/furry/ - Your new home

>How shit is your life?

I consider people on 8chan as friends.

apparently my post was too long

so fuck it, let's truncate it to the shortest possible summary of every problem in my current life

I AM A FUCKING GHOST

WOOOOOOOOOWOOOOOOWWOOOOO

if i seek out people and talk to them, they talk back, they appear to listen, they appear to enjoy my company (even explicitly saying so while drunk), but they never seek me out, they only think about me when i'm not present if they want me to do something for them, otherwise they never seek my company as an end in itself.

doesn't fucking matter where

HS - ghost, but i'm at least partly to blame for that

furry forums - ghost, nobody ever starts conversations with me and often my threads are ignored

IRC - when it's not deader than VCL people tend to ignore me even when i'm trying to make conversation (except for the few times where they decide to just shoot me down instead.)

4chan/8chan - not so bad, get more replies than anywhere else, but still my high-effort posts (as opposed to this shitty low effort one) are overlooked.

college - the fucking worst of all. plenty of those people who claim they really do consider you a close friend (but never think of you because they have a list of 100 people they'd turn to for companionship before you even came to mind.)

there are more but fuck it that's enough examples

wonderfully, now i'm even bordering on too old to meet random people on forums (can't even use sites with usernames anymore anyway because i'm so used to not having an identity on imageboards, the idea of people being able to see my posts from 10 years ago tied to a name i use today is horrifying even if the posts themselves are not) since half the people using them are <18 and that feels creepy, not that it matters since traditional forums seem to have been superseded by reddit/tumblr anyway, both of which have terrible user interfaces for discussion.

i wish i was still a kid saying 'hi' to bots on runescape, at least then there was a legitimate and obvious reason they were ignoring me.

tbh op you sound like you're in a good spot mentally. maybe you just need to move or somethin'

anyways how shit?

meh. not very.

i have a group of friends i keep trying to isolate myself from because i'm scared that they'll end up trying to single me out like my old group of friends did.

i'm always ready to completely fall off the face of the earth in case something is said to me, thanks to paranoia. but luckily now i REALIZE the issue and where it's from.

other than that, i'm fine, just feel a bit lonely- and for no reason, even.

OP you seem pretty fucking stupid to me

Too bad you aren't in the USA and you are a shitty person because of it.

What is the purpose of this pity party and why is it on /furry/ and not /r9k/?

>>506963

Are you me from the future, friend?

>>506963

Whewlad, you sound almost exactly like me. Want to roam around, and haunt people?

>>506948

Just because you made another one of these threads.

>19 years old

>studying what I like

>getting into the uni I want with like 90% chance to have free tuition since I have extra shit to boost me like a language exam (80 extra points if I don't fuck up)

>getting my grades up

>getting social

>going to a concert next month with friends

Isn't this supposed to be the part of my life where I'd fall back in depression and go downhill? It's not happening…

Bonus:

>have an "antique market" day in the city every month

>can get chemistry glassware for less than quarter price to make studying easier and to have a useful hobby

>>506948

I'll try

>be 19

>was bullied throughout middleschool, bullied in highschool too but that wasn't as harsh as middleschool. Seriously fuck middleschool

>dropout of CC

>neet for a month or 2, slightly depressing

>get a shit dime-a-dozen job

>Bretty gud, getting money but job sucks

>get fired

>neet again

>need to find a job again

>also find what I want to do in life, i aint doing minimum wage for the rest of my life

>no job means no funds for guns and games, thou I do have a bit of dosh saved

>parents are kinda annoying but I think they still care about me

>dad always forces me up at 10 am for no reason. That gets on my nerves.

All things considered, life's pretty good.

Just need to find the passion or interest in life that I can turn into a career. Actually been thinking about going military also.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BXWvKDSwvls

>28

>dropped out of math PhD career path

>was gonna vine-swing my way into MIT like the tryhard little preppie I wanted to be

>lost all initiative

>now a burnout shitposter

>can't will myself to do anything but play vidya

>have forgotten basic trig shit

Who the fuck made this manga. This is bullshit..

>>507070

That is not a fucked-up ellipses, it's an accidental second period.

>>507070

>have forgotten basic trig shit

>implying you can't afford a 10$ 4 digit function table book that has it all explained

You forgot 2 hours worth of study there.

>whine thread

I don't care about your life, mine sucks enough.

>>506954

At least you didn't pick them up on 4chan.

