/hga/ - The Hunger Games Avatar Roleplay Board

I love the Hunger Games, I love honesty however brutal. I don't like people who are full of shit, it's fine if you're full of shit, but don't bring your full-of-shitness to me so I have to feel bad for not being full-of-shit, just tell me you hate me or you just want something from me. I have no problems with that. I can sense when people are shitting me, I'm trained to pick apart one word or action or event and come to a somewhat accurate prediction. I tend to ask down to earth questions that might take a person off guard.

I respect looking at the reality at hand and addressing it for what it is and not for one's agenda or personal bias, if I'm proved completely wrong I'll admit so. I love feeling emotion, whatever it may be it drives me to do things. I like to test people by being an "asshole" to judge their self-confidence and how they react to confrontation, this is one of my preferred ways to make friends and decide who I respect. Sure I make a lot of enemies at the same time, but it's worth the tradeoff knowing who your sincere friends are. "Tough Love" is a strong belief of mine, the people it works on tend to be the best and most talented of people. I shower my friends with gifts and affection and rain shit on my enemies when I feel it worth my time, edgy, I know but that's the cost of expressing my bold personality.

I like pushing myself to do the best I can, setting extreme standards for myself so that I can meet them and grow in whatever I might be doing. I believe in putting yourself aside and doing what needs to be done for the progression and growth of whatever I'm a part of, unfortunately I tend expect others to do the same. Once I find myself in a spot, I tend to take it all the way, I don't know if I do this intentionally or if it's out of control, but if something is good, I'll make it great, if something is shit, let's say myself or the situation, I tend to make it as shitty as possible. Once I'm pushed in a direction, I tend to take it to the extreme, I should say.

I'm not afraid to say I'm awesome. I'm a strong believer in loving oneself to truly love others. Call it my ego or whatever, I don't really care. I take credit where credit is due and I also give it where it's due. With my professional background I'm quite used to taking shit for my subordinates and for my own decisions. Every man for himself in business, amirite? A flare for the theatrical is another trait I might add, that's about it for what I think I have to explain about myself for the Hunger Games here.

I don't know why I'm even bothering but I guess I should try.

1. I wanted to give people options on where they can RP or host, be it on /trash/ with all the fun things going on there and /hga/ with it quiet but clean RP and hosting experience with none of the fat around it.

Key word is options, I never forced anyone to do anything. I merely presented my ideas and directions to make a plan happen, that plan was to get /hga/ running where people who would able to host their games and RP comfortably without distractions and the usual clutter of the /trash/ threads.

2. If any of you read what I wrote I pretty much just trashed /trash/ and proposed the idea of people hosting exclusively on /hga/ so more people would come to play because that's where the games were. Once again, purely voluntary. Never forced anyone to do anything, I merely stated the realistic things we had to do to make this difficult and unlikely plan somewhat successful. Only Rin followed through with the proposal. The others had not finished their games or did not want to host. Some plan to "force" "the games" to /hga/ right. You see when you have no power and even the little you do have are restricted by the rules you place on yourself there really isn't any other way to make what you want happen except explaining, informing, convincing, being an example and persuading people to follow.

3. I didn't "force" or "guilt" anyone to post on the board either. I sent links to people I thought would like to just observe if not take part in. They by no means had to post at all. Once again, just me talking shit and spouting my opinions , following me was voluntary. I sent links to people who didn't even post at all or want anything to do with it those people posted there because they agreed with the idea of a sort of games on /hga/, an option for hosts and avatars so they can go to where they want to have what they might be in the mood for.

4. Shitposting wasn't even a factor when I started the board. My mistake was proposing it in that famous post the people against me liked to post to defame my character. That was my mistake to give anyone the ammunition. A post made at the end of the boards lifespan, where it was supposed to come to an end and the plan would gradually bring itself into realization. As if there weren't already memes and shitposting on /trash/, as if people on /sanc/ including me had the time or energy to shitpost an already shitty board (which is what most of the people said in reply btw), as if Hoshi trying to see what people thought about shitposting and mentioning it was a surprise to anyone.

