/improve/ - Self Improvement

>>144
I'm in my mid-twenties.

I'm straight but I like traps as well.

For my given fetish which is mom/son incest pornography, the really good scripted stuff costs money. A lot of the scripted stuff floating around is really basic and has no quality beyond the initial shock of people roleplaying a taboo pairing.

I also have a theory that pornography loses some of its flavor through a combination of repeated use and a subconscious realization that masturbating to the porn will not make the act come true in reality. But that's a whole 'nother can of worms.

SO yeah, if I was flush with cash, I'd buy a lot more cerebral porn, but alas. I thought of trying out torrents, but I read that downloading porn torrents is an easy way to get flagged down.

At 21 I didn't feel too burnt out either. Definitely some of the feeling was lost, but there was a path.

You're not seeking harder and harder porn is a good way to stabilize the returns.

For me I really have a mentality of "I'll take it as hard as it needs to be to feel good".

What do you recommend in terms of straight pornos with great camerawork? I love seeing interesting angles used but it's a crapshoot finding them.

Fuck nofap, just stop watching porn. The problem isn't that your jerking off all the time the problem is you can only get off by watching some really sick stuff, so stop watching sick stuff. You can jerk off just not to porn.

>>149
well that's half of my plan. just jerk off to the week-by-week stuff. of course there is the question of if the plan works, and I do resensitize myself. . .would going back to porn merely restart the desensitazation process (which my inuition says is likely)

I have a similar story.
I feel like I have been slowly desensitizing myself because I have an addiction to erotic role playing. Because of this, I believe, I have been enjoying music a lot less than before.
I usually pretend I'm a girl, and then tell other people on chat sites "about me". Stories range from pregnancy at 12, being a 17 year old girl who is into extreme stuff (gangbangs, abuse, bloodplay, chocking, etc), and stuff like that. This usually gets very intense. Keep in mind the people I talk to usually believe me, and have no idea I'm actually pretending, so it's a lot more shocking because all of those terrible stories are real for them.
I'm not dealing with porn desensitization, I'm dealing with the desensitization of everything else but porn.

>>151
I actually don't see anything wrong with that. They would be fools to believe you without a shadow of doubt.

>>153
You missed the point. What I'm saying is that this role playing is so good (through masturbation) thats it's making me feel less about life in general. For example, music.

Now, I don't blame them. My methods for not being discovered are very good and I'm always very convincing.

>>156
Do you not enjoy your favorite songs as much as you used to? And if you thinking erping is responsible for the damage have you already thought of possible solutions?

>>160
I dont enjoy old and new favorites as much as I used too. The only music that still gets me is "shoking" music. Frankie Teardrop by Suicide was the last one.

Of course I have. The solution is to stop, but it's difficult. I always end up in the same situation, but each time the stories I make are more and more horryfing.

Another interesting thing is that I enjoy the part before the climax of music, but te climax of the music itself does nothing. It's like masturbating, enjoying the masturbation, but not feeling the orgasm.

>>162
It's not that creepy, you are exaggerating.
I do go out with friends from time to time and I even have a gf with whom I go to the cinema with (ad other things too) and meet almost daily.
I absolutely enjoy this thing I do, but It's worrying me because it's making me feel "too good", that other things arent as good in comparison.
I think you are missig the point again.

>>164
So your addiction is overpowering everything else you used to enjoy, and you just want to balance everything out again? I can't really say I know what the solution could be. I think I can at least sympathize with you because I myself feel like my video games have taken up a lot of the time I used to spend reading. What I do is find situations where I'm more likely crack open a book than sit down with a game.

I'm trying not to miss the point this time ;_;

I watched porn everyday since I was 13 and at around 20 I would notice I had erectile disfunction when I was with real girls. For a long time I didn't understand, started thinking it was physical and I don't have enough testosterone or something, was seriously thinking about getting it measured and reading up on therapies.

I unconsciously understood porn had something to do with it, but whenever I would look it up the "experts" would tell me its definitely not because of watching porn. How fucking silly these people are really. I followed my gut and first stopped fapping to hardcore porn and just used Chinese images. They don't show nipples or reproductive organs but they can be extremely sexy.

Did this for a few weeks and then found nofap on reddit which linked to yourbrainonporn dot com, this fucking website was talking exactly about that which I unconsciously understood at some level but it was backing it up with science and logic. I stopped all porn after that and 2 months in iv now had succesful sex with 2 girls and my dick feels much much bigger. It's like the porn would desensitize to the point where my dick was not reaching its full potential and as a result looking smaller than it actually was. Both girls told my i had a huge cock which i never though I had.

