>>302This world filled with those who seek an escape from a harsh reality using any short term happiness they can find.
But there are also people on this earth who don't feel comfortable pretending like nothing is wrong with the world as it is, so they instinctively try to avoid falling prey to their baser desires and seek greater ideals.
Guro art frequently contains social criticism filled with satire about the many problems we actively refrain from confronting, or otherwise don't really think about.
A classic example of this criticism is showing humans being treated like farm animals, typically cows, who are usually milked to death mindlessly or slaughtered for the benefit of a shadowy corporation, or the rich and powerful.
By using the attractive female form, the artist seeks to arouse you slowly, and then inflicts revulsion, pity, horror, or guilt on you through the sudden use of shocking and violent imagery and suggestions.
This psychological trick is designed to force your brain to confront the hypocrisy in your thoughts and feelings, and gets you to reflect on the criticism contained within the art itself.
This is why OP is wondering if there's something wrong with him; seeking an explanation for the guilt consuming him.
Be assured, there's nothing wrong with him.