Most people didn't even read or even care about the part where I agreed with them and decided it wasn't necessary at all but I guess people who just want to beat me down don't care about nuance and intent behind my postings and proposals and want a reason for me to be the big villain again. A number of people (or just one) jumped the gun and acting on self-deluded implications (as that person tends to do) resulted in the failure of the board, the plan, any hopes for an alternate board when it comes to hosting and RP, and caused a great deal of stress for the people involved. It was indeed not the best way to have handled the situation but alas, I'm not surprised one bit. If anything was forced it was the social pressure of posting on /sanc/ and hosting games on /hga/ completely obliterating the opportunity for people to enjoy the games in a the way they preferred. Not to mention the underhanded methods used to stop it instead of confronting me about it. It's really not difficult to tell that person hasn't read any of what I wrote on the board, the contents of which I can completely defend with facts and data, instead acted on their personal grudges and implications. Anyways, people gathered, they were trying to do something, it was ruined in a very dishonest way I should add. This is indeed very sour grapes on my part. My disappointment is as yellow as can be.

But none of that matter now, I lost fair and square. I made the wrong moves, I said the wrong things and I guess what happened (Which I will never acknowledge as "punishment") I have to deal with. There's really nothing else I can do about it.

I believe people have the right to assemble for a common purpose and discuss and work on that purpose to achieve it. If in secrecy, it's none of your business. "Plotting" and "Planned attacks" figures so little in the main purpose of /sanc/ beside my careless proposal, that it really had nothing to with what /trash/ did anyway, whether it shitposted itself of made itself unbearable had nothing to do with what I planned or intended. It was about making /hga/ better, as the name of the board stated, a sanctuary.

I believe the Hunger Games don't belong to a single board. It belongs where the games are, where the people who host them are, and where the avatars who play them sincerely with the utmost respect for the Games are.

I personally find it difficult to post. Not because of anything really related the threads or their content but because of my personal schedule. I don’t get a good window of time to post as consistently as I want to. Usually I have about 30 minutes of free time during transportation where I have nothing much to do but listen to music and post on the threads. I usually miss games, enter them but have to leave when I arrive at my destination giving me not much time to actually do anything or hold a conversation. When I do have time, I have other things I want to do beside the threads. Very rarely I’ll RP completely to a game. Most of the time, I just don’t concern myself when I have other things to do. It wasn’t this way when in the old days. I was constantly hosting or posting the threads, working on my games, talking to people.

It isn’t that way now.

Now I just look at the threads, missing primetime hours because it overlaps with my sleep, see a lot of things I don’t understand, the same people that were there the day before, gray games, hangout threads, memes I don’t understand or find particularly entertaining, anonymous posts shitposting and anonymous posts replying saying they’re me, the general hugs and sexual anonymous comments, and not really much of a reason to post. I don’t see what can be gained from going out of my way to RP in such a place. I don’t even know what that “place” is anymore. I usually find myself talking to the usual people that I find good to talk to even with my avatars, I don’t know why either. This is usually the case besides the people who shoot me on sight if I do make an entry on the threads. A harmless posting will turn into an argument with people I don’t know and maybe a shitstorm. In the end I arrive at my destination, remind myself that I had been spending my time this way and stop looking at the threads as the replies I’ve caused continue on. The taste of sadness never really leaves my mouth, it’s kind of there constantly as I try to get myself to believe things can and will get better and I did so I made /sanc/.

I wanted a place to get away from that, just be on place where I could be in a quiet place with games and just RP, simply RP, utterly peaceful where I would be happy to host my games with the people who didn’t care where it was and just RPed to the game like things used to be, the kind of people I adore. I had the most fun Hosting and RPing in the short three games that were hosted on HG, I truly was happy. I know it doesn’t mean shit to say it now but I really was going to leave /trash/ alone if only I had this one thing. I guess not. Being on /hga/ is a crime and people will shun and discriminate you if you try. You don’t get to post where you want to post, only where some people in the community tell you to. I guess it’s just that way. And I know some people will call this statement hypocritical, but I don’t really care. All I wanted to give people were options, when we had nowhere but /hga/ we had no options, 4Chan was a ban house, I never forced anyone to only post on /hga/, it was quite the contrary. When /trash/ came along I told people to go post there instead and said the community moved, but people still hold up the narrative that I want to control the games. Unless I’m a fucking retard that’s really that out of touch to think I could and am trying to “control” the games, I think people who are telling you that are doing it for my “health and well-being”, also that they consider you an intelligent human being that will certainly give such claims credibility and consideration, good on you anonymous.

