stuff like this is fine in my opinion, it's hard for people in better places to give advice you know? It's weird, you can't really bring the good advice to yourself but when you talk to other people in the same situation it's easy, something about the 3rd person perspective. I feel bad about it too, most of the things I say on here are hypocritical infact I honestly had basically given up for most of the time I posted here but still say shit like do your best even though I don't try at all, it's part of the reason why I stopped posting for a few months
When I had friends I frequently felt like an extra wheel, like no one really wanted me around for the most part and that made it very easy for me to drop contact. Even now I sometimes feel like I should just stop posting here I think I could be alone but I really don't want to be, I've always really struggled with the fact that most people found me annoying and now I think it's been engrained into my thought processes to interpret all kinds of miniscule shit as annoyance. But going into a NEET cocoon is pointless, you probably won't die and you won't make any progress, all you do is delay the inevatible and exasperate all of your problems.
No.6623
Just got back from programming a speed reader. It took longer than it should have because I had no idea how to use the language I was operating in but it was really pretty easy.
>>6619
That's all fair. I don't think I seem visibly miserable, at least.
No.6624
>>6622
I did ? Sorry I guess I didn't understand what you were saying, as usual I make a fool out of myself.
[spoiler]Yeah I think it is easier to say things to other than yourself or even do what you say.I told you guys, I haven't gone to school in a month, I haven't done work, etc.. I have all but given up. I should be in no place to try and help you guys. Its hypocritical of me to want to help and encourage others but don't want to work myself.Even right now I am writing this post for no reason instead of doing my schoolwork. I am just beyond retarded.
I feel like an extra too. Even in my life I always felt like an extra. Like I see others live their lives and I am just filler in the background.And I have done the same, I feel unwanted and taking up space so I drift away from people that ever bothered to talk to me.I feel so awful whenever I post on 4chan/8chan/skype/etc.. I always think to myself like" wow what a faggot who cares what you think, why would anyone want to read what you write, why am I so full of myself."
I dunno giving up might not help me and make things wore but it would relieve some of my anxiety and I could drop all pretenses and just laze around all day. There wouldn't be any problems if I no longer cared tbh. [/spoiler]
I don't know what my point was. I like you guys but I hate myself more so I dunno. Do your best everyone.Goodnight
No.6625
>>6621
>>6622
Neither of you are holding this board back at all. In fact if both of you left it would be pretty much dead. I like talking to both of you, and you're a large part of the meager social interaction I get. Don't come here because of that, but don't leave because you feel like you're hurting the board. You aren't.
>>6624
Goodnight. Please go to school tomorrow, for just one day at least. You have dreams, don't give up on them.
I'm not sure why all that spoilertext isn't working.
>>6622
Don't feel disgusted with yourself. We're all hypocrites. Try to take the advice you give, but even if you gave up entirely I would forgive and welcome you because I like you a lot and I understand feeling like everything worth struggling for in life is impossible to get.
No.6626
>>6625
>because I like you a lot and I understand feeling like everything worth struggling for in life is impossible to get.
Christ this sounds melodramatic.
No.6627
>>6600
>You can preserve a little more can't you?
Yes I can but will I is the question that has always lingered at the back of the mind because like you and everyone else, we are uncertain of the void that is the future.
I EXIST TO COMBAT THE AYYYS!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c83QEeaM9SM
>>6620
>>6622
>>6624
>>6625
The world would be a more boring place without you. Ever little single input means something, even if it's deemed stupid, by you, or anyone as a matter of fact. But the fact that you are here along with us keeps us going in some way shape or form. Being by yourself would only make things worse for yourself and everyone despite what you think. Did you know that the chinese character for men is not just two chicken scratch lines? It is constructed on 2 lines, a short one and a long one, both of which are leaning on each other balancing each other out. It don't matter if you're a manlet or the tallest dude on earth, without one or the other, you will fall. We support one another and that's how we keep on going.
SO KEEP ON TRUCKING AND KEEP DOING YOUR BEST. DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT, WE CAN ONLY DO BETTER WHEN WE KNOWN BETTER. SO GET BACK UP AND GO OUT THERE, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT. WE KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
No.6628
Every single one of you is in trouble for talking about giving up like you're actually gonna do it. ALL OF YOU. None of you are allowed to give up, there's always time to turn things around and have a nice life. ALWAYS. So cheer up anons! You have to remember, sitting there whining and complaining without actually doing anything is the worst thing you can do to help your situation.
Or maybe you all just miss me THAT much, and since I've been busy doing other stuff you can't deal? IS THAT IT?! (^:
No.6629
>>6627
Also side note to add onto this, the stupid shit is the best sometimes. I mean, just ask Dango or Kranon, some of the stupid shit we get up to and it's fucking awesome even though we're being massive fucking idiots.
SO DON'T SWEAT IT NERDAPOTAMI. EVEN IF YOU'RE STUPID AND WE POKE FUN AT YOU FOR IT THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR. AND WE'RE LITERALLY ALL FRIENDS HERE.
No.6630
Dang okay I see how it is.
No.6631
>>6630
I appreciate what you said dude, actually I appreciate what everyone said I just didn't really have a good response.
No.6632
>>6627
>the world would be a more boring place without you
same to you dork
>>6629
>>6630
Thanks senpai, I just woke up and am rearranging my room to distract myself.Its kind of hard to respond to people telling you things like keep living and do your best.
No.6633
Remember!
Do not take your own life!
Just take a nigger or jew life!!!
No.6634
>>6633
But that's illegal anon
No.6635
>>6634
Nothing illegal about cleansing the world!!!!!
No.6636
Apparently its Valentines Day tomorrow. I always hated the "holiday" and I usually ignore it and silently resent everyone I see happy, but this year I am pretty much numb to it.Love, happiness. relationships, friends, etc.. all seem laughable to me. I guess its easier to pretend all that stuff doesn't happen in the world.Hug your mothers everyone.
No.6637
>>6636
Every holiday of any sort has become a chore for me. The only nice thing is getting time off, and I don't have that too often at my school.
>all seem laughable to me
Tell me the joke
No.6638
>>6636
Also, please go to class on Monday.
No.6639
>>6637
I actually really love holidays.Its just holidays like Valentines Day and 4th of July that are all about couples really don't sit well with me.
>tell me the joke
Friends, a gf, being happy.
>>6638
I will. I planned on going yesterday honest but my body is a bit dumb and woke up too late.I am kinda hoping we get snowed out but probably not.
No.6640
>>6639
>I will. I planned on going yesterday honest but my body is a bit dumb and woke up too late
Set several alarms. Make it a pain in the ass to ignore.
>4th of July
>all about couples
?
No.6641
>>6636
For some reason Valentines Dayy never particularly bothered me, the whole thing just seems contrived, the idea of a designated day to be romantic is retarded
No.6642
>>6640
I have slept through tornadoes and tropical storms, alarms do nothing for me. But yeah I get what you are saying, I just need to get motivated to get proper sleep.
4th of July is either families being happy and obnoxious or couples being happy and obnoxious.Have you ever been to a fireworks show? Its happy couples central.
>>6641
Yeah it is, but fake or not I hate people being public with their emotions, especially love and happiness.
No.6643
>>6642
I guess I get that but I don't go out in public or anywhere with couples around so it isn't really an issue for me
No.6644
Board is currently dead because everybody's out for the Saturday night life. I'll be back tomorrow, my phone is blowing up and I want to start Valentine's day with my dick in a pussy.
No.6645
>>6644
Kek good one. Except for the god king chad Yuianon I doubt any of us is getting any.
No.6646
>>6645
>2cool2care gymbro calling anybody else Chad
Please
No.6647
ur all normies stfu im tru robot
No.6648
>>6647
>claims to be tru robot
>brushes his teeth
ELL O ELL
No.6650
>>6648
I brushed today for the first time in about a week
No.6651
>>6646
>>6647
come on fams.I am the truest robot of all of us. I bet you guys have left your house in the past month, what a bunch of .
>>6650
thats not healthy. I am beyond lazy too but at least do it like every 2 or 3 days, a week can cuck you up.
No.6653
>>6651
I used to go months before brushing, yet the dentist said my teeth are super strong
No.6654
>>6651
One week is not going to do much damage, , provided your diet isn't like a bag of jolly ranchers and a 2-liter of coke or something. Teeth are not that fragile
No.6656
Brush your teeth at least before you go to bed. You will wind up having to pay money or put up with pain if you eat anything with sugar and don't brush your teeth daily.
If you care about how your breath smells, brush your tongue and the roof of your mouth too.
No.6657
>>6652
>I just can't. I don't know. Sorry.
Everybody forgives you. Thank you for everything. Good luck getting past what you're going through now.
No.6658
>>6657
>everybody forgives
no i dont
No.6659
>>6655
Thankfully I have had next to no issues other than when the whole site goes down since I became volunteer
>>6656
That ship has long sailed for me tbh
No.6660
>>6652
Its ok fam. You don't need to talk about it, we aren't making you.
>>6653
>>6654
Well yeah I have gone a month without brushing, but I feel gross after a few days.
No.6661
>>6658
Shut up nobody
>>6659
Start brushing your teeth even if it hurts. It will save money, even if you already are already in for a couple thousand dollars.
No.6663
>>6662
>There's no reason to forgive me
Who the hell would blame you for that? And you do more to cheer people up than everyone else combined. If anybody has helped somebody here it's you.
No.6664
>>6662
>I've done literally nothing for anyone
Shut up senpai. You don't know how wrong that is.you have done plenty for us.
No.6665
>>6661
It doesn't really hurt but honestly I don't think it's going to help. They are worse than you're probably thinking they are, hopefully my lack of doctor visits will result in premature death before my lack of dentist visits bites me in the ass any worse
No.6666
Helping is gay anyway because independence is key
That's why I'm the winner of life
No.6667
>>6666
If you were truly independent you wouldn't tell us.
>>6665
It will definitely help, and if you do nothing it will bite you in the ass.
No.6668
>>6667
Yes I would
Because I am helping others explaining that accepting help is dumb and everyone should be SUPER independent
Make sense now?!
No.6669
>>6667
It already cost way more than I can afford to fix them so I don't see the difference. But I'll try to do it more often I guess not like I'm too busy or anything
No.6671
>>6670
No fuck you. We are being genuine. don't undermine how we feel. We are truly happy we have you. Do you know how bad things would be without you? I know exactly how I would be without you guys.
