/b/, I need someone to tell me how utterly fucked I am right now and not be a total faggot about it.
Recently one night, I was browsing the net with my phone while in bed. The short of it is that I stumbled upon massive amounts of CP. Instead of closing down the site and just going to bed, I decide to engage in a massive fap session where I edge for hours before my cock finally explodes. Usually, my jizzum spews like pudding, but not this time. Last night, my jizz spurted forth like lava from a volcano. It was hot, clear, and with the actual consistency of water. I've never busted a nut like that in my life. When I looked back down on my phone, I realized what I had just done and that's when the shock came in.
I wasn't so much disappointed in myself as I was terrified that I was going to hear that knock on my door while a group of men with FBI embroidered on the backs of their black vests waited outside for me to come to the door. I imagine the utter shame as they make multiple trips in and out of my house with boxes containing all my electronic and mobile devices while the neighbors look on. I end up on the news, lose my job, lose my friends… fucking really messed me up.
I've slept off that feeling of utter dread as time has passed, but I can still conceive of a reality where they're building the case right now and that it's only a matter of days before they get the warrant before paying me a visit.
Then there's the other part of me that thinks maybe it's not a big deal. I wasn't sharing anything. I was just viewing. I was browsing in private mode, too. While I know that doesn't hide my identity from my ISP, it does at least keep my browser from tracking history.
Would LEA waste their time on me when they can go after people who are actually sharing the stuff and even producing? What prompts a visit from LEA anyway? What makes them say, "We gotta go get this guy."? How to they determine whether or not the effort is worthwhile enough to take up precious storage space with boxes and boxes of my junk?
Anyway, please tell me how fucked I am and if I should be prepared for a visit from the FBI. And, yes, I am behind 7 proxies right now.