I just yell things and hope people follow, nobody really followed and that’s fine.

As for the default games now, I don’t really care. I just say what I believe in and people who are insecure will come and attack me or defend their subpar things in retaliation. People should improve their games, if someone doesn’t, it’s because they don’t take it seriously, are too lazy, content with what they have now, or aren’t physically or mentally capable of doing so. Events or backgrounds or whatever, just because one thing is good isn’t an excuse to ignore or dismiss the other. The games aren’t for your comfort, it’s for the entertainment and approachability of as many people playing it as possible, not just the people who just put up with it.

I have every right to speak my mind and you have every right to change or tell me to go fuck myself. Don’t ever assume I’m the only one with the opinion, I’m just stupid enough to say it to your face. Other people have their rep to cover.

It’s nothing personal, I don’t give a shit who you are, or what you’ve done. I just look at the games and events, I point out what could be better and it disgusts me that even the basics are ignored.

But those are my nasty standards. I take this way to seriously for this stage of the Games, the way they are now. I could’ve maintained this status quo, but the people with louder voices have co-opted our community, people like me are powerless and our time is over.

Honestly, I hate to name drop, but I’d rather play a Potfest, Bastu Game, Miku Mix, Classy, Psycho, etc, over some dead hour gray filler games who think they’re enough of a shit to excuse themselves from the work that better hosts than them are doing because they are under the misconception that a certain part of their games make up for it. The hosts I just listed have games that I want to win, the others? Not too much. They’re like dog fights in an alley, a peasant’s pass time.

But that’s none of my concern, you’re on your own now. I’ve had enough telling people how to do things.

Embrace your dreams, and no matter what happens defend your honor as a host.

Also,

Go fuck yourselves.

Good luck.

Every post not made for the sake of the games or the quality of the threads is a loss to the Hunger Games. If you’re going to hit that post button make sure it’s to a game slide or an avatar that deserves your time and effort that you put into your reply. Shitposting and drama are not these things. I can post one thing and everyone loses their minds, this effect has always been fascinating to me. Anyone can react however they want, it’s how people react to it that decides whether it becomes a shitstorm or not. It’s why /trash/ shitposted itself and I had nothing to do with it besides talk about the idea which was twisted into a planned attack. Somehow I’m the only one at fault here. It’s unfair and utterly misguided, if you ask me.

“If there’s something you don’t like, ignore it”. That was the message I was originally trying to get across when I posted with Cera, to shitpost so hard and wildly that people just give up and ignore shitposting in general.

Another one would be “All the troubles from the Hunger Games come from the inability of the people to just stay IC and play the games.”

I have broken these rules, and my decisions have led me to this point. Don’t break these rules, friends. I have delved into the dark arts. I have passed the point of no return. Do not be like me. Myself being a “hypocrite” is no excuse to abandon these basic and telltale rules. Think of me as a father who smokes but asks of his son not to smoke for his health. The world isn’t so simple, the same goes for what my time here has been.

Man, do I love Nino.

I would rather have no friends on my list than a list of people who make me feel alone. People I don’t really talk to anymore, who don’t really talk to me, people who might hate me now, people who just don’t care. I cleaned my list, wanting to just get away from it all. They people I have not deleted are those who have committed forbidden sexual acts with me and I can’t mentally get myself to remove them from my list. No hard feelings, I don’t believe a list is something that sets in stone who your friends are. It’s not a statement against anyone but myself. I’m constantly seeking confirmation on this matter. Add me again later. Right now, I just need to be by myself. If you don’t want to, that’s also fine. Quite honestly, I feel as if I’m doing you a favor by removing myself from your problems. Friends here are a weird thing here, even weirder if you add me to the equation and I can’t quite explain it in words. I’ve said it before, “I set my bridges on fire. If it can’t handle fire, it can’t handle me either.”

Even the people I hate, I will gladly buy you several meals so I can talk shit to your face in person. I’ll let you sleep in my house so I can continue doing that the next day.