Where did everything go so wrong?

>>507063

this tbh

just gas or bomb them to hell

>>507033

where else did you post this? was it on /furry/? i've seen it before.

>>506954

Friends? Ha. I think of them as more of my family than my actual family ;_;

>Was always "the smart kid" in school

>Had no real friends because too spergy back when autism wasn't a blanket diagnosis; parents refused to believe I was anything but normal even when teachers/counselors told them otherwise

>Never did fucking anything because school bored me

>Gay and horny around 10 years old and tried to fuck every boy I met with lots of success

>By the time I was age 14 nobody on the entire planet was gay anymore for some reason

>Graduated high-school even though I spent all my classes daydreaming and/or half asleep

>Got bored of college immediately because going from all AP classes to general-ed classes made me feel like I was in a fucking kindergarten

>Dropped out after two semesters

>Tried to get a boyfriend several times, always got cheated on because they were bisexuals that would fuck anything/anyone with no reservations

>Become social recluse, decide I don't want anything to do with humans anymore

>8 years pass and I enjoy my solitary life, playing vidya, reading, writing tons of shit, building shit, on occasion having sex with dogs

>Savings runs out; have to get a job

>Shitty job with complete fucking idiot owners who couldn't properly manage a lemonade stand

>I'm a manager, except only paid as much as the fucking busboys, because the owners legitimately don't even understand what I DO, and only have two pay scales

>It pays the bills and I cope by realizing that every single one of the hundreds of problems the place suffers from can be solved by "I need to quit working here".

>However have no other significant work experience and highly doubt I'm social enough to get hired anywhere else

>I don't take care of myself; I have bad teeth but can't afford to fix them; I don't care about my appearance or trying to be attractive because I want to be a little boy but can't ever

>All the16- 18-year-old girls at work still flirt with me because nobody knows or suspects that I'm gay

>Still have literally never met another homosexual (or even bisexual) since I left college

>Still convinced I'm the only legitimate faggot on the entire planet

>Have hopes and dreams but no real plans for what to do with my life if what I actually want doesn't pan out

>Live each year fully convinced I'm going to kill myself at the end of it

>Pussy out of suicide every year

So now I shitpost on 8chan. Nice.

>>507148

>>Pussying out of suicide

I dunno man, I find people are worth redeeming if they try to clean up their act.

>friendless college dropout

>parents want me to get out of the house and get a job

>most days i don't even get out of bed

>>507151

It's not about redemption. There's nothing really wrong with me, I just don't have a place in the world and don't really enjoy live. I have zero purpose or worth.

>>507046

>dad always forces me up at 10 am for no reason. That gets on my nerves.

He's forcing you up so that if you get a job that starts at like, 8 or something you won't be fucked over because of a shitty sleep schedule.

That and being up before noon is more normal.

>>507150

>Asperger's + only child scenario = spoiled fuck who can't get shit done

Don't forget single mother syndrome. That fucks over so many kids it's not even funny I should know, considering I'm in the same boat +OVERMOM with no dad to get her to calm the fuck down before doing lasting damage

>>507199

You have plenty of worth, you feel like shit because part of you understands you're wasting the potential where you are right now.

>21 years old

>Live with other super chill furry as roommate who is also a kickass cook

>run online sales business that takes almost no effort

>do whatever I want

>read and vidya and chill all day

>cuddle the fuck out of roommate on a regular basis

>not got much going on long-term but short-term is idyllic

be jelly

>>507148

I feel for you, man.

>>507206

>>507206

I had to get up at 6:30 for the old job., if I got nowhere to go I can sleep in for as long as I fucking want.

>>507209

Long term will fuck you over

>>507125

I posted it on /suicide/ about 3 months ago

>>506948

Spain? Italy?

My understanding is either of those countries is a shithole as far as that mental health stuff goes.

In America at least that would N E V E R happen. You'd be able to sue that school and that store for all they were worth. Probably the prof too.

Similar scenario here; I have light assmcburgies but taught myself out of it.

-

As for me, my life is pretty OK actually. I'm going places. For a while (yes I'm borderline underageb&) I had trouble getting to high school there because it's a 25 minute walk, my dad won't take me and my school won't give me a bus. But they'll fucking punishing me for not getting there on time alright. Fuckin third world shit I tell you.

Fuck my cuck.

