Cynicism is just as foolish as optimism. No matter what you choose to believe, life is completely unpredictable. No matter what your personal philosophy, the world will never make any sense. Good things and bad things will happen to you in no particular order or number whatsoever, and there isn't shit you can do about it.
You aren't smarter, you're not any more ground in reality than the rest of us, because we're all clueless.
You yourself live in an idealistic fantasy in which the answer to all questions in life is found, that it's as simple as being a constant stream of shit.
Reality is a vast, complex, incomprehensible thing that is filled with countless factors you will die before even bothering to think of being aware of.
You're basically choosing to pick rock every time you play rock paper scissors and yelling that it always wins.