No.6672
>>6670
I do not think they are lying , you've seen what this place is like when you stop yelling at us for awhile and it's not like this is the first time similar things have been sais. I know you don't believe what you do counts as help because you aren't physically doing anything or making us do anything but encouraging people is worth a lot, especially when no one else will.
You're really fucking stubborn about this though so I'm not going to try to convince you further just putting in my 2¢
No.6673
>>6669
>It already cost way more than I can afford to fix them so I don't see the difference
Live with your parents and work and you'll have enough money someday. It will be better than the constant pain that will come otherwise.
>>6668
People help others to feel good. Dopamine release from the nucleus accumbens rewires the forebrain to associate certain outcomes and experiences as desirable, which is used to calculate future action. You are trying to help people because, in some way- altruism, superiority, attention- it satisfies you to do so. So, you are not a pure independent.
No.6674
>>6673
I'm independently acting by abusing others by fake helping them!!! It's independent, just happens to involve other human beings, in a non-dependency way!!!!!!!
No.6675
>>6674
From that perspective everybody is independent, tho
Also, you aren't fake helping people necessarily, even if your help is selfish
Shoulda taken debate in high school Badger
No.6676
>>6673
Yeah well my parent isn't well off enough to support me really. If I work I'm going to have to at least partially pay for things like rent and food most likely. I'm pretty sure the same is true of the other one but I pretty much never talk to them. It's not like I'm going to be able to get a good job on top of that and even if I go to college it will be a community one and cost even more money or if I pick up some shitty trade that I don't want to do it's going to take years for me to start making a decent amount that I can save up. That's not even factoring in the fact that I'm going to be even more miserable if I don't spend some money on entertainment of some kind and the teeth are just going to get worse. By the time "someday" comes I'll be in my 30's
Maybe this post is venturing into the territory of excuses but it seems hopeless from my perspective
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No.6678
>>6677
You forgot the (You)
No.6679
>>6675
You should have taken shut up in shut up school, shut upper!!!!!!!!
No.6680
>>6676
That fucking sucks. Picking up a trade would probably be the fastest way to a disposable income, but it sounds like you're after more than money. I'll again recommend that you try programming out, if you build up a portfolio you can possibly get an okay job and I think it's pretty fun. At the very least, try to develop some skill while you have a lot of time. Learning a language would be great, and if you succeed you'll feel proud of yourself.
No.6681
>>6680
I guess. Looking at my situation just makes me upset, my starting point wasn't the greatest but it's a lot fucking worse than it could have been if I tried or my parents had tried harder instead of just letting me be a retard.
I don't understand how people can look at it and say anything positive other than "at least you're not in a third world country/blind/homeless" type stuff, I feel like people who tell me I should just kill myself are more honest.
As for learning a language I'm not even very good at English so I probably wouldn't be able to, besides I won't have the time once I'm stuck in my impending dead end job.
Whatever I'm going to stop posting for tonight because it's just making me feel bad, I'll reply tomorrow if necessary.
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No.6682
>>6681
I'm no good with tough love or anything like it. I feel dishonest telling you that it's worth it to struggle, and I understand wanting to ignore your life while you can. Have a good night. Brush your teeth.
No.6683
>>6681
Most of our starting points aren't ideal. We don't come from royalty or in manors.Some are better off than others, but no one is born equal, the world isn't fair.The people that tell be thankful for not being born worse off is not the seeing the context, things are relative. Your condition is localized, not global. Its where we go from where we are born is what matters.The american dream isn't a meme, here people can go anywhere and do anything, I like to think that at least. Sure people will have advantages and better resources, but the opportunity is still there.
We all fuck up growing up. I should have worked harder, I should have done this, etc.. Don't dwell on the past. Its done, what do we do now?You know your situation better than I do, but I am sure you can find a way to be where you want to be. What do you do when you don't have the resources to do something? you find a work around, compromises to get there.Not all roads lead to where you are going. You don't absolutely need money, school, a car, etc to do things.It helps, but you canf ind alternatives. Get a bike, moped, use the bus, get to community college, work blue collar, work on a farm, etc..There are things out there if you look and are willing to compromise or wait and try again later for what you want.
Maybe I am wrong and full of shit. It wouldn't be the first time.I don't know if we can make it, just dying seems easier.I gave myself the deadline of be in grad school or in a good job by 25 or I would just end it, and it seems harder everyday wondering if I will make it
I wrote a bunch of nonsense sorry. I am going to penalize myself for this drivel and not post for a bit. Do your best everyone.
No.6684
>>6683
>wrote a bunch of nonsense sorry. I am going to penalize myself for this drivel and not post for a bit
Actually out all the stuff you've written here this probably among the most sensible sans the spoiler. Not that I agree with everything you said but it is far from nonsense
No.6685
Hope you guys had as nice a day as you could, all things considered.
No.6686
>>6685
I hope you start feeling better. You've been uncharacteristically downcast.
I need to go to bed soon. Dark Souls PVP is surprisingly active.
No.6687
>>6686
I dunno what you're talkin about, I've just been busy with lots of vidya and haven't had time to post.
me on the right tbh.
No.6688
ALSO BTW IF YOU GUYS HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO GO SEE DEADPOOL YOU REALLY SHOULD IT WAS FUCKING GREAT.
I went and saw it with my brother, and it was pretty much everything I wanted it to be fams. Fucking hilarious, and not the cringey reddit type humor. It was 100% actual deadpool, tons of fourth wall breaking, etc.
No.6689
>>6688
Watch Inside Llewyn Davis you scrub
No.6690
>>6689
WHAT IS THAT AND DO YOU WANNA GET BEAT UP IRL
No.6691
>>6690
>DO YOU WANNA GET BEAT UP IRL
Only if ur a cute girl
Also, I'm going to see Dead Pool soon, that complimentary month of reddit gold for anybody who buys a ticket in theaters is too good to pass up.
No.6692
>>6691
No I'm not a cute girl. That's also very lewd. Get out.
>reddit shit
I don't know if you're joking or not but GET OUT.
No.6693
>>6692
>complimentary month of reddit gold for anybody who buys a ticket in theaters
>I don't know if you're joking or not
No.6694
>>6693
I don't go to reddit fam but I'm sure they do a lot of stupid bullshit. I don't even knoe what reddit gold is.
No.6695
>>6694
>I don't even knoe what reddit gold is.
Neither do I, but it's alluded to almost constantly on 4chan.
No.6696
>>6695
Well whatever it is it's for gays. Clearly. Now cross your fingers tomorrow is an easy day at work.
>tfw still no mention of hiring me since the interview months ago
>tfw got screwed out of over half my food stamps for the month because of the government's mistakes
No.6703
>>6696
I have no advice to give, but that really sucks and I hope your situation gets better.
No.6704
Oh yeah also I am going to find out about school/G.E.D stuff this Friday, I am meeting with someone and I haven't even started cleaning yet
I''m already regretting doing this, I just want to stay in my room and not do anything
No.6705
>>6704
Good luck. It cheers me up to see you're trying.
No.6706
nigger nigger nigger nigger
No.6707
>>6706
Welcome to the board, stranger (or Bandage)
No.6708
>>6707
ＷＨＡＴ？ ＷＨＯ ＢＡＮＤＡＧＥ ＩＳ ＯＦ ＹＯＵ ＳＰＥＡＫ？
No.6709
>>6703
No advice necessary fam, it isn't a fixable situation. Just another bump in the road gnawmeens.
>>6704
>working on getting things sorted out for your life
>"I'm already regretting it"
DO YOU WANNA
GET BEATEN UP
IRL
CUZ YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO REGRET THAT.
No.6710
>>6708
I heard your voice on /r9k/ today. You sound pretty normal.
No.6712
>>6711
>Is this the voice whoring thread now?
Do you mean, "Did you hear me in the voice whoring thread on /r9k/?", or "Is this current thread currently the voice whoring thread?"
Because yes to the first, I don't care to the second.
No.6713
>>6711
I hope not.I hate voice threads,I don't understand how people can speak into a mic knowing people will hear it. And I really hate my voice.
You sound like a dork (^:
No.6714
>>6710
>>6712
Oh, you go to voice threads on /r9k/ huh?
No.6715
>>6713
>And I really hate my voice
This makes me want to hear it.
No.6716
>>6715
He sounds relatively normal if I recall tbh. I've heard him say a couple things (^:
He's super shy though.
No.6717
>>6715
Fuck no. Ask Yui he has heard me I think. I feel like I sound too southern and really hate it.
No.6718
>>6712
You have a weird way of interpreting words
>>6713
I like my voice, rarely do I feel like sharing it, though. People have always complimented my reading and presentation skills back in school, so I actually have some confidence.
>dork
https://clyp.it/z50r5ma4
>>6715
Even if you heard and genuinely thought he sounded fine, it's not like he would believe it, and then he'll feel bad, regardless, so no, you don't want to hear.
>>6714
One time I spoke to a female for the entirety of the thread, then she was going to bed, asked for my Skype, and I told her to fuck off and never spoke with her again
No.6719
>>6718
Yeah I remember in one vocaroo thread I had a conversation with a right cocky bitch of a gal about video games, and then it turned out she was some kind of moderately famous model. Disappeared pretty quick after she got called out. Was funny.
No.6720
>>6719
gg m8 dib my hat 2 u feels good bein chads huh?
No.6721
No.6722
>>6721
>not a super deep Makoto-like voice
No.6724
>>6721
>>6723
Three months she says.
No.6725
>>6724
Hasn't happened yet.
Had an autism break down.
I will go soon.
And be gone.
Is this a haiku.
Who knows.
I know.
Its not.
No.6726
>>6724
she's back because I'm posting, of course
No.6727
>>6725
Literally rest in rip. At least you have some time again for video games then before internet is kill. Welcome back BT.
>>6726
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1IdCsumDvti
No.6728
>>6725
its not but you tried. Wait that >>6721
was you? I thought you had a britbong accent? Why would you lie to us like that?
No.6729
>>6726
I think this might be true. Poor BT.
>>6721
Good voice.
>>6725
Good poem.
No.6730
>>6727
>hates weed
>sounds like a stoner from Alabama
No.6731
>>6728
That is britbong you pleb.
>>6727
>welcome back
Not for long. I will be gone.
No.6732
>>6730
Yeah I'm definitely beating you up irl. I DON'T HAVE EVEN THE SLIGHTEST SOUTHERN ACCENT
No.6733
>>6732
no you sound southern as hecko
No.6735
>>6730
>>6733
He sounds like an average rural midwestern accent tbh. southern would elongate vowels more than he does.