Not only did I fully recover from my PIED (porn induced erectyle disfunction) I also became much more outgoing because sexual energy really compels you to be active and meet new people. Overall it has healed me on so many levels, I'm glad it was so easy for me to stop too. I never "relapsed" as they like to say on nofap, I pitty those people who can't seem to get off the stuff. For me it was very easy and I have no problem of never going back to porn again, in fact when i look at it now I find it disgusting and satanic.

As for your little experiment, its fucking stupid, either you are still young (16 years) or you are retarded in your maturity. If you want a good life you need to stop watching porn and get off the internet.

That's my opinion at least, before I stopped porn I was dead inside, I would speak with girls but have no inclination to touch them because I was spending my sexual energy on pixel whores. A man is no man without his sex drive.

>>168
Don't worry, you are cool.
It's very easy to solve this problem (in theory). I only have to stop. Just finished masturbating after a story I made up with another "girl", telling a guy about how we were goig to a meeting with five guys (we were 12 and 13, they were from 20 to 27), get drunk, and have sex.
The bad thing, is that I got a cramp just when I orgasmed. This is a bad sign. Started reading about it and found a site with all the symptoms of excessive masturbation. Cramps are one. Dopamine receptors lowering is another (this means, I enjoy music less). I already know the answer to my problems, I just have to put it on practice.
Finding a good activity or site to do/browse at night, just before sleeping, would be of great help.
Any ideas on this?

>>170
>Any ideas on this?

This might only work for me, but if I've got a good chunk of time to fill I like searching /pol/ for redpill videos. The stuff they link there is feature-fucking-length, and I enjoy more than all the movies hollywood churns out, if only for Alex Jones' grisly voice.

So just pick anything you find compelling that you don't have to force yourself to do. If it draws you in you might end up not wanting to masturbate at all.

>>172
It's not just nudity which in itself is innoncent. But you deliberately misunderstand my meaning to make a joke.

>>169
Just curious. Did you stop hardcore porn, all porn, or fapping alltogether?

I've started to cut out hardcore porn with the goal of cutting out all porn, but I'm wondering if I need to go the extra mile and just stop fapping.

>>177
Not him, but you are acting like a huge faggot. Swallow your tears and go on.

>>145
>I'm straight but I like traps…

I've got some bad news for you mate.

So for now I've decided to cancel my experiment regarding the OP. Reason being in the spoiler which is NSFW

the fantasy evolved into a mistress who wanted to train me to have a strong dick again, and to have large strong ejaculations. I thought this was very erotic at first. and then I got to thinking that in all liklihood it'd end in some kind of impregnation. then a thought in my head came up: "You are going to fight the demon seed that comes from the union of your sperm and this mind-lady". And I Was like, I don't want to do that. . .but it seemed like it was the sacrifice I had to make in order for this mind-lady to exist through the weeks. Anyway, I found it quite unsettling to think that enlisting this mind-lady's help in re-sensitizing my brain would result in some kind of mind-fight with our offspring (through nightmares I presume). So yeah. I think I'll just go on bottomfeeding on free scripted incest pornography till I get enough money to buy the quality scripted stuff.

>>191
being gay wouldn't be bad news. a vegetarian that likes meat-flavored tofu is still a vegetarian

>>193
Yeah but you're more like a "vegetarian" that likes vegetable-shaped cuts of meat.

>>193
>being gay wouldn't be bad news. a vegetarian that likes meat-flavored tofu is still a vegetarian
A better analogy would be a vegetarian who eats vegetable flavoured meat.

The best way to do this is just to deny yourself all degenerate fantasies. Don't even let yourself think them. This is key.

Eventually you'll get so horny that a picture of an ass in a thong will make you cum almost immediately.

>>294
I'm terrible at denying myself anything. that's why i'm trying to add the employ of a mind-lady, instead of just subtracting the porn. i'm good at a fair amount of things but self control an't one of em

>>315
Quit cold turkey, fail and then try again. I managed 2 weeks, now I'm gonna try for 90 days again. Am I going to reach it? Hell no! But I will one day.

>>339
I wish you the best of luck anon. Do you have any hobbies or activities to go to when the cravings come?

>>357
Yes, but I'm trying to cut back on the vidja and replace masturbation with something productive.

>>143
Sadly, the only way is to reduce the fapping and stop watching porn completely. I went through the same thing as you two years ago. You failed at nofap, because you forced it. Like all things you shouldn't go extreme.

First month:
>fap 2 times a week
>watch some random porn (don't be too much picky, anything that makes you hard will do)
>jerk off as quickly as you can

Second month:
>same as before, but this time use only imagination

Third month:
>fap once a week only
>no porn, no special routine
>just do it quickly
>repeat this forever, or even better at some point stop fapping

People will lie to you that masturbation is necessary, but it is not. Your body absorbs what it produces.

>>1844
>Your body absorbs what it produces.

Does your body absorb your feces?

>>1851
Yes, how new are you?