I hate myself. I'm in law school at a good university but I feel fucking worthless.
You see, although in my country law is not an oversaturated field I still feel worthless. Why? Because I don't build/make/invent anything concrete. Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be an engineer or a doctor or a chemist. But I am a retard with numbers. I didn't memorize basic multiplication (4x4, 8x9 etc) until 4th grade. I cheated my way through middle and high school math.
I don't have to work immediately after college. Hell, I could take 2 more bachelor degrees after I finish law take that 'muricans. But should I? And anyways I'm still horrible at math. I could be a lawyer/engineer and build both legal and literal frameworks IF I could actually into math. But I can't even do 1st year highschool math. Getting a job in law is not a problem after college for me.
When I was in high school I planted a small plot of land with cassava. They're dirt cheap and you could buy them, but when I harvested them I felt pride and joy from the feeling that my effort has materialized into something concrete. I was more proud at this than when I won a debate competition at the same year.
Sorry for the tl;dr. Thanks if you read it.