>>6731
>not rounding and cutting vowels
>not splicing and running words together
>using that cute voice rather than harsh cockney
>are you even trying
>???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
No.6736
>>6732
I was raised in Texas and I sound less Southern than you.
>>6731
Bye. I enjoyed talking to you and hope you live a life you appreciate.
No.6737
>>6734
wow that was horrible…………
>vocaroo
pathetic
>>6735
https://clyp.it/ds0pcp4x
No.6738
YOU KNEW THE RISKS GETTING VOICES INVOLVED HERE BANDAGE
>>6731
http://vocaroo.com/i/s189LRXIHTUp
Once you're here you're here for good.
>>6736
Unpossible. Like rickychan said up there it's an average midwestern accent. Obviously anyone born and raised in texas either makes a conscious effort to hide it or has a sicknasty southern twang accent.
No.6739
>>6736
https://clyp.it/izp04qkg
Remember to do your best everywan.
No.6740
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>>6737
Yeah it is a bit cheating, but I think I would have still gotten it. Appalachian accent is pretty easy to figure out, plus there are quite a few people in my area with it.
>>6736
Me and yui have pretty similar dialects since we are in the same dialect group, but he has a more of a drawl in his accent. It is pretty common in more rural areas.
>>6739
That sounds more brit. Bye BT, do your best!
No.6742
>>6741
what do you mean?The Texan accent has 3 types ranging from Hank Hill, bayou, and general western. the Hank hill one is most people think about and yeah they do pitch their H's and elongate their s and z's, but saying zed is a brit/canadian thing. Why did you say that faggot?
No.6743
>>6740
Look at this fuckin nerd with his map and shit. Damn.
>>6741
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0D9FeLMTPwe
>mfw occasional popping from my mic
No.6744
>>6739
Nothing to apologize for. For whatever reason you left, I respect you for not telling us about it. I'm not being sarcastic, that's genuinely pretty mature.
>>6738
>Obviously anyone born and raised in texas either makes a conscious effort to hide it or has a sicknasty southern twang accent.
https://clyp.it/3riwcctb
No.6745
>>6741
yui has clarified you were talking about brit accents. I apologize banadage kun.
No.6746
>>6743
why you talking shit about this glorious map? I genuinely love it and look at it a lot tbh.
>>6744
General western accent. I didn't hear any southern affects in it, but might be too small a sample to tell.
http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2013/12/20/sunday-review/dialect-quiz-map.html?_r=0
I want to see if I am right.
No.6747
>>6744
I immediately thought of like a college librarian or teacher's assistant or something like that tbh.
>implying any of us have anything clever to say
>implying I don't just spew verbal garbage at all times
No.6748
>>6745
it's not okay, jew
>>6743
>tfw tons of horrible static and have to remove it in audacity every time
https://clyp.it/4ad0bild
>>6744
This cannot be any more of a standard human male voice of your age group
No.6749
>>6748
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1pZ5XQ6cMVI
tbh I would do that but I'm way too lazy. This mic is a pretty good mic too, it's a shame.
No.6750
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No.6751
>>6747
>I immediately thought of like a college librarian or teacher's assistant or something like that tbh.
This made me laugh pretty hard.
>>6750
I got pic related. It lit up my hometown.
No.6754
>>6753
You sound like such a nerd cabbage
No.6755
>>6753
Do you pronounce wash as warsher, or water as wadder? Is your family full of coal miners?
>>6752
wew. Way to not have the cot-caught merger like a faggot.
No.6756
>>6749
https://clyp.it/xirdixzd
post my post 8chan you fucking nigger
No.6757
>>6754
what the heck
no I don't
I sound like Chad
>>6755
I say wash, wadder, "y'ello", cray on, cara mel, and pea con
No.6758
>>6757
>pea con
>not pick on
No.6761
>>6757
Kek no. this is what a chad sounds like.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPnLMslmUXQ
You sound like an inbred hill jack.
>cray on
>not corwn
>cara mel
>not carm-el
what are you doing nigga?
>>6758
shut up cowboy
No.6763
>>6761
>cowboy
You're just jealous that you won't ride a horse. I don't even know what kind of pronunciation you're driving at when you write corwn, I just know it looks stupid.
No.6764
>>6758
Actually I do kinda say this, it's just normally people dispute between peCAN or peCON, so that's what I was focused on
>>6759
https://clyp.it/b4sz4q3h
>>6761
>corwn
Are we even talking about the same word
I was talking about crayon, the colouring utensil for mini-humans
https://clyp.it/mldlws1p
No.6765
>>6763
I have rode a horse tbh. Do you not know what Kentucky is famous for? In like an hour I am am in bluegrass lands. I meant crown, not corwn.
Actually you sound a bit like DouchebagChocloat, which makes sense since Mid Florida has similar accent pitching to Appalachian.
The alliteration you mean is pe-kahn, pe-con, and pick-on. Pe-kahn is low land south, pick-on is midland and western, pick-on is inland and bayou.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Owa5KcQ9Mxc
No.6766
>>6760
Good voice. You sound like a true normalfag.
No.6767
>>6765
fug meant to quote the fag bandage >>6764
No.6768
>>6765
>you sound like (the biggest faggot loser nigger cancerous shit fuck of all time)
well f u 2
No.6770
>>6768
S-sorry, I like him I didn't know people hated him. I am just saying your accents and pitches are similar.
>>6769
ayyyyyyyyy
>769
No.6771
>>6762
>>6766
I literally have no idea what you're talking about, my voice sounds weird as fuck to me
No.6772
>>6770
>769
>>6771
You literally sound like a typical fratboy to me tbh.
No.6773
>>6771
you have a pretty nice neutral voice. I can't hear anything distinct in it tbh
No.6774
>>6771
If anything you sound like high school Chad. Do you think it sounds weird when you hear it recorded or when you talk?
No.6775
>>6770
I was subscribed a long time ago but eventually I just grew to not be able to stand him
I also can't stand 4/a/ so it makes sense
>>6772
>769
what is so special about this
No.6776
>>6774
Mostly when I just recorded it, It bothers me when I talk to myself but I don't really notice when I talk to people.
No.6777
>>6772
>>6775
I don't know how it happened. It think I had a stroke.I think anything happened in 769 that I know of. The Holy Roman Empire maybe?
>>6775
I get that. He can get annoying, I like him but only in small bursts, he is 4/a/ incarnate.
No.6778
>>6775
>what is so special about this
No.6779
>>6776
Yeah same. I really can't judge my voice since the only person I have ever talked to is from my area so we sound the same to each other, I have never recorded my voice and I know I will hate it if I do.
No.6782
>>6781
ヒトデ？ かわいい！ ありがとう！！！
No.6784
>>6782
I learned a new nip word, ありがとうバンダくん
No.6785
>cabbage ignored my other post
Dang I even leaned in and whispered and shit.
No.6786
>>6784
Ｈｅｙ！ ｎｏ ｐｒｏｂｌｅｍｓ， ｍｙｆｒｉｅｎｄ！！
>>6785
I had something recorded and forgot to post it, but now I'm going to purposely not post it at all
>all the people going nuts over the one girl
how do people not realise how bad they make themselves look?
No.6787
>>6786
http://vocaroo.com/i/s07J256rKZeG
I thought that was a trap? I don't know, I haven't been listening to everything tbh. I typically don't butt into conversations like that, but if that is a girl then that's pretty funny. The thirst is real.
No.6788
>>6787
Oh I dunno I just wondered why this one person was getting 30 replies every post, so I listened to one. Sounded like a girl, maybe, but I didn't listen for longer than 1/2 a second.
No.6789
>>6788
Alls I know is one of the responses called them a trap so who give a fuck. You know how these cakeboys are these days. Always trying to tricky people.
No.6791
>>6790
You don't sound retarded, you sound very mumbly, though. That may be because you were really timid about having us hear your voice.
No.6792
>>6790
You literally can't prove that.
No.6793
>>6790
You slur your words but that's the only thing that could be improved
I've improved on my slurring just by paying attention to try and avoid it. Plus, I can listen to my mic live when I'm talking, which really helps with being aware of me doing it, you probably can't do that, though
No.6794
>>6791
>>6793
He sounds better when he isn't being meek as fuc tbh. When we played some vidya he spoke clearly a few times.
No.6795
>>6790
Post something where you try to over enunciate. I want to hear this.
If you have trouble pronouncing things, it can help to put a pen between your teeth as far back as you can manage (parallel to your front teeth, don't stick an end down your throat), over enunciate, and try to speak quickly. Practice that and you should make some progress.
No.6796
>>6795
> it can help to put a pen between your teeth as far back as you can manage
Dude what.
No.6797
>>6796
We did it in debate to practice spreading, or speaking very quickly. It helped a lot for some reason. Here's an example of spreading:
https://youtu.be/5OW4jsAA7ic?t=343
No.6799
>>6798
That was much better, don't bother with the pen thing. You don't sound particularly Southern to me, and you certainly don't sound stupid. You do sound shy, though. I like your voice a lot, it's probably the most endearing one I've heard here.
No.6800
>>6799
Ricky-chan's chastity is in trouble.
No.6801
>>6800
>Ricky-chan
First time I've heard that. Also I wouldn't want to get in the way of your OTP, just look at >>6664 and >>6671
No.6802
>>6801
I don't like what you are implying. and Ricky chan is what yui and dango call me.
No.6803
>>6801
He wishes probably. I'm way too straight for that bullcrap though, plus him and dango are already confirmed for booty buddies.
No.6804
>>6803
Literally no to everything you said.
No.6805
>>6804
>being this far in denial
We see the things you and dango say to eachother.
No.6806
>>6805
L I T E R A L L Y N O P R O O F !!!!!!!!!!
stop trying to slander me senpai
No.6807
>>6804
>>6806
>no internet dating drama whatsoever
What kind of half-assed circlejerk is this?
No.6808
>>6807
What are those words that have come out of your mouth I don't understand.
No.6809
>>6808
Shit joke, don't bother.
No.6811
>>6810
I was just saying that we've mustered very little internet dating drama. It barely qualified as a joke because I was mocking circlejerks and being self deprecating.
No.6812
>>6811
True, lots of groups inevitably have some of that shit. As far as I know nobody here is gay though, and there aren't a bunch of girls either, so that rules out the vast majority of it.
No.6813
i thought dango said he was straight
hahaha i guess the first step is denial after all
No.6814
>>6812
> As far as I know nobody here is gay though
hey wait a minute……….