'Bout to enroll in Yoo Tee Ess Ayy/Yootsuh/You tea say/UTSA. I have a pretty good shot. They have a high enrollment rate because everyone wants to go to the much-cooler Austin sister university, UT at the much-cooler Austin (including me huheheheahahauhuhuhuhhuehue).

My parents have both been incompetent royal pains in my ass my whole life in completely opposite ways and my sister might as well be a cracked out whore at this point, she has really bad ADD and can't focus on shit. Tried medication and the side effects hit her hard. There's more we could try but for now it's bad enough that she's avoiding driving.

But yeah, other than that, good life. I'm very employable. Other than my discipline record in school, because incompetent staff, zero-tolerance policies, teacher-student blood feuds, and my refusal to stand down and get cucked (as much as I hate that word), combined with a whimper-smidgen of hotheadedness over and over again.

But yeah. Other than that, good life.

And I'm broke like everyone else. So mostly good.

>>507150

We all gonna make it, anon

Oh yeah. Also, some other faggot nigger from this board changed in between hacking me for shits and giggles and finding my accounts in places and sending me messages for shits and giggles, all in the hopes that i sate his lust for a "lolcow"; he considered me crying on video because he had hacked into my phone and compromised my info and a bunch of other shit "lolmilk", so basically middle school goober's a //b/aph/fag with a shitty sense of humor and nothing better to do. these guys alone left me a wreck really but it got much worse once the girl found my article.

>>507373

One last thing.

Most people who I actually have to deal with face to face about this believe me and are cool about it. So I have that to feel good about.

Things are looking up for me.

>>507389

sounds like someone who doesn't know when to stfu

>>506948

>>506963

I'm you in four years. Being a ghost isn't so bad once you get used to it, it only rarely hurts now. And in time, it won't at all.

>>507373

>gotta job

living off benefits tbh, I've never even been to college. It's nice to know that I'm not alone… kinda hope things get better for you anon

>>507373

Jesus. That's fucking horrible. You have my sympathies.

>>507373

Um anon if you dont mind me asking, who are you? I'm not interested in spamming dox or anything I'm just curious as to what sort of article on a drama wiki could be so well known that you'd get recognized by it going for a job… do you have a link to it or something?

>>507612

>Ignored the Ghostposter

If this was intentionally chosen to piss him off, this is the funniest thing I've seen all year (365 days, not since january.), if not you missed a trick.

>>507617

What ghostposter m8?

>21

>education not really going anywhere, will be trying something new and fresh next year

>still an improvement from last year where i barely slept and felt like shit all the time

>steadily beefing up and improving my drawing skills due to shifting more focus on hobbies over procrastination

>still feeling pretty bad, but have managed to shape up to not be a complete sperg and have a few platonic friendships to go and do stuff with

I'm still far away from being a decent human being, but I'm somewhat positive I can make something out of myself with time. Also tempted to join martial arts soon.

>Currently 19 y/o me

>Had shitty depression problems all my life, bullied for being the bookworm and genuinely paranoid that I'm autistic but never been tested

>Trust issues out the fucking ass because of ex girlfriends, father, step fathers, and others who verbally, emotionally, and physically abused me

>Massive anxiety issues, diagnosed with Severe Clinical Depression and Severe Anxiety, can barely leave my room

>Get locked up in a psych ward several times, for several weeks each

>Feel cold and distant, cant even look people in the eye anymore, constantly looking down and to the left or some bullshit

>Fucked up my back, herniated disc, cant bend over and dont give two shits about going through physical therapy

>Mental Therapy fails because 2 of my 3 therapists drop me out of nowhere and leave the facility they were working in, I left the third because I felt like I was being too much of a problem for him.

>Have 3 friends I can legitimately talk to about any of my problems, who helped me discover my sexuality and who I really was as a person

>4 months ago one of them passes away from a heart attack, followed by pneumonia while in the hospital. He had a flesh eating disease before hand, couldnt talk, always in pain. I was closer to him than any of my own family members combined

>Instantly suicidal, back problems get worse, I gain more weight, stop working out

>About to lose my overnight job at a fucking dunkin donuts because i can barely even bend over, let alone lift the heavy trays to put them into the oven

>Mother is becoming more and more distant with me, yelled at me for requesting a day off to greive because "You dont even know him in real life hes not your friend"

>Cant talk to her about my depression because she'll lock me up in the hospital again

>The two people left, i dont bother with my problems, because I dont want to inconvenience them.

