>>230
Okay. So, you're 31, depressed, unable to keep a steady job, in debt and unsure of what to do with yourself. First, I'd just like to say that you are not alone. If you are a waste, then so are millions of other young men throughout the world right now, none of whom have done anything wrong other than be unlucky enough to live during a time when society is falling apart and people don't care for each other like they used to. It used to be that everyone had misfortune, but their family and friends and neighbors would help them through it. These days, it's all about inidivdualism and social atomization - now suddenly if you can't pull yourself up by your own bootstraps you're a failure. This has literally never been the case in any society except the modern west in the last fifty or so years. It is an anomaly, and everything you've been culturally indocrinated to feel about "independent living" is a lie. I know that isn't much consolation, and those feelings will remain, but let it be the first glimmer of hope I can give you.
To let you know that I'm not just talking out my ass, I am 26, have never gone to college because I couldn't even secure a loan, and was a depressed NEET for nigh on seven years who couldn't even secure NEETbux and was forced to couch surf because my own family left me in a mental ward. They just left me there because they didn't want to take care of me anymore. I have met many people much like myself, and much like you. I know we are becoming more and more common. Many of us, though, were able to make it through our hard times with a little help from friends. You aren't a waste, anon. None of us are. We're just being left by the wayside because society is falling apart. All you need is someone to show the littlest bit of care.
That being said, the very factors that ameliorate your personal responsibilty for your situation also mean that it will be difficult for you to get out. Not anywhere near impossible, but difficult. It will take genuine hope, and courage, things that I know you think you don't have. But you do. You just need to dig for them.
You will need help, too. You can't do it all on your own. You need at least one other person to lean on, if only emotionally. Human beings are not made to be alone. I had one such person. Just the one. It turned out to be all I needed. So, I know that if you have just one other person to be there for you, you could work through your problems.
That is the hard part; that there is no advice I could give you or information I could share with you in one or two or a dozen posts here on an imageboard that could help you. If that were true, you could find that anywhere. You have the Internet; information and advice is everywhere. But that's not what you need. What you need is a friend. That's part of why /hope/ was made - so anons could have friends to lean on.
I don't know if I or anyone else here could be that friend, but I will try, if you'll let me. Or, at the very least, we can talk for a little while and perhaps I could give you some perspective. Either way, email me and we'll see what happens. I don't know if you use Tox, but we at /hope/ have latched on to it as a simple and relatively secure form of one-on-one communication. It's like Skype if it was made by /tech/. Throw me your Tox ID in an email and we can talk. Or if you'd be more comfortable with IRC, we have #8hope on Rizon.