No.6815
>>6814
>unwittingly implying that you're gay
Lol ur gay now
No.6816
>>6814
Don't worry. its BT, she is 2D gay at least
No.6817
>>6815
dude i've e-dated more boys than girls
No.6818
>>6814
Oh sorry I forgot about you cabbage. I guess not everyone here is straight after all.
No.6819
>>6818
>forgot about you
Chads aren't forgotten
does this mean I'm actually a true robot
No.6820
>>6817
>wittingly implying that you're gay
Lol ur still gay
In all seriousness I didn't know and thought you found sex generally repulsive.
No.6821
>>6816
>BT
>here
The delusion.
No.6822
>>6820
In general, it is, because everyone is a gross degenerate about it. I know a grill that waited until marriage to do anything sexual at all and I think it's totally cool. Refreshing to hear about, really
People publicly being lewd like on r9k are truly disgusting gross nasty, that's the stuff that gets me mad
No.6823
>>6820
A little birdy told me he's actually super duper lewd.
No.6824
>>6823
I have tamed myself since then and now have extremely great levels of self control, which is a large part in why I am once again satisfied with myself as a human bean
No.6826
>>6824
There's absolutely nothing wrong with being super duper lewd if it's in private with someone you are that level of close with.
tbh.
No.6827
>>6825
I don't know what he acted like or who he even was
>>6826
The ideal is to be lewd never
I work towards it every day!!!
No.6828
>>6826
I think it's fine as long as you don't become a caricature. Then I take issue with it.
No.6829
Goodnight Everyone. I plan to go to school, hopefully I actually go. do your best everyone.
and thanks be for being nice and not making fun of my voice
No.6830
>>6827
>I don't know what he acted like or who he even was
He's currently the Board Owner of /cuteboys/. He made map threads using zeemaps for robots to meet each other where he would ERP extensively. He would s-stutter, abuse spoilertext, and accompany his posts with ahegao images of girls from doujins accompanied with filenames like "I'm breaking.png" or "Fuck me harder.png".
See the following for more information:
desustorage.org/r9k/thread/13256799/
No.6831
>>6829
Goodnight. Good luck working things out with your professors.
No.6832
>>6830
>He's currently the Board Owner of /cuteboys/.
enough said
No.6833
>>6830
Wait who are we talking about again? Sounds like a fag.
No.6834
I had a huge memory lapse at dinner and now my head feels weird. I hope this isn't benzo withdrawals .
>>6833
Admin for the lewd map thread on /r9k/, also board owner of /cuteboys/.
No.6835
No.6836
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Goodnight Ohios. Remember that giving up is banned and to keep trying and doing your best!
>>6834
Gross. I've seen a couple maps but I didn't know that one of them was a lewd map. Maybe it's one I didn't see.
No.6837
I took a shot of vodka in case I was undergoing withdraws. Also took a bit more tranxene than usual for my taper. I really would prefer to get out of this situation without brain damage.
No.6838
Hello, how is everyone?
>>6721
It's really nice to hear from you again, Bt. I do not think tomorrow or the next following day would be better but don't let me get you down. I hope life is kinder on you than it is for me.
That ending ganbatte was cute.
>>6813
I am, straight.
>>6837
I went full cold turkey when I was taking venlafaxine. I missed my appointment once and said fuck it and decided to stop using antidepressants as some sort of crutch. I haven't had any lasting effects after the cold turkey, thankfully.
Alcohol and antidepressants sounds like a terrible combo to me. Take care my friend. Stay strong.
No.6839
>>6838
>I went full cold turkey when I was taking venlafaxine
Benzo withdrawals are significantly more dangerous than SNRI withdrawals, as they can cause brain damage, seizures, and death. Alcohol is cross tolerant with benzos so I tried it as a very temporary solution. I need to sleep now.
No.6840
Ohio. I woke up early enough to go to class, but I really don't have the energy to go. I guess I need to force myself but I am afraid I might pass out driving.Hopefully the shower wakes me up inside enough. I am probably not going today tbh
>>6838
Kek, that gif is 2qt5me.
Also
>straight
>literally an asian twink fuccboi
>not a raging gay
????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
No.6841
>>6839
>can cause brain damage, seizures, and death
The main reason why I rejected it when my psychiatrist wanted to change to it really. Maybe not death, I wonder what that would be like, being dead. It can't be worse off that how I'm feeling now.
>>6840
What the fuck did you just fucking say to me you little bitch.
Don't start it now you stuttering fruitcake.
No.6842
>>6840
Also, go to school. Stop skipping school. There's no legit reason for you to stay at home. Not going to just going to make things without a doubt, worse.
Go to school you fucking asshat.
No.6843
>>6841
>>6842
I'll try.
>an asian fuccboi ever being able to bully
???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
get a load of this faggot thinking he is some tough shit, kek. And I don't even stutter faggot.
No.6844
OHIO OHIO I HAVE GOOD NEWS
YOU REMEMBER THAT FOOD STAMP BULLCRAP I MENTIONED? I THINK I MENTIONED IT HERE AND NOT JUST TO DANGO. HOW WE WERE ONLY GETTING HALF BECAUSE THEY FUCKED IT UP ON THEIR END THEN NEVER FIXED IT UNTIL WEEKS AFTER I TOLD THEM HOW TO FIXIT AND SHIT?
YEAH JK. THE LETTER TOLD US WE'D ONLY GET THE AMOUNT OWED NOT COUNTING ME, BUT WE GOT THE FULL AMOUNT THIS MORNING ANYWAY. WEW LADS. ALSO THIS COFFEE IS TASTY AND I HAVE A LOT OF ENERGY. TURNS OUT I HAVE A FANTASY CIV 5 RIP OFF ON MY STEAM AND I'VE BEEN WANTING REAL BAD FOR SOME KIND OF FANTASY STRATEGY GAME SO I CAN PLAY UNDEAD SHIT.
>>6843
GO TO SCHOOL FAGMOTRON YOU PROMISED US
No.6845
>>6844
W E W L A D. Congratulations
I didn't promise anyone anything, I am not that dumb, I can't keep promises so I don't make them tbh
No.6846
>>6845
No you promised I saw it. YOU PROMISED.
No.6847
>>6846
?????????????????????????????????????????????????
I knew you were old, but I didn't know you were old enough to have dementia. Has your home nurse not given you your meds yet grandpa??
No.6848
>>6843
>>6847
What's wrong with you today, did someone shit in your cornflakes or something man? Why are you all wound up like a spring?
Lighten up man.
No.6849
>>6847
Everyone here saw it not just me ok YOU PROMISED
>home nurse
Dibs on these two.
No.6850
>>6848
>can't handle premium bantz
>>6849
I didn't promise anything. what are you talking about? now I am worried I have dementia.
No.6851
>imagining Ricky chan trying to banter like this in his timid voice
2cute
>>6850
If you continued to skip class, and never went for the rest of the semester, what would you do? Seriously consider this. What option are you choosing?
No.6852
>>6850
>fuccboi tries to cover up that he promised us he'd go to school
>>6851
>>2cute
CHASTITY
IN
DANGER
No.6853
I can't tell who anyone is anymore
No.6855
>>6851
>>6852
my voice is not cute reeee
If I stopped going, i would prob just show up for exams to get just a passing grade. I know not smart, I think I am going today though.
No.6856
>>6855
>my voice is not cute
Your voice is cuter than BT's.
>If I stopped going, i would prob just show up for exams to get just a passing grade.
Is that even a possibility? Are you sure finals and midterms are worth 70% of your grade in all of your classes?
And please go to class.
No.6857
>>6856
>>Your voice is cuter than BT's
THE DEGENERACY BEGINS!
No.6858
>>6857
>THE DEGENERACY BEGINS!
There's nothing gay about finding Ricky Chan's voice cute. That's like saying it's gay to think male puppies are cute. Nothing sexual about it.
No.6859
>>6858
Yeah sure. Next you'll say liking traps is straight.
No.6860
>>6859
>Next you'll say liking traps is straight.
>implying I want to start a /b/ tier flame war
I don't really care. Straight, gay, bisexual, all of these terms should be used to delineate who you're willing to fuck. They should not provide a label that gives a deep insight into yourself. Masturbate to whatever you want, sexual orientations should be used only as an advertisement.
No.6861
>>6857
>>6858
>>6859
Can we stop this meme. My voice isn't cute. this is just a joke right?????????????
No.6862
>>6861
Not until you go to school rickychan.
No.6863
>>6861
>My voice isn't cute. this is just a joke right?
In all honesty I thought it was cute. That said, if you're looking to fuck girls, it is probably holding you back. When you speak it sounds like you're apologizing for speaking. That will probably change if you grow more confident, which will likely require a situation change. But don't be afraid of sounding retarded or Southern or anything else, because you don't.
No.6864
>>6862
>tfw I've watched this like six times since posting it
God damnit I fucking got myself.
No.6865
>>6853
>not being an volunteer thing and peeking the IP ID things
PLEB
No.6866
>>6862
I did go to school and it was awful. I regret everything.
>>6863
I seriously don't get it. Nobody has ever told me I have a cute voice, granted I have only spoken to like 3 people but still.People have said that I do mumble and have a quiet voice though.
>if you're looking to fuck girls, it is probably holding you back
Gee thanks, you crushed what little hope I had left. Maybe i should join a monastery since apparently I am too dumb and shy for the world and too gay for women.
No.6867
>>6866
>I did go to school and it was awful. I regret everything.
Did you talk to your professors? Do you know what you have to do to pass your classes?
>Gee thanks, you crushed what little hope I had left.
You need to get comfortable talking. That isn't impossible, and you aren't stuck like this.
>too gay for women
Most women are attracted to self confident men. This is no secret. Some are attracted to shy men, and they would probably also find your voice very cute.
No.6868
>spent a couple hours on diablo tinkering with builds and rerolling items
>mfw the realization of all the pure grinding I'd have to do to improve my characters significantly
>mfw the realization that the odds are heavily, heavily stacked against me for the character I wanted to improve
Man I just want necromancers back. I don't know what to do now.
>>6866
Stop regretting it. You fulfilled your promise. Good job. Even if it felt awful, it's important that you actually did it.
No.6869
>>6867
>Did you talk to your professors?
kek who do you think I am? But nah i read the syllabus I haven't missed too much, I probably can't get anything higher than B but I can still pass my classes.
>You need to get comfortable talking
again kek. If I can't after 16+ of talking I don't think I ever will.
>women are attracted to self confident men
ftfy. The women that say they like shy guys mean they like Chad that has glasses or doesn't try to fight everything that walks in front of him.