Ive been suicidal every single day for the last 4 months. Sometimes Ill go out and stand on a highway, just in the middle of the road, in the middle of the night and wonder what'd it be like to be dead, to not feel any of this shit anymore, and then I begin to feel selfish, because those two friends rely on me as much as I need them, and if I were to die, they would probably follow suit.

>go home and attempt to rekindle any kind of joy in the video game collection and movies I own

>Barely even find joy in the new deadpool movie

>Constantly fucking numb.

>>507606

It's absolutely true. Also it's a small scotch town, and I'm not actually "retarded".

>>507619

the spooky one

>25

>live at home

>flunked college 1 year from grad

>held over eight jobs in 8 year period

>no degree for semi ok job, too much experience to be poverty tier wage slave

>cucked myself out of great relationship

>my face when there is no excuse for what I've wrought upon myself.

>>507640

Well OK then, what is it that made you stand out?

>>507612

>fucks dogs

>probably wants to fuck kids too

You know it!

>>507614

Like I said it's deleted.

I'm not e-famous or anything, just locally famous. Like I said it only made it big because the chick started circulating it.

>>507587

Thanks.

If you make your sexuality something everyone around you has to know about, you have no right to whine when people think you're a disgusting degenerate.

>>507606

I don't know. Like I said, I got abuse at school from teachers and students just because of the way that I looked, and because I had trouble with speech due to the muscles in my vocal chords or whatever being a little weak. There isn't any logic in what these cunts did/do to me. The fact that I watch porn in the privacy of my own house was enough for them to justify spying and harassing me and my mother. It's a very bad part of the country

>>507640

>scotch

Oh. I thought you lived in a first-world country.

>>507780

Implying I'm trying to be alpha

Implying I'm not just laughing at degenerate trainwrecks

Join in fam

>loving family

>good friends

>can't find a job

>scared of starting college so I put it off again and again

>leeching off of family and friends all my life

>contemplate suicide because they do so much for me and I can't do anything in return

It makes it all the worse when they say I don't need to repay them. I'm nothing but a drain on society and I don't know if I'll ever be able to contribute.

>>507765

>People find out I'm gay

>They're more weirded out by the fact that I'm not a fairy than the fact that I'm gay

No, I don't have good style or a girly accent, I'm just a dude who wants to spend the rest of my life with another guy.

>>507640

I'm now curious as to what region of Scotland this town is in. (Assuming that's what 'Scotch' means, although I've never heard a Scot refer to it as such.)

>>507846

>Assuming that's what 'Scotch' means

Yup it means Scottish, not sure I want to give away much more info though but I can tell you that it's not the West or South

>>507849

I don't want to press you for too much information, I'm curious as to whether it's a mainland or island location though.

Having visited some of the islands of Scotland, imagining what you described taking place there makes things fit together much clearer. (It could always just be any rural area, but we didn't really hang around there long enough for me to judge.)

>>507856

He sounds like an orbiter. I hope he doesn't get too upset when he gets a hint. He sounds like a cutie. Not like physically cute, just a cutie.

>>507867

He's kind of an orbitor, kind of not. He knows I'm not that interested, yet he still stays. He's a cutie for sure, but definitely not a physical cutie.

>more money than I know what to do with

>live in pretty nice studio in the heart of the city

>family is great

>workaholic though

Other than the fact that my job kind of sucks and the loneliness is pretty crushing, can't really complain

>>507849

>I can tell you that it's not the West or South

protip: you're not a unique special snowflake, you're just surrounded by cunts who act like that normally

>>507938

>>507852

>>507849

Should Scotland be an independent country?

YES|NO

>>507911

>workaholic

i know tf

>tfw when not at work i wish i was asleep/dead/working

>live on/away from parents my own since I'm 17

>lost all childhood friends, literally only have my parents in terms of social network at this point

>my mother is lower class and just as autistic as me so it's a dead end

>my father doesn't give two shits about helping me

>he basically already gave up on me when I was 14, developed severe social problems and was put in some sort of youth village for re-raising difficult children that parents couldn't handle on recommendation of CPS

>got out when I was 17

>went from best in the class with no effort to extreme underperformer in class because of social issues, drop out end of first year of vocational education for unattendence because of social problems

>fall into government neetbucks structure

>attempted multiple solutions to get me back on track with extra support, they all fail

