>>83862
I felt that when I used to get rejected. I came to a revelation and I'm doing my best to incorporate it, I'll give you an idea of it with a story of my own.
>Be me, 4 years ago at 19
>Up at UCSC, majoring in Physics
>Meet qt, we screw like bunnies
>Through the miracle of coincidence, we were super compatible
>Both fit, deranged senses of humor, STEM students
>We date for almost year, I notice she starts to act a little weird as our anniversary approached
>We had a mutual friend who she was more friends with than I was
>Told me one time she talked about her feelings with him and didn't want to tell me about it
>Knew exactly where that shit was going
>Contacted him, asked him to hang out and offered to teach him to lift
>Tell him, "I know what you're doing, I don't have any problems with you so long as you stop."
Incidentally, at this point in time I had two blackbelts and 6 years of training under those belts.
>He agrees/whatevers and we keep working out
>Few days later, gf and I are talking
>"I don't want you to be emotionally reliant on me"
>long gut wrenching emotional b.s. ensues, ending with insanely passionate sex
>Still spending plenty of time together and maintaining a high level of intimacy
>Then, she just doesn't respond to her phone for 2 days
>There's a black out, so I head out of my dorm to try and find her
>Head over to her place, find her roommate who tells me that she didn't know where she was
>Walk campus for hours
>Meet up with her in the morning for breakfast, as we're walking her roommate passes and asks,
>"Oh, is that where you were last night?"
>She banged the dude I was teaching how to lift and had planned on keeping it a secret from me
>I died a little inside as I realized the woman I loved, my best friend, the person who I had seen a long happy future with, showed me who she was at her core
>She continued this path, and in weakness I tried to get back with her a few times
>I finally transferred schools because I couldn't handle seeing the places around the campus and recalling how we'd happily frolicked through them
I was a much weaker person back then. Shortly after I dated around and saw the vapid narcissism and borderline insanity that the vast majority of women displayed. I realized something
>They're doing me a service
"But anon", you might reply, "You sound so full of shit right now."
You might be right, but let me explain
>Through women being horrible people I've realized exactly what I want in partners
>Through being rejected and having my first substantial relationship destroyed I realized how important goals and dreams are
And I know that I'll keep getting better while they keep getting worse. I refuse to settle for a woman who doesn't have integrity, because I refuse to let mine be compromised.
OP, when someone rejects you like that (assuming you're not a horrible human being) they're doing you a service, because you know what they're saying?
>"I'm a piece of shit."
So you know what you do? You keep looking, and you keep moving. Because that's what it means to be strong; to continue in the face of herculean trials.
And you know what bro?
>We're all gonna make it