>all the snow melted, as did my happiness today
No.6870
>>6869
>I can still pass my classes
Good
>If I can't after 16+ years of talking
Being in a friend group makes a big difference. When you think people want to hear you you'll speak more loudly and confidently. I wish again that I could talk to you in person.
>The women that say they like shy guys mean they like Chad that has glasses or doesn't try to fight everything that walks in front of him.
I agree with you on the vast majority of women, but not all of them.
No.6871
>>6869
>If I can't after 16+ of talking I never will
LITERALLY
THE REASON 99% OF ROBOTS ARE WHERE THEY ARE. THEY JUST FUCKIN GIVE UP. I WASN'T SOCIABLE AT YOUR AGE EITHER FAGGOAT AND NOW YOU CALL ME FUCKIN CHAD 24/7 SO SHUSH. LITERALLY ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS TRY. LITERALLY. THAT'S IT. JUST TRY. EVEN IF IT'S FUCKING AWFUL.
>>6870
>being in a friend group makes a big difference
(^:
No.6872
>>6871
>(^:
What? I don't have a friend group now, but I had friends in elementary and high school and I'm sure it had a big impact on my development. Kranon can make friends and become more confident. If you're implying we're his friends, I would agree, but chatting in text doesn't make him more comfortable speaking.
No.6873
>>6870
>when you think people want to hear you
But I don't think that. I have been proven many times that people don't want to listen to me.
>I could talk to you in person
Trust me you don't. It isn't pleasant for anyone.
>>6871
I haven't given up so much as I have accepted that I will never be any good at it. It isn't too far fetched to say people can't be good at everything or anything really.
No.6874
>>6872
:^)
>>6873
>accepted that bullcrap
No that's giving up. 100%. You're still a fuckin child man.
No.6875
>>6873
>Trust me you don't. It isn't pleasant for anyone.
You're so paranoid that people will dislike you that you spend conversations desperately trying to excuse yourself for existing and escape the situation. You just need to practice until you can relax.
>I have been proven many times that people don't want to listen to me
Fuck them. Find other people who do want to listen to you.
No.6876
>>6874
Is 20 years not long enough to judge your skills? Come on senpai, even if I try and expose myself to social happening, I will never be relaxed completely, I am always on edge, thats my secret. I can't be a cool kid like you or Bandage. No matter how hard I try, I will always feel like a fraud.
>>6875
>You're so paranoid that people will dislike you that you spend conversations desperately trying to excuse yourself for existing and escape the situation
yes, thats a good way to say that.But you are assuming that paranoia can just go away after prating like its grinding for levels in an rpg.Its going to take more than talking to random people.
No.6877
>>6876
>tfw not a cool kid
>Its going to take more than talking to random people
What will it take, then? Talking to people will help a lot. It won't make things perfect but it will make them better.
No.6878
>>6876
No, 20 years is NOT long enough to judge your skills. You aren't even 20, and you haven't even spent close to half that really trying to socialize.
>you are assuming that paranoia can just go away after prating like its grinding for levels in an rpg
>implying that isn't how the vast vast majority of life skills work
Why don't you actually try listening for once instead of just throwing your hands up and saying "I can't" and giving up? Admit that you can be wrong about yourself.
No.6879
>>6877
>>6878
I did try for the first 14 years.I think 20 years is long enough but fine. But life skills are really just your personality and how you handle situations. You can't learn how to be charismatic or witty, its an inherent thing. I fee like I have said this before.
I do listen, I don't read everything here and say no to all of it. I do think about all of it. I just see all of it as very hard to do which is why you don't see me out of the house or anything. Its not that I don't listen or give up, its just that I see it as very hard and not really worth it.
I do admit I can be wrong, I often am.I am willing to try, I just haven't found anything I think I can do.
No.6880
>>6879
>You (I) can't learn how
>it's hard which is why I don't try
>it's not worth it
>I'm willing to try but I don't because I don't think I can do it
Are you even listening to yourself right now man? Look at all that negativity.
No.6881
>>6879
> You can't learn how to be charismatic or witty, its an inherent thing. I fee like I have said this before.
You have said this before and I explained to you why it's fucking retarded before, yes some people are inherently better at some things but that does not mean you're incapable of improving. Charisma and wit can be improved, it's harder the longer you wait and more you get stuck in your asocial/antisocial ways but there is no such thing as a charismatic or witty baby. This is once again just you making excuses not to try by claiming that you "know" about yourself.
That second paragraph is not any different from giving up it's just you giving reasons on why you give up.
If you can't find anything you think you can do then why don't you try something you think you can't? There's a difference between what you think you can do and what you can do and it applies both ways. Believing I can fly won't make me fly and believing you can't do something doesn't make you incapable of doing it unless you take your own shitty flawed opinion at face value and give up.
No.6882
>>6881
Bratposter knows how it do.
No.6883
>>6882
Well I guess it takes one to know one
No.6885
>>6881
This is a very good post.
No.6886
>>6880
>>6881
I really don't know how to respond but I think you guys are right. I know I make excuses and a dumb that talk myself out of things.
>If you can't find anything you think you can do then why don't you try something you think you can't?
I don't understand this tbh
Goodnight everyone. Do your best
No.6887
>>6886
It's not complicated, I'm just saying you can still try to do something even if you think you'll fail. Just do it anyways.
I hope you don't just use this as another way to beat up on yourself for the way you act and instead actually try to change something, no matter how small it is. I'd hate for my post to just be fuel for your self-hatred because I honestly am trying to say something useful here, stuff I wish someone else would have said to me.
Have a good night dude. Do your best too
No.6888
>>6886
Basically it means
JUST
DO IT.
It doesn't matter if you think you can't do it, try it anyway. Force yourself to do it anyway. It's like when we were discussing voices the other day. I don't really like mine but I do it anyway because fuck it. And it's fine.
>>6887
>stuff I wish someone else would have said to me.
pshh you're like 10 you're fine too if you already realize all this stuff.
No.6889
>>6888
I already regret almost everything I did in my life after the age of 12 tbh
No.6890
>>6889
Well stop regretting it and start doing something about it.
No.6891
GOODNIGHT OHIOS. I'm not actually going to bed yet but I doubt I'll post again tonight. It's rather refreshing to have the time to regularly post again.
Remember, you can be wrong about yourself! You really don't know if you can accomplish that thing you wanna do unless you tru!
No.6892
>primary school
>autistic as hell
>everyone thinks I'm annoying because I have too much energy and don't act normal
>get bullied and never make friends
>cry about it all the time
>straight up ask my family "how do i make friends" and they all get upset because they think it's so sad
>feel like a disappointment
>insecure about everything
>junior high
>stop caring about what others think, because at this point I've already grown so bitter towards other people that I don't even want friends anymore
>observe people from a distance, how they socialise, what jokes people find funny, etc., because it doesn't make sense to me, so I want to understand it
>never participate and just slowly absorb socialisation skills
>high school, ~16 years old
>crack jokes every now and then with people
>they think they're funny
>push myself to do more
>become a trugoof
>now that people like me for being funny, they talk to me casually about actual things sometimes
>gain practice while not under pressure pushing down on me
>get better at normal socialising
>get more people talking to me
>get more practice
>skills exponentially improve
>gain confidence
>now just act naturally without fear and people are cool with me
Girls at work even flirt with me now regardless of the fact that I'm a disgusting fat fuck pedophile satanist
It starts off slow, but progress is exponential, so you can do it you fucking NIGGER
>>6886
>>6887
>shit at singing
>sing anyway
>get upset
>quit for a bit
>try again
>get upset
>try again
>get upset
>try again
>have singing breakthrough
>continue
>have fun doing something that I always wanted to do but couldn't, still hardly can do, but can a little bit at least
It's simple M8-e
And don't make me type out this gay homofag shit again or else you're fucking DEAD
No.6893
>>6892
And you know if BANDAGE of all people can do it you nerds can too.
No.6894
>>6893
elaborate on the implications you have laid out on the theoretical table
No.6895
>>6887
>>6888
>>6892
Tbh I really want to say you guys are wrong, and that I am right to give up, but I know I am not so yeah, I guess I have to do my best then.
>stop caring about what others think
>crack jokes
>people think they are funny
>girls at work flirt with me
That is what makes you Chad, and me not. Everything you said is almost identical to what I have done, but the difference is the part where people found me funny, which is when I gave up.
Still thanks for all the gay stuff
No.6896
>>6895
you were trying too hard
don't do that
>she drinks
hahahahaha shitfu!!!!!!
No.6897
>>6896
>I try to hard
>I don't try hard enough
I don't get it. What is the right amount?
>not having a waifu that can drink
Also she isn't a drinker, it was just a mix up and got her drink switched.
No.6898
>>6897
Try about as hard as you do when you're talking with us on this board
>not only wanting a truly pure waifu
I mean I don't even have one so I guess it's not like I'm better off
No.6899
>>6898
>try about as hard as you do on this board
I don't know, I am trying pretty hard here. And I have the added bonus of taking my time to respond, not having to speak, and no one sees me. Also I am not really making jokes here. It really bothers me when I am not the funniest person around, I don't know why but it is, so I don't anymore and more or less have gone mute. but I am just making excuses right?
Ritsu is a pure. She has literally done nothing impure and she didn't drink on purpose, she would never, she is a qt pure. Reeeeeeeee
No.6900
>>6899
If this is your trying pretty hard, you're pretty good at hiding it
Your speed will increase as you level up, but you kinda have to grind. Once your speed increases, you end up getting more random encounters, and then you can grind faster and faster, which is just another reason why you exponentially level up
Real life is just a shitty rpg
But I used to be slow at replying to stuff, too. Sometimes, if I'm not sure what to say, I'll just say "huh?" as if I didn't hear them, that way they repeat themselves so I get more time to think. Nowadays, I've gotten so used to socialising irl with normals that I'm pretty good without doing that, though.
No.6901
>>6900
>If this is your trying pretty hard, you're pretty good at hiding it
Really? I thought I was pretty obvious.
I get what you are saying, but grinding to be a normal person doesn't sound appealing. It sounds awful and awkward which I really don't want to do tbh. But yeah, I know you don't like talking like this so I will stop trying to talk my way out of trying.
No.6902
>>6901
Well no one can see how long you take writing post and how many times you rewrite it. Plus you can purposefully try to appear more casual or whatever
No.6903
No.6904
>>6903
>hates jews
>consumes jewish doughnuts
Good goyim
No.6905
Feeling nervous about tommorow. I should probably sleep earlier but I had to stay up cleaning and I'm not tired whatsoever because of my sleep schedule. I guess it'll be fine though, hopefully it's a quick conversation
No.6906
>>6905
You will be fine. Do your best!