>basically already have given up at getting any education at this point anyway

>21 at this point

>have been seeking solutions to my problems for 2 years, finally find something in the end

>first year is mostly training in a social workplace via government neetbucks

>that project ends, supposedly either offered a job or helped to find one

>neither happens, stick around the second year doing volunteer work, it was good experience on top of the 3 months of work experience I had in those 6 years of adulthood

>hear noise about being paid months ago, just gotta get things around and financial security for the social workplace

>it's 9 march, 2016 at 6 AM right now

>I'm a 25 year old kissless virgin

>I've stopped showing up since 2 weeks ago because I feel like I've been cucked long enough there working without being paid for what basically kept the place running 3 days a week

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at my lowest point again since I was 16. I still have 0 friends I could just visit and 2 long-term internet friends who both live like 500 km away from me.

this autism was a blessing but it got turned into a curse

>Be me, 20 years old

>In college, getting straight A's, but not really trying - not sure if its just teachers are too soft or classmates are shit tier

>Have small group of good friends

>Terrified I won't get a job and become poorfag indebted for the rest of my life

>Closet furry fucking terrified to show it - hide it from everyone

>All the furrys at college are all cringefests and make me want to die for being one

>Just want to draw furry shit, but roommate always in my room and constant paranoia

>Lots of people ask me for help, even some qt grils, but they aren't interested in anything other than that.

There's already a depression thread.

>>471343

>>508139

do it anon, you will either be happy that you don't or it will confirm your worries, so you don't have anything to lose

>22

>draw furry porn for free

>no actual friends

>get embarrassed when talking to anyone, even online chat

>don't look bad irl, even manage to have plenty of people hit on me

>I can't finish this post because I lack ambition to do so, was about to crap it

>>508253

Why do you feel embarrassed?

That's a really unusual emotion to feel just from talking to someone, isn't it?

Do you say stupid shit that weirds people out?

Or mean things that hurt people without realizing it?

Why so shy?

the less i say, the better

but just have to say something

yep – sucks about that much

>>507070

Holy shit it's me… except my life went a bit different after math.

>28

>Dropped out of Math PhD

>Gilbarg and Trudinger can suck a D

> Take six months to just sort of mooch off of friends while I sort myself out.

>Decide to go into IT as a programmer

>find out I'm better than all the ex-hs sports heroes who think they can program in first year

>find out I'm better than gweebins who have nothing but programming to do in second year

>drop uni to take a job because they offered money

And everything was fine. It's all basic logic for PhD level dudes. Programs are simply long-form proofs where you have to spell out every line like you're talking to an imbecile. The imbecile also has very specific rules for what he understands.

Don't think it's too hard for you. All the nigs at /r/dailyprogramming are just epeen measuring. You don't even need pointers or recursion to be a modern programmer, because most practical data flow logic is way simpler, or it has a library around it anyway.

Did I mention you make bank? I'm not making it atm because I'm a junior obviously, but my career trajectory is awesome. Plus at 28 you're still considered young by industry standards.

Just decide what you wanna make and start hacking at it broheim. At my job interview they were impressed that I bothered to make a website. It was a shitty handcrafted HTML page that I put up 6 months ago when I was learning how to make pretty things in CSS

What the fuck is up with autism?

Is it because furries?

>19 year olds

>depressed

Fucking grow the fuck up.

You can be depressed once you hit 35+ and haven't done shit.

>>514669

>Fucking grow the fuck up.

MAN UP BRO

JUST B URSELF

WHY NOT LIKE, BE HAPPY?

My life is actually pretty awesome in my opinion.

>exile myself in school and be an asshole to everyone for no reason

>I still have no idea why

>graduate

>have successful military career (4 years)

>had loads of cash, bought lots of guns and shit

>now in school and getting payed for it

>math ain't goin so well but whatever

>currently on spring break

I'm doin' pretty good if I do say so myself. I'm still socially retarded and reclusive, though.

>>Just over 30.

>>Fit. Pretty damn good health.

>>Was married (to another fur), but we fell apart.

>>Never really got over having a failed marriage.

>>Had my flings, but they were all empty and didn't really give me a reason to keep trying them besides making my dick spit.

>>I'm just in a weird place trying to figure out where I really want my life to go.

>>Free time is spent with vydia and furry art… not proud.

im 18 and my parents didnt buy me a ps4 to play with my gay af boytoy friends and they dont i mean why seriously??????? fml life sucks i want to die