sup /fem/ …
I need help, I'm self-contradictory as fuck, I just love the thought of being cucked while horny, but I can't stand it, a girl once suggested it and tried to force me into it and I left her ( thinking with my big head for once ) and fully cut all contact with her.
If I ever get cucked I just may commit suicide cause I can't stand it, but I fucking love how dirty the idea is !!!!!.
also, I'm not a /pol/ack nor a feminist, I'm kind of in the middle but my wildest fantasy is to be dominated by a politically correct feminist who runs the house and owns my balls, someone like ronda rousey, but I hate the fact my gf would be a feminist and just.
I have this double contradiction, I'm living in 2 chimeras ffs guys someone help me out of this, I can't do this, I can't stay lonely like this but I can't enter a relationship with a domme while I'm so fucked up.
wat do ?
should I just surrender to feminism and accept it ? also I think forced bi is making me gay because I don't feel like I want pussy as much as I want cock.
I want girls, yes, but I want cock so there's also a contradiction there.
what would you guys do ? advice ?