>>2458
Good stimulants for me are nicotine and tea. Specifically tea, because coffee/pure caffeine gives me anxiety.
Without the pills, I feel "normal". With them, I feel like I'm running on fumes at 150 % speed. You can't slow down though. And once you come down, you feel TERRIBLE.
I feel like if a normal person is mildly sleep deprived, but only suffers the mental aspect of it, it's pretty much what ADD is on a day-to-day basis. When I am tired though, I go into a mode where I do not function. I might eat enough and sleep enough, but try to engage me in a conversation or put me to non-manual work, and I will not be able to do it in a worthwhile manner. I can do dishes and similarly menial manual work if I absolutely have to, but I'd rather just eat, sleep and vegetate in front of the computer when I'm in that state.
When I'm wake and alert though, it feels like my brain moves slower than most peoples. I'm capable of quite sophisticated thought though. I figure out solutions to programming challenges that most people can't even grasp. Database structures I can make in my head. This is because it's not part of the ADD problems.
I have problems with recall and keeping stuff in mind. I'll walk into a room and have to stop and think "why did I get up and go in here?"
In group conversations, I will have to process certain things, or get distracted temporarily, and get left out as a result. It becomes really hard to get back into the conversation as a result, and I have left social settings because it becomes too much to deal with.