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Don’t think I’ve tapped out to Junko posting or /sanc/ being leaked. Letting Junko on the plan was not my decision, I left the decision to another person I trusted because I just couldn’t be bothered with taking responsibility for her anymore. Lots of people like to say that she played my like a fiddle, and she sure did if it really was her who leaked the board personally, or letting someone who would leak it instead know. I really gave her somewhat of another try, thinking she wouldn’t put me in a miserable position again, but I guess an old dog really can’t learn new tricks.

Even if it wasn’t, her damage control is bullshit. She hates Kamina as much as she hates Soviet, the Dangans she think were RPed as shit, the people who shipped with avatars she wanted shipped with hers, and the people who didn’t feed her shit in her threads and wouldn’t pledge their friendship to her because god knows that actually means a shit to the person pledging it or Junko at all besides the security such formalities provide her with so she can live with knowing that people don’t hate her guts. I fucking know, she’s told me she hates all of your asses in PM, believe me or not.

Junko’s time as an admin was spent being a puppet to Mion, her own rep, and her rules to force people to post on /b/ instead. I wasn’t planning to move the entire community to /hga/ to have them under my control, I just wanted to give people the option of playing on /hga/ who wanted something different from /trash/. /sanc/ was supposed to end in secrecy and it was never supposed to be leaked. People who completed the games were supposed to host on /hga/ and if they had to /trash/, although I would have preferred the former. Everything was voluntary I didn’t force anyone to do shit. It was supposed to be peaceful and no shitposting was planned in the first place.

I’m not some fucking villain, I just wanted a quiet place to host and play games once in a while so myself and a handful of people could be happy and enjoy the games in peace. My rules and standards aren’t fucking hard to follow, if you don’t like it or if you really are that stupid to post something so offensive to the /hga/ threads that I’d have to ban you, just stay on /trash/ like you should have cause I was tired of it. I don’t know who else would admit that, they’re busy picking up their pieces but that was my intention as the Admin. It’s a problem if I’m an admin, it’s a problem if I’m not the only admin with moderators, it’s a problem if I preferred not to have moderators that go behind my back and sell me out to people who want to beat me down, you just have a problem with me personally, regardless of the work and hours I but into making /hga/ the best board I could.

We had a good 3 games on /hga/ and I was happy, others were happy as well. /trash/ was in a boil because of people with personal shit against me, and of course exploded once they found out the board which I said in my first thread was going to happens sooner or later if any of you even read what I said besides the shitposting post that you want to nail me for. Apparently I mess up, mention shitposting once, dare suggest posting on another board, and I guess I have to fuck off now.

Matsuda, Yuno, Rin, Adachi, Jo, Holo, Doos, Airi, Endo, Okarin, and Yosuke, these people Junko is so proud of, these people Junko loves, these people who were saved from this piece of shit that’s writing this post, if this isn’t the biggest troll I’ve ever seen in HG, I hope you enjoy a long and fruitful hosting and RPing career without me. She “understands”, everyone. She “understands” if you hate her. You know what she understands?

I don’t fucking know, but not me, that’s for sure.

Me? I guess I didn’t love any of you enough. Junko loves you more, guys. Junko and all the other people waiting for you in the Hunger Games.

Second to last Nino.

The games now?

It’s quite alright. I think it’s what it’s supposed to be. I knew it’d last as long as it has lasted, myself however, not so much. After my announced leave, I see a lot of people that have returned, shitposting has oddly ceased. I’m glad, and I think if this is the way it’s supposed to go, and if it’s best for the games, I will gladly stay gone. Don’t misunderstand, I don’t personally hate anything or anyone in the Hunger Games. Mindless bashing is one thing, but I really am just jaded and have nothing better to do but shit people as much as I’ve been unfairly shit on. Yeah, yeah, it was wrong to shit on people who had nothing to do with it and all that shit, whatever. I really do appreciate all of you who have been a part of my experience, good or bad.

All of this has probably been one of the biggest pieces of autism that has ever been posted in HG. I know most of you will just post tl;dr and shit. People with any respect for what I have to say anymore are scarce. To the people who don’t care, this shit wasn’t for you. It was never for you.

After getting screwed over and over again in this place, I think it’s about time. I finally give to you the best thing that has ever happened in the Hunger Games.

Goodbye

<3