No.6907
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OHIO OHIO I GOT PULLED INTO MORE VIDEO GAMES YESTERDAY AND ALSO SOME SHITPOSTING.
MAKE SURE TO DO YOUR BEST TODAY
>>6905
You can do it bratposter. YOU CAN DO IT. We believe in you! Everything will be fine!
No.6908
Ohio. I am not going to class today, but I plan to go from now on I just need to rest today or something. Do your best everyone.
>>6902
>you can purposefully appear more casual
How do I do that???
No.6909
>>6908
Just like changing what you said until it feels "right" or less stiff or whatever. Maybe I'm weird for doing that
No.6910
>>6909
Oh yeah I do that, but I still feel like I am not doing it right you know. I guess I really don't know how normal people talk.
No.6911
>>6910
I don't really know either, I just tweak things until they sound okay reading it back. For all I know I've got weird mannerisms but it doesn't really matter as long as I am coherent and feel like what I wrote was okay
No.6912
>>6911
Yeah but I feel like I have stunted grammar and limited vocabulary since well I don't write or speak much.I re write a lot and never feel ok with it. I and I also feel like whatever I write doesn't make any sense.
And now I feel self conscious to talk at all more than before since you guys say my voice sounds cute and effeminate.I mean I was never brave enough to talk to being with but I guess that has made me not even consider it anymore.
No.6913
>>6912
IMO Your voice isn't really the issue, you sound "cute" because you were acting like a timid schoolgirl. If you were to speak confidentiality I think you'd be fine, I know that is easier said than done just saying that your voice isn't exactly set in stone. I feel the same way about my grammar and vocabulary but getting self-conscious over it doesn't really help, I'm constantly checking word definitions when I'm unsure and stuff like that though, the internet is my greatest ally
No.6914
>>6912
Your voice doesn't sound effeminate or high pitched. You just came off as very shy, which you can solve by speaking more. I'm sorry if I made you extra self conscious. Even if you don't interact with other people, you can change the way you sound by recording yourself and practicing talking more boldly without mumbling. And people may think you're shy, but no person worth their shit will dislike you because of that. The problem your voice poses is that it likely butchers your comedic timing, which is probably why you think people found you unfunny. It's something that can be fixed, don't give up because of it. Even if you don't manage to fix it there are people who will like you. People who are shy or underconfident will feel more at ease around you, or even relate to you just from hearing you speak. So don't give up.
No.6915
YES HELLO HIHIO I AM HERE.
>>6908
YOU. GO TO CLASS TODAY IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY MISSED IT. STOP MISSING SO MUCH SCHOOL. YOU NEED TO GO MORE OFTEN. AND IGNORE THESE GAYBOYS YOUR VOICE ISN'T CUTE. JUST DON'T MUMBLE AND YOU'LL BE FINE.
No.6916
All done. I'm taking a pre-test soon to see where I'm at and there is a program that will possibly help me get a job after I'm done that they told me about
Everything went smooth although talking to the lady at the second place was kind of akward
Both places are literally 2 minute walks from my house incidentally.
I ran into some girl I knew but wasn't friends with and she had her leg amputated also, don't know what to say about that one
No.6917
>>6916
That's great. Hopefully you'll get a job with people you like.
No.6918
https://youtu.be/5dHz4nYCDdM?t=29m38s
Ignore this video past the linked thirty seconds
No.6919
>>6917
I'm not very picky when it comes to people so I'm sure it will be fine
No.6920
>>6913
>6914
>acting like a timid schoolgirl
I wasn't acting, I was seriously trying but I understand.
This might sound like me making excuses as always but I really don't want to work on my voice and acting more confident. It just sounds trivial and tedious for something I won't really use.I really appreciate the help, and who knows maybe I will work on it, but I just don't see the point right now.I'm sorry, I know I am avoiding the problem but I just don't know.
>>6915
I already missed it. I am going to go to school from now on,don't worry but I am not promising anything.
>>6916
Wew congrats lad.
>>6918
kek tbh I play games like that, I am not very observant or smart
No.6921
No.6922
>>6920
It's fine if you don't want to work on it, personally I think you're fine. I'm only offering advice because you said it bothered you
No.6924
>>6920
>but I am not promising anything
Nope that's wrong. You promised us. Everyone heard it. Don't make excuses for yourself already.
>>6918
I thought I was going to die watching him, I've never EVER seen a worse video game player, and the worst part is he makes money playing vidya.
Also that reminded me of https://youtu.be/FH6dfof5B0Q?t=3487
>mfw every time I watch this shit and lowtiergod gets btfo EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
No.6925
>>6924
>I've never EVER seen a worse video game player
He was pretty good at Super Turbo back in the day. His voice is whiny but honestly I find him far more tolerable than the people who make videos superimposing indignant youtube comments onto his playthroughs. Also,
LTG:
>attractive
>works out
>makes six figures as the franchise owner and manager of his local McDonalds
>new GF every month, fucks two white girls a week
>looks to have a promising future career as an actor
>high IQ characters only
>pillar of the fight game community
>best Rolento in the world, went 10-2 in a mirror match against Nemo
Viscant:
>pasty as fuck
>huge bags under his eyes
>meth addict, passes off his time spent at an outreach for addicts as "volunteering"
>virgin
>uses charge characters to play off his opponent's brain
>two minimum wage jobs
>browses /fgg/ (this isn't a joke, he has actually made shout outs to /fgg/)
>racist, called LTG black to insult him
>is a fraud at Marvel
No.6926
>>6925
Stop my sides can only take so much
No.6927
>>6926
>implying you understand all those inside jokes
Because Viscant accused LTG of working at McDonald's, LTG would ban anybody who mentioned Mcdonald's in his twitch chat. LTG also claimed Viscant calling him a black DSP was racist, and that he would come after anybody who called him black to his face. There's a lot more but most of it is just imitating LTG's style of talking.
No.6928
>>6927
>implying I didn't have a brief stint of paying attention to him just because of how hilarious he is
No.6929
>>6928
I found him very entertaining as well. Stopped watching his streams a while ago, though.
No.6930
>>6920
>It just sounds trivial and tedious for something I won't really use
You will use your voice a lot. Don't give up.
No.6931
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The crazy rape victim girl that is obsessed with me almost got raped again and she keeps messaging me
This is why you don't talk to girls
No.6932
COMPLETELY ASIDE BUT I AM LOVING THIS WEATHER FAMS. It's like 60 degrees here today, it's awesome. I wish I could open the windows safely.
>>6930
>>6920
Dang you're right how'd I miss this part YOU HAVE TO USE YOUR VOICE NERD. IT'S LITERALLY THAT IMPORTANT. YOU NEED TO WORK ON IT NOW SO THAT IT DOESN'T COME BACK TO BITE YOU LATER. TAKE IT FROM ME. You might not think it's important but this IS something you need to learn for life. Better you do it now than fumble with it later after it's more heavily expected of you.
No.6933
>>6931
>leading on a rape victim
Fucked up man. Real talk. Legit fucked up.
No.6934
>>6933
She said she would kill herself if I stopped talking to her, so I'm pretty fucked
And if you noticed I haven't been responding lately
I'm slowly weaning her off of me
No.6935
>>6930
>>6932
Tbh I really don't see myself being in situations where I need to speak. I am basically mute right now and it's not so bad. Yeah I might be important to be able to talk to people but every time I think about being in public or speaking I just cringe at myself and think I never want to be in a situation like that. I think I can manage even if it could hurt me in the long term.
I feel like all my responses are just excuses so I'm sorry for this. I don't want to give up but it's just how I am
>>6931
** >I love you lots Nathan
It's weird seeing my name in a message like that. It makes me a little jealous tbh, but I know it's not as good as it looks and also that sucks man**
No.6936
>>6935
It's never really meant anything to me when someone said it, not even when I was a kid, hearing it from parents or family
I'm not sure what's worse, knowing what would make you happy and being miserable while struggling to achieve it, or being lost in emotional limbo while having no clear goal.
No.6937
>>6936
Well I never heard it from anyone growing up so I have built it up to something it isnt and appreantly its actually a common thing people say.
I would say stuggling to your goal. I have been in both, and am stuggling right now. When I was lost and just wasting away, I didn't feel so bad or guilty for being a lazy neet. I could spend a day just watching animu or sleeping and not feel any worse since I was so far in my mind I just didn't care. But not that I have a goal I would like to reach I feel guilty and ashamed to not be working towards it 24/7. The guilt just compunds everyday.
No.6938
>>6937
so then work towards it 24/7 and then boom you'll be happier than ever
No.6939
>>6935
It doesn't matter what you want or think will happen, life's gonna do whatever the fuck it wants anyway and throw you into whatever it wants. You should know that by now. Sure, you're probably never gonna have to speak infront of a large amount of people like at a gathering or something, but you're gonna have to talk to SOME people SOMETIME and just being able to socialize with a small group is important and you're gonna need to learn how to do it eventually. Even moreso because of what you claimed to want for your career.
And yes, they are all just excuses. And yes, you do want to give up because you keep trying to rationalize it and give yourself reasons like "it's just how I am". Stop wanting to give up. Stop apologizing.
No.6940
My roommate told me he's transferring rooms. Apparently he didn't want to put up with me being in the room almost constantly anymore. I'm feeling pretty great about this.
No.6941
>>6938
That is what makes it worse. I know what I need to do and more or less how to do it, but I can't do it. I literally have no energy and feel drained no matter the time. I know excuses again but I genuinely can't think straight or concentrate. I feel like I have a severe headche all day and feel like light head. I can't read anymore without getting pains in my eyes. And again sorry for the excuses. I don't know if I need to sleep more or eat better or what but I just feel shitty.I'm sorry I know you don't want to hear this.
>>6939
I have manged so far. People do get mad at me for not talking or flaking out but like I said I don't want to be in those situations. Yeah If I ever do make it I will need to speak but presenting a lesson is different from converasing so I can probably do it if I use crutches like PowerPoint. I know you are right, I know I make excuses, I need to stop doing it. Maybe I will get there one day
or not, who knows if I will last
again sorry for all of my shit
>>6940
Thats great man, is he the one that always bring over gurls and kicks you out?
No.6942
>>6941
>I can't
stopped here
DO YOU WANT PUNCHED???????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I'M WILLING TO PUNCH YOU FOR YOUR OWN SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No.6943
>>6941
>Thats great man, is he the one that always bring over gurls and kicks you out?
Yes. I don't have any good reason to dislike him but I would rather live alone.
