Thanks guys, yours words of encouragement warmed my heart.
>>4020
>Is there anything you are currently struggling with that we can help you with?
The fact that somebody read my post is already a great help, because I feel myself sort of committed to do good and fight further.
I'm currently searching for work as programmer. I have 15 bucks it's all that remained from my savings I accumulated during my previous work so I really want to find some work in near future (I live with parents but ask them for money would be painful to me, because I already eating their food). I thought about finding some basic job for newbie programmer, but somehow already more than month I can't find any with my current knowledge. So I realized that I need to lurk moar and go to web dev. I know C# core, some Microsoft technologies for creating desktop apps, but it seems like nobody is searching for newbie C# dev in my town. On every interview which I attended there were questions about college math, general comp sci, OOP, design patterns and C++. I'm not very good at all those things, because I'm newbie self-taught programmer. Of course I read about this new things all the time but it's too much for me to take so much info in near future. So I decided to learn about web dev because there is more jobs for newbie web devs and started learning about ASP.NET (MVC). But for web dev I also need to know JavaScript and all that other stuff. So this is big heap of new info I'm consuming right now. Currently I know some deal about back end (ASP.NET), but almost nothing about front end. So if someone can tell me some tips on front end development I will be very grateful. Currently I did something on codeacademy, and currently am waiting for some courses on edx. Before I start writing this post now I found this http://freecodecamp.com/ maybe someone know something about this. I'm also recently found that Linux is not so bad and became fan of manjaro, so I learned some basics about Ruby on Rails (same MVC as ASP.NET), but it seems nobody uses it anymore.
I also think that if I do not find any work as programmer, maybe I will be forced to take some other simple job to earn some money, while searching for work as programmer. Does this sounds meaningful? I worked on day-to-day work before and I remember that it takes many energy from you and in evening you are usually too tired to do some useful things. But maybe that was before and now I will be able to do work and develop myself as programmer.
>>4022
>Also, remember to talk more, even to yourself to prevent the stagnation of social skills.
This is good advice, and I talk to myself very much (sometimes I even speak something aloud and people turn and stare at me), but also I'm trying to speak half a hour on Skype with my friends every day, or bike with them on weekends. If you are pointing that I write shitty that's because I'm nonnative with English.
>>4029
I keep myself busy enough for not even thinking about fapping.
This is exactly the point. I doubt that I would be able to hold more than several day without keeping myself occupied most of the time. I did 3 faps per day on average before I started nofap so it's already achievement to me.
Also, I fell that I already know something about programming, math or physics so if anyone wants some help I can gladly help.
And there is also one tip that I discovered about a month ago. I configured my desktop to change background every 12 hours and accumulated big folder with carefully picked wallpapers (288 pics now). This is very simple thing but nonetheless it keeps please me.