So I guess it's time I came completely clean.
Not long after I ended my break and started hosting again, it was brought to my attention that Hoshi had been planning to gather hosts and try to get /hga/ up and running again. At the time, I scoffed at the notion, but over time, it became more and more clear that there was indeed something going on. One day it came to my attention that a board had been set up as something of a staging area for this plan. A part of me felt as if a plan like that could never succeed, another felt the need to do something about it and when I was told that Hoshi wanted me in on it, I knew I needed to look into it. What I saw shocked me: /sanctuarium/. Hoshi's final effort to regain control over the games, so what did I do? I played along and bided my time, but there was a problem: All of the others he had somehow roped into his scheme. People like Matsuda, Yuno, Jo, Rin, Adachi. I knew from the get-go that this plan was going to crash and burn and these people, some of the people I love most in this community were going to go down with him. So what did I do? I had to give people a target: Myself. I had to do something to draw as much hate from the other as I could and someone like Kamina fit the bill perfectly. Well known, a host and a guy who plenty of people like. I'll say right now, I'm sorry I had to do that, but it was necessary. In all honesty, I never cared one way or the other how he acted in threads, never have. With that in place and Hoshi already trying to push an idea involving "flooding the threads with intentional cancer"(Which disgusted me, not that I didn't expect him to try it. I'm extremely proud of you guys for refusing, I had a feeling you would.). I knew the time had come and I leaked the board on /trash/.
Why would I do this, you ask? Because I swore before I even took my break, that if Hoshi tried to pull anything to drag us back onto /hga/, that I would stop him no matter what. I put an end to his "final solution" and did everything I could to protect this community and the good friends who had been fooled into helping him from his "good intentions". Also, to pay him back for every guilt trip, every insult, every time he singled me out and tried to throw me to the wolves and every act of kindness that I showed him that was repaid with malice. That's why. I outsmarted him and destroyed him along with his last ditch effort to remake /hga/ into anything other than the lifeboat it was intended to be. Did you really think I wanted us back on 8chan? Why do you think during my short tenure as /hga/ admin I did everything I could to push us back to /b/ where we belonged? Did you really think I would unironically label someone cancer? Cancer is just another word for "something I don't like." It's meaningless. Did you really think I cared one whit about Hoshi's standards? I've said it before and I'll say it again: The only standards anyone should live up to are their own. Striving to improve yourself never hurts either.
Matsuda and the others, I'm sorry I had to decieve you in order to pull this off, but I had no choice. I had to stop him and in order to fool your foes, you have to fool your friends. Matsuda, Yuno, Rin, Adachi, Jo, Holo, Doos, Airi, Endo, Okarin, even you, Yosuke. You're all incredible people. I knew whatever happened after the leak, you'd be strong enough to handle it and I did what I could to draw as much heat away from you as possible. If any of you are angry at me over this, I understand completely and won't think any less of you. I love you.