And the things you want the most require you to speak. Don't think of how you can scrape by, think of how you can be happy.
All that said, you can make friends speaking like you do now. It will just be harder to make people laugh than if you spoke confidently.
No.6944
>>6941
>I can't
>I have no energy
>I feel x
>I genuinely can't
>I can't
>again sorry
>I don't know
>I just feel shitty
>I'm sorry
>I've managed so far
>I don't want to
>*IF* I ever do make it
>it's different (it isn't)
>if I use crutches
>*MAYBE* I will get there *ONE DAY*
>or not, who knows
>again sorry
No.6945
>>6944
BACK OFF, HE'S MY KILL
No.6946
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No.6948
>>6947
Deal with it cakeboy.
No.6949
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>>6942
Tbh I feel like I deserve one.
>>6943
>think of how you can be happy
It's too abstract to think about. I always laugh thinking about it because it feels so far away and unobtainable.
And tbh really don't care about making friends anymore.
>>6944
>>6945
I know I am sorry for my bullshit. But I do genuinely feel like that, call it excuses but I physically can't think.
it gets so bad sometimes I just want to shoot myself to stop it
>>6946
Lewd
No.6950
>>6948
this is why i dont talk to people
you are all evil
even though i am always so nice
i hate you
and everyone
No.6951
>>6949
Have you ever been punched before
No.6952
>>6951
Yeah well not super hard though. I did karate as a kid and fought a lot with my brother.
No.6953
>>6949
>And tbh really don't care about making friends anymore.
Tell me what you want.
No.6954
>>6946
We got kids in here, take it easy fam
No.6955
>>6953
A quiet comfortable life. Why?
No.6956
>>6955
he wants to give you the life you want
he is in love with you!!
he wants to marry you!!!!
and live a quiet comfortable life with you!!!!!!
No.6957
>>6955
Don't you have something close to that already? Are you happy?
No.6958
>>6956
Kek but also reee
>>6957
> don't you have something close to that already
I mean probably but also no. I have no responsibilities or financial problems but I still don't feel comfortable here. I am always on edge at home or in public, the only time I feel any peace is when I'm asleep. And I feel cramped living with my family, petty problems yeah but I dunno.
> are you happy
No. I feel like I should be, I'm not poor or sick but I'm still not happy.probably because I can't relax and see >>6949
I feel bad for posting so much here so goodnight everyone
No.6959
>>6958
Why ree? Because you wish it were true?!
No.6960
>>6956
None of this is true btw
>>6958
>I'm not poor or sick but I'm still not happy
You're saying you want to avoid negative stimuli, but what do you want? What are you seeking, rather than running from?
If you don't answer then goodnight.
No.6962
No.6963
>>6962
Are you REALLY sure?
Or are you just too embarrassed to admit you've fallen for him??!?!!
No.6964
>>6963
Ya I think I'm not in love with him. Never really been in love before though. Have you loved anyone Badger?
No.6965
>>6964
I've felt intense infatuation for others, but it fades very quickly once I realise I was being delusional and imagining the particular person as perfect.
A great example is Karen, actually, even though she's just a character.
The fact that I do this over and over again just makes me think the only thing I can ever love is myself and my imaginations. The next question I need to figure out is whether or not this is true for everyone and I just happen to be very self-aware, or if I'm actually just different.
No.6966
I'm pretty sure I've already been asked that question on this board though
No.6967
>>6965
>it fades very quickly once I realise I was being delusional and imagining the particular person as perfect
Well, everything feeds back to your preferences and desires, obviously. You cannot escape yourself, and the things you love are light and sound and maybe the touch of skin. You are not alone in realizing that you build characters out of people and fall in love with the things in your head, but you are still probably more self aware than most people. I imagine this is universal, because I can't imagine otherwise.
And I lied about never having been in love before. For me, the feeling was an overwhelming possessiveness. Although, many do not think they people they love are perfect. Often, people love weakness and want to protect it. Any man who has had a stupid girlfriend will reluctantly admit that the stupidity can be cute.
>>6966
It was probably me who asked you.
No.6968
>>6967
>touch of skin
Absolutely disgusting, vomited my pizza
>Often, people love weakness and want to protect it.
Stupid people that are pure and sweet are my favourite kind of people. They're the only kind of people that I feel I've ever actually cared for a little bit. This is probably why I LOVE LITTLE GIRLS
>It was probably me who asked you.
I'm so insignificant that forget my answers to these big, important questions?!
No.6969
>>6968
that you*
sorry I made a typo, I couldn't see my post my eyes were watering with tearballs
No.6970
>>6968
>This is probably why I LOVE LITTLE GIRLS
>admitting you're a pedo
Yuianon's coming for you now
>I'm so insignificant that forget my answers to these big, important questions?!
I guess so lol
No.6971
>>6968
>This is probably why I LOVE LITTLE GIRLS
>admitting you're a pedo
Yuianon's coming for you now
No.6972
>>6971
>>6970
Fuck you 8chan
No.6973
>>6970
yuianon already knew
>i guess so lol
goodbye forever everyone
it was not fun
No.6974
>>6973
>goodbye forever everyone
Don't leave Bandage, if you go BT is never coming back.
In all seriousness I like talking to you. So stay here and suffer for my sake.
No.6975
>>6974
noooooo i cant this community is just so toxic and oppressive and judgemental and biased and racist and sexist and mean and gives me so much anxiety i cant i just cant anymore im so done im just so done!
No.6976
>>6975
>implying you have a choice
>implying we let people leave
>implying BT's abduction isn't being planned right now
You stepped into a community of real monsters. Bitter, friendless misogynists who hate everything and want nothing more than the death of all things alive. Did you really think we would let you go out and tell the world about us?
No.6977
>>6976
noh god please stop even if you rae joiking stop god im cry8ing stop plssssssssss im cuting again
god im aving a nervosu breakdon panic atack SOTP
No.6978
>>6977
Super sorry it was a joke. Please don't hurt yourself, people care about you. I care about you. So don't tell me that nobody cares about you because it isn't true and you're worth caring about. Don't ever give up.
Also I'm going to play video games for a while so don't post if you're looking for a quick reply.
No.6979
>>6978
yea OK going off to plAY GAME RIGHT NOW OK
NOT LIKE YOURE NOT AVOIDING ME OK
WHATEVER
IM DONE
YOU SAY YOU AND OTHERS CARE THEY DONT
WHATEVER
DONE
No.6980
>>6977
>>6979
GOODBYE BANDAGE
No.6981
>>6980
IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE UNTIL I BEAT YOU UP AND KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No.6982
>>6981
>bandage
>beating up anyone
No.6983
>>6982
>I
>M
>P
>L
>Y
>I
>N
>G
IM FUCKING
TOUGH
YOU PIECE OF SHIT
I'LL Ｌ Ｉ Ｔ Ｅ Ｒ Ａ Ｌ Ｌ Ｙ
KILL YOU !
ＴＯ ＤＥＡＴＨ ＯＦ ＤＩＥ ＤＥＡＤ ？ Ｙ Ｅ Ｓ！！
No.6984
>>6983
You'd run out of breath just trying to limply swing once you poofter.
No.6985
>>6984
＞ｐｏｏｆｔｅｒ
ＷＨＡＴ`Ｓ？？？？？？？
No.6987
>>6986
ｔｈａｔｓｉｔ
ｉ ｅｍｏｔｉｏｎａｌ ｂｒｅａｋ， ａｎｄ ｇｉｖｅ ｉｎ
－ＴＯ ＡＬＬ ＢＯＡＲＤ－
ｙｏｕ ｔｏ ｂｅ ｗａｎｔ ｍｙ ｆｒｉｅｎｄ？
ｆｉｒｓｔ ｏｆｆｉｃｉａｌ ｏｆｆｅｒ
ｚｅｒｏ ｐｒｅｃｅｄｅｎｔ
ｌｉｍｉｔｅｄ ｅｄｉｔｉｏｎ
No.6988
"Whatever exists without my knowledge exists without my consent"
No.6989
>>6987
Me and Bandage are friends now
No.6991
No.6992
>>6991
ｗｈａｔ ｈａｐｐｅｎｉｎｇ ａｆｔｅｒｗａｒｄｓ ｆｒｏｍ ｈｅｒｅ ｔｉｍｅ？
No.6993
>>6992
Going by my observations of others I think we're supposed to call each other names now.
No.6996
>>6995
SCREW THIS I HATE FRIENDSHIP
No.6998
>>6997
AND NOW YOU JUDGE ME???????????????????? OK
No.6999
whatever THIS IS WHY I HATE FRIENDS AND I HATE TALKING TO EVERYONE YOURE ALL MEAN AND EVIL WHEN I PUT MY HEART OUT THERE I HATE YOU ALL AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING
No.7000
I feel better now that I got both gets
No.7001
OTHER PEOPLE ARE SAYING I SOUND LIKE DOUCHEBAGCHOCOLAT
I HATE THIS
No.7002
I need to sleep.
>>7001
Your voice is good. It complements your comedic delivery nicely. Most people don't even know who douchebagchocolat is, so it doesn't matter.
No.7003
>>7002
Do you think I could be a sucksexful youpooper
No.7004
Ohio ohio it was so nice and warm yesterday like 60 degrees. Supposed to get that warm again today too. Really glad winter was mild this year.
No.7005
Bandage you need to stop egging people on with threads you create about yourself, at the moment its really easy to find your IP and easy to dox you, just a friendly warning.
No.7006
>>7005
What, how?! Is it bad to post from my phone?!
No.7007
>>7006
Posters cannot see your IP, but you've posted your Skype details before, its easy to get IP from that, you can set it to private so nobody can see your Skype information, I forget how but you should consider looking into it.
No.7008
>>7007
But how useful is an IP? They can't find EXACTLY where I live or anything, right?!
No.7009
No.7010
>>7009
What if I just delete my Skype
It's not like I use it anyway
No.7011
Ohio. I am going to make pancakes just to spite Bandage.
>>6959
Kek no
>>6960
>what do want
I told you. I just want a quiet life away from people, a small house with a garden, and a comfy job at a university. and maybe a family but tbh I really don't see that happening so its not a big deal
>>7001
I'm sorry I said this. I just thought you guys had similar voices, not that you are like him.Sorry Bandage
>>7003
I think you could. you have a big personality I think a lot of people would like it.
>>7004
Senpai,senpai. SENPAI. NO FUCK YOU.YOU ARE OBJECTIVELY WRONG REEEEEEEE FUCK THIS SHIT WEATHER. I want my snow and sub zero temps back reeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>7005
>he like french toast over pancakes
????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
No.7012
Okay here is a step by step guide on how to hide your Skype from the public and IP phishers.
Tools > Options
General > Video Settings "Auto-matically share screens with: CHANGE TO NO ONE
Privacy > "Only allow people in my Contacts list to contact me"
"Call" tab > "Only allow people in my Contacts list to call me"
Video Settings > Auto-matically share screens with "No one"
IM Settings > "Only allow people in my Contacts list to send me instant messages"
Advanced > "Allow direct connections to your contacts only"
You will be safe.
>>7010
You can do that, yeah.
No.7013
If anyone wants to test, add your Skype ID to this
http://skypegrab.net/resolver.php
And it'll tell you.
No.7014
>>7011
>big personality
ARE YOU CALLING ME FAT!?!??!?!
>not knowing French toast is OBJECTIVELY the betterest
>>7012
Thanks for spoonfeeding me
It kinda tastes like medicine though
No.7015
>>7010
In fact, I'd recommend doing all
>>7012
Before deleting your Skype just to be 100% if you decide to do it.
No.7016
>>7011
>what do want
>I told you. I just want a quiet life away from people, a small house with a garden, and a comfy job at a university. and maybe a family but tbh I really don't see that happening so its not a big deal
Also check out this normie, top kek
No.7017
>>7014
what? no of course not. It means that like you have a very distinct and loud personality. Its a good thing I think. Sorry I guess, I didn't mean to call you fat.
>thinking french toast is better than anything
Bandage pls
>>7016
ok, call my a normie but its what I want. I mean its not like I am going to get it so its just a dream.
No.7018
>>7015
I'll decide on delete later, but I'll do your steps now
>>7017
>loud
YOU'RE SAYING IM OBNOXIOUS?!?
No.7019
>>7018
Holy fug no dude. You are more worried and anxious than me. Forget it.I was just trying to say you have a nice personality and voice. Just take the compliment fug man.
No.7020
>>7019
>nice personality and voice
y-you …
LOVE ME?!
No.7021
>>7020
No. For some who hates lewd you sure jump to it right away.
No.7022
>>7021
>affiliating love with lewdness absolutely
Ｄｉｓｇｕｓｔ！
No.7023
>>7022
Boy love is pretty lewd right? Or are steam gays just the most extreme lewds?
No.7024
>>7023
Nearly all gays are over the top lewd degenerates that are into acting like disgusting sluts or master/slave horse shit
Either that or they're all those cancerous cuteposters that think being nice means "I LOVE EVERYONE, I WANT TO SUCK EVERYONE'S DICK BECAUSE I LOVE EVERYONE"
makes me mad tbh, because I'm pretty homo
No.7025
>>7024
Yeah it is pretty gross.I don't get it.
I don't think you are a big homo fam
No.7026
>>7025
I have wished I was a girl since primary school and have always preferred boys over girls
The only exception is anime, I only like 2D grills
I'm totes considerably hoemoe, dawg
No.7027
>>7026
Oh wait really? Like in a romantic way or a platonic way?
>hoemoe
kek
i remember as a kid wishing I was a girl because I was super jealous that they had so many friends
No.7028
>>7027
Romantic. It's very rare for me to ever like girls even as friends. Boys, on the other hand, are what I'll get all infatuated with. They're better in literally every way except having possible cute voices.
No.7029
>>7028
Really? I get that. I do feel more comfortable around guys but even then I am still deathly afraid of people. have you ever wanted a bf or it not like that
>having a cute voice
I see this meme wont die tbh…………………..
No.7030
>>7029
>get's spaghetti when his voice is mentioned
You're making this too easy
No.7031
Janny finally deleted my thread! And he didn't get a mod to ban me?!
I swear he is in love with me or something.
>>7029
Only e-boyfriends. I've had them before. The one, I catfished, because I wasn't secure with being a boy yet. I've never felt the same way irl. 3D is just too disgusting.
also if you reread i said girls' voices are the ones that are cuter
No.7032
>>7030
uh yeah uh sorry…………..
>>7031
oh. What even is an online relationship, like just chatting and stuff? Sounds kinda boring tbh.And yeah it sucks 3D will never be as good as 2D.
I wasn't secure with being a boy yet. What does that mean???
and sorry for misreading, I am a dumb.
No.7033
>>7032
Basically you just act real flirty and a act a little more comfortably, letting yourself show more of your inner autism to the person
and you say lovey dovey stuff sometimes and do stuff with the person
it's basically bullshit but in the moment it feels significant
It means I used to hate being a boy and would pretend to be a girl online to escape reality, but now I'm okay with it
No.7034
>>7030
Why is the name of this file donkeykonggrin
No.7036
>>7033
Oh that sounds kinda nice.
>show more of your inner autism to the person
that genuinely scares me. This is probably why I hate talking and stuff.I doubt I can ever open up to someone.
No.7037
>>7034
>Why is the name of this file donkeykonggrin
Someone realized it, that brought out a laugh in me, thanks.
In the manga/anime, her nickname is gorilla because of her strength. From there it evolved into Donkey Kong thanks to /a/ and so I used it as a categorizing method because it's funny.
>>7036
>I doubt I can ever
The more you do it the easier it becomes. You're opened up to us before and we have not pinned you on a stake.
You aren't that special or different, despite how you like to be or think you are. It's easier to get the hard things out of the window first sometimes.
No.7039
o shit i messed up now i look like a fool!!!!!!!!
No.7040
>>7037
>you've opened up to us before
Have I ? I don't remember doing anything like that really.
>you aren't special
I know that, but I still feel that I am not a person people will like.
>its easier to get hard things out if the window first
What do you mean?
>the more you do it the easier it becomes
I feel like that is all you guys ever say tbh. I don't know, I want to believe it but its hard to.
>>7039
I didn't see any mistakes so your fine fam
No.7041
>mfw saya with twintails
THIS IS WAY TOO CUTE
No.7042
>>7036
>I doubt I can ever open up to someone.
Aren't you kind of doing it right now?
>>7011
>. and maybe a family but tbh I really don't see that happening so its not a big deal
You told me earlier that what you wanted more than anything was to be wanted. Don't you still want to be a professor, too?
No.7043
>>7040
that's because I deleted it
Luckily before anyone saw, apparently
No.7044
>>7043
I saw your hentai post.
No.7045
>>7042
>aren't you doing it right now
I mean I guess. But nothing too personal really. I have probably already hit the limit of how much I am willing to share tbh
>to be wanted
>to be a professor
Yeah I still do. I sort of grouped that all in to having a comfortable life. But being wanted is something I see as not very reasonable so that is more of a dream than something I actually want within reason
No.7046
>>7044
ＯＨＳＨＩＴ
ＩＴ’Ｓ ＥＮＤ ＴＩＭＥ
ＦＡＲＥＷＥＬＬ ＡＬＬ ＦＲＩＥＮＤＳ
No.7047
>>7044
Did he really? I find it hard to believe he would post a lewd
>>7046
Goodbye friend
No.7048
>>7046
>>7047
Yes.
It was this.
No.7049
>>7048
HOLY FUG DUDE DELETE THIS WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU
No.7050
>>7048
>shitty /a/ meme that nobody has ever laughed at
Good thing he deleted it.
>>7045
>But being wanted is something I see as not very reasonable
It's completely reasonable. There are people like you, and you can change. You say you don't believe that you can get better at things with practice, but that's completely ridiculous and I know your own experience contradicts that.
No.7052
>>7043
>Luckily before anyone saw, apparently
I have that post on my window.
>Something about something is cute.
No.7053
>>7050
Bully. I laugh at it.
No.7054
>>7052
………
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…..
.
.. .
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..
. .. .
No.7055
>>7054
is that morse code??????
No.7056
>>7046
This picture is funny Bandage. I really like this picture :)
No.7057
>>7055
it's very clearly not
>>7056
thanks save it my friend its all yours etc.
No.7058
>>7057
tahnks bandeg your the best friend i ever had :)
No.7060
>>7058
you are mocking me
i can tell
thats all i am to you
to all of you
a joke
im just a joke
not a real friend
just a joke friend
not even a joke friend
just a joke
none of you care
you are all sick
i hate you all
goodbye forever sayonara mata ashita except without the seeing you later part
>>7059
I fucking hate this girl and the other girl and the whole anime
No.7061
>>7060
no bdandeg im not troling u i am ur bigest phan xd
No.7062
>>7060
Figured you'd have shit taste.
No.7063
>>7060
But isn't that how you want it, to be the funny guy?I don't think of you as a joke person.
No.7064
>>7061
>mfw I realize I don't recognize this ID
whodat
No.7065
>>7064
Bandage's newest fan.
No.7066
>>7064
Odds are 9/10 it's BT because she's experienced with people trying to DOXX her based on Skype information and she started posting when Bandage was here
No.7067
>>7065
Gay. Last time I met someone that was a trip's "fan" he turned out to be a brown pedo nerd lewdboy with the most childish giggle I've ever heard.
No.7068
>>7066
You're a smart cookie board owner-kun
No.7069
>>7061
>>7062
bye forever
you are all mean
none of you are ever nice
whether im nice or mean it makes no difference
no matter how hard i try
its always the same
even you guys of all people
the people i finally call my friend
it took me all my might
and yet you're all still mean
i hate this
i dont want to live in a world like this
this is stupid
goodbye
>>7063
ur only niceboi here
thank you
i will not forget u
here's 2 u guys………….
never……… forgoten……………….
No.7070
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlwJ1g9rq-A
>>7068
It's not like this circlejerk is easily penetrated anyways. Unless 8ch has improved, which I doubt, you need a mod URL to see posts made recently.
No.7071
>>7066
>>7068
Shoulda guessed, that's right, your ID changed like twice a day like some kind of nerd.
>she's experienced with people trying to DOXX her based on Skype information
Really? I never knew. That why you never wanted to use it?
No.7072
>>7071
>Really? I never knew
I was just guessing based on the fact she tried her hand at being an openly female personality on 4chan. It pays to be paranoid if you're doing that.
>>7070
>It's not like this circlejerk is easily penetrated anyways. Unless 8ch has improved, which I doubt, you need a mod URL to see posts made recently.
An exclusive experience in the middle of nowhere.
No.7073
>>7070
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8oKQSAt4c4c
Haven't even thought to try not using it for ages tbh.
No.7074
>>7069
please don't go bandage kun, but I understand if you want to.
>>7070
>this circlejerk is easily penetrated
ayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
>